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The repost of Last Year’s Thank Yous Current mood: refreshed Category: Friends Hey Guys. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas, and if you didn't to hell with it, there's next year and you'll make up for it. Now, I have a lot of things to discuses but I can't because like the last 8 years, I have to get to the repost of the previous years "Tommy Thank Yous" Yes, I know. Calm down people. I know you are so excited. It's my biggest tradition on my blog. I've been doing my thank you for more than eight years, actually, but I've been putting them here on a blog since 2001. It's a very thoughtful and time consuming process where basically I get down to the raw core of my soul and type it out here. Well, I just want to do I quick rundown of what happens. I repost, then on new years (and most of the time I'm a little late, so make it the 3rd maybe) I give my annual thank yous to all the people in my life that year (2008) and then

This is a really quick blog about just stuff in general. Yay! Okay, well, I don't know where to begin. Last night I had a sorta date. Well, my friend (name withheld pending permission) asked if I would like to go out with him to a comedy club in Broadripple. Well, I did and I got the feeling that he meant to ask if I would like to go along with him as he basically picked up half of the club. I guess at this point I am so "desperate" that I read into a friend wanting to hang out as him and I dating. lol. Lord when ever will this desperation end? Oh well, after sitting there at the bar feelings totally humiliated, I skipped out of there. I guess I better call him or something. Let him know that I left, but I'm sure by now he got that I wasn't there. lol. It's been a good 12 hours. So, there are some traditions coming. My annual thank yous and my repost of last years. I can't remember if I did it last year. Uh oh, I'm getting old. lol.

Question 38 makes it a blog Update. Current mood: disappointed Category: Romance and Relationships 40 Secre​tsBe hones​t no matte​r whatOne: Who is your last text from?​My sisterTwo: Where​ was your defau​lt pictu​re taken​?​In a roomThree​:​What is your middl​e name?​I don't give out that info. C.J.are the initialsFour:​ Whats​ your curre​nt favor​ite color​?​PurpleFive:​ Does someb​ody love you?NoSix: What is your curre​nt mood?​Deep in thoughtSeven​:​ When is your birth​day?​January 11thEight​:​ What color​ shirt​ are you weari​ng?​BlueNine:​ If you were going​ on a reali​ty TV show,​ which​ one would​ it be?The Amazing RaceTen: Are you imagi​ning anyon​e naked​ right​ now?Yes, alwaysEleve​n:​ Who is on your mind right​ now?My "lover". I'm thinking about ending this off again on again secret relationship for good.Twelv​e:​ Ever had a near death​ exper​ience​?​YesThirt​een:​ Somet​hing you do a lot?SING ALTHOUGH NOT THAT GREAT AT IT LOL(Same here Jhoeny)Fourt​een:​

Change. It’s a start not an end. Current mood: exotic Category: Life Hello my people! For those of you who are expect a Grande ol blog, I'am sorry I'am in no mood to produce such a thing. I am wanting to be very insightful as to the absence of communication from me, though I feel that my words may come as lackluster in the whole scheme of things because I've so much to say. First allow me to do this. (Stands up, does the happy dance) ! How excited I am about the turnout of this election. Only did the person who I wanted to be elect was elected; Also the turn out was huge and more people than I can remember or recall in the years I've been voting actually took part in this election. How awesome that!?!?!?! As you all may recall, I was torn up when Hilary Clinton did not get the nomination, but I'm so happy that this republican reign of terror is soon to be put behind us, even just for a while. Congratulation To Mr. Obama! As you may know, I've been names

A Blog to काम Current mood: कांफिडेंट Category: Life hello. As you know, I've been political since I came out of my mom's V V with a donkey birthmark. I've not any shame in that fact, nor do I have any reservations exclaiming my political view in a room full of white conservative republicans that this Bush was too weak. You know I have a speech ready for you all, but not just yet. I need another week or so to gather myself. So, I'm going to repost a Blog from July 28th 2004. Please read through it if you don't recall it (but of course you remember ever post I've ever made by heart) . I will be back with a week to post my big blog. I love you all and God bless. (((((((((((((((((REPOST BLOG JULY 28TH 2004)))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Wednesday, July 28, 2004 7:09:40 AM EST Feeling Mischievous Hearing Justin Timberlake Politics are Pouring Lalala. Ok, hi. So, some stuff has been happening. I'm not gonna whine or whimper about it all. Or mayb

Don't worry, you're not alone. I've been put under a lot of pressure recently on five fronts. Church, Family, Job, Self, and Friends. I know you are saying "What the fuck! I'm your friend and I need you" Well, I know you are, but I have some friends with very urgent problems up front and center. Your problems may be more right now, but it's (and I'm sorry to sound cruel) is a first come first serve basis. I'm trying hard to balance all of this and I'm sorry I'm not handling it as well as in the past. I've taken on a lot more responsibilities at church, there are so many stressful situation within my family right now, I'm getting more hours at both my jobs (which is a blessing and a curse at the same time), and I'm dealing with all this when I have a few medical issues with myself that I'm also trying to handle. So, let me tell you how much I love each and every one of my friends, real life and myspace/facebook only.

Hello my beautiful wonderful and stupid friends. This blog, I think, will go one for a bit, so only my truly devoted readers may read this, but whatever. I have much to say, and much to update on. Pieces and pieces all around and I don't mind not being able to make a neat blog, as you would. But I can guarantee it will be filled with my innermost thoughts. Subject 1: Matthew Shepard So, can anyone tell me when he was attacked. Well, I can. October 7th 1998 and he passed away on October 12th 1998. I recall being a young gay teen at the time and hearing of this. It was an important moment in my life when I had to make the choice to stay in the closet and be safe from this type of thing or to come out and be who I am. What a hard choice it was to be in the situation of having to even think about that. Over the years, there have been lots of conclusion as to why the losers who killed Matthew killed him. I don't care what it was. He was our brother. He was a person. Ne

Okay, so so much is on my mind that I can not post a regular blog. This is a very complex blog going in several different directions, but every direction is import in my life. So, allow Tommy the floor. (Pulls up Soap Box) Subject One: Politics I want to say from the bottom of my heart how much I love Hillary Clinton. I've reviewed a few of my blogs from around 2004, and I've always maintain Hill in 2008. I'm still such a huge fan of my Hillary and I swear to you at anytime if she wish for me to be her intern, I'd get the job done and so much more. She took on a lot of things in her campaign, including the very outrageous stupidity of sexism. Sexism! Really, in 200's we are still on this shit. Never have I been more proud of people though for giving her a shot. Hillary is a very smart, very strong, and very capable person. She fights hard and she's on the path to which we all should be. She wants so much to take of the sick in this country. She fou

40 Dirty Little SecretsBe honest no matter what.[ONE] Who were your last 3 texts from?All of them from my ex Joshua[TWO] Where was your default taken ?In a room[THREE] What's your middle name?Um, I'm not telling, but I have two and they start with C and J[FOUR] Your current relationship status?Kissing a certain boy, but not totally steady because it's the kiss kiss phase. Not even dating.[FIVE] Does your crush like you back?Not as much as I would like[SIX] What is your current mood?Stiff but excited that I'm loosing weight[SEVEN] Are you shy?It used to be 90% shy, but it's down to about 65%[EIGHT] What color shirt are you wearing?Black[NINE] If you were to go on a reality TV show, which one would you go on?WIPEOUT, TOTALLY! ( I love amanda Jo and this confirms it)TEN] Are you imagining anyone naked right now?Well, Amanda Jo and Chris . mmmmm.[ELEVEN] Did you ever sneak into an R rated movie?No.[TWELVE] Ever had a near death experience?Yes, a couple. I think I really

Ok, I promise no creepy sexual stuff this time. LOL. Well, maybe just a little. So, I've been watching the Olympics because you know I'm a deep lover of other cultures. Yes, i get turned on by some of the athletes, but that's not the point. I just love other countries and the culture richness of the whole Olympic thing. My favorite events are tennis,the women's gymnastics and any of the games involving a bow and arrow or gun. So, that's a departure from "me" . I don;'t like hunting and I really don't like sports at all. But, I don't know why it's so different with the Olympics that compel me to watch. I also like watching male gymnastics for a very nonsportish reason. lol. Forgive me. Which brings me to a very funny joke. Ok, not really a joke, but today I was watching the running/sprinting and there is a guy that came in first by the name Tyson Gay. So, they were talking about how he edged out a teammate earlier on by the

This is an old post you can read instead of that sexually full one. Wednesday, October 23, 2002 Lee lee l la la la. So, okay, everyone around me wants to kill themselves. Andrew is all depressed and wants to die, and Cory mentioned that he's tired of it all and wants to die, and I said it's time for me to die. So, it's like, I don't know, the moon or something. Starting to question if I make everyone totally depressed around me. Well, I can't be too depressing. This guy keeps saying he loves me because he reed my journal and he keeps giving me his phone number and wanting to go get something to eat. I'm like, ew! It's not him, seriously, it's me. I'm just not the type of person for all that jazz. I would rather chase after a guy that is in love with his girlfriend, yet tells me they broke up everyday! Ugh to you Cory. Ugh. I bought Cory and card and a gift the other day and he got all sentimental with me saying lots of sweet stuff to me. I just wish

Hey my people. As promised, here's another blog, though it's late. Sorry. I will not make it up though. Let me start this blog by saying the following; Listen I love all my friends and I know they love me, but I know some people don't want to hear about certain things. You may want to skip this blog if you have a problem with gay stuff (sexually) or have a problem with any type of talk about sex. My church friends, you should skip this blog. My friends who don't want to think of me as a human sexual being, skip this. My relatives, please skip this. I am not going to get like super graphic or anything like that, but I'm going to honestly talk about a couple things in recent history for me. I posted a previous post from "back in the day" for you all to read if you are not going to read this one. Ok, so, you want to continue on. Fine. lol. I don't really have much to say. I've just been God awful horny lately. Sucks for me because I&

as promised, here is a little bloggy for you bitches! LOL. So, revelation time. I've been kinda of sad recently at the server downturns in my life recently. I mean, I try very hard to keep up the spirit and I've done a good job at that. I've managed to be patient and see where in the hell God is taking me and I've had lot of learning experiences. So, I did something last night that Kept me up until about 7 this morning. I went on a voyage through a big section of my life; HIGH SCHOOL. I have a certain box in my room filled with every single letter wrote to me and a few that I wrote made copies of or did not send. Also in it is a lot of just stuff from high school, including videos that I made back then. So, I opened it and went back to rediscover Thomas Williams DiMera. It was really eye opening. Back then, i was any typical school student, but meagerly different. I was the least popular kid in middle school then in High school, there were few that didn'

Well, okay, so much has happened in such a little time that I am going to try to clear up a lot of stuff and hopefully get enough of my own update in this damn thing। Okay, to answer questions on the last post that I posted, that was a guy that was killed while riding a motorcycle. It was when we were getting onto the high way to go to Georgia. I saw the accident and pulled over quickly to try to help anyway that I could. it was horrible. It was just a very "in your face" thing and realization as I was going on the trip. I was driving and I had the life of my mother, sister, and niece in my hands. I had to make sure that they were okay getting there, and I did. It was a very tragic thing to see just when I am entering the highway to drive all of those miles, but I think it made me more cautious while driving down there. Peace be with Stephen Dowlings family. I wish I could have done more to try to save him. Okay, what other questions have I been asked a lot of. W

An Important Shift Current mood: drained Category: Life My bitter sweet song is now going to begin. Let's get the major stuff out of the way. This is sorta major. (Dramatic Pause) I may be moving to Georgia my friends. The last few months are so I've had to think long and hard about the a lot of things in my life. My resources here, in Indy , have run very very dry. Then, a trip to Georgia Was brought up and a light bulb went off. It may be best if I move back to Georgia for a while to sort myself and my money out. I could use a nice five year break from the hassle of life up here in Indy . The nagging thing in the back of my head though is church. There is no Jesus Metropolitan Community Church down in my little town in Georgia, nor is there any gay people or people I can relate to. Yes, it's a time to focus on reassigning my life to a better position, but I think it may be a little too much. We are heading out Monday and while there, I will be deciding if

Be a Simple Kind of मन Current mood: busy Category: Life I'm just wanting to blog a very quick blog. So, don't look for much depth in this one my friends. My soul is kinda sad right now. I'm trying to get inspired and all that, but I'm just not in the right kind of mind right now. I'm not able to see that light in the sky. I'm not wanting to post just a general "I'm sad but I can't tell you why" blog. I have some clarity. Well, 25% anyways. The rest I'm still working through. A question I'm asking myself is am I a homophobe. Yeah, that's way out of left field, I know. But help me work through this. I'm a very active person in the community when it comes to protecting our rights and our image. I have many Lesbian friends and all that. But, well, I really really really really really really have a problem with getting along with my gay male counterparts out there. It's a struggle to even expose myself in this m

My Endorsements! It's my favorite time of year again!!!!!! ELECTION SEASON! Usually by now, I would already have decided who I was voting for and endorsing, but this year we have the power to change so much and there are sooooo many qualified people running that I just had to do extensive research on each canidate. Now, these endorsements are only for the Primary Elections coming up on May 6th. Now, being that I am NOT a republican and not a democrat, my endorsment are based soley on the extensive research and moral soul searching I've done over the last several months. Now, I was going to call channel 6 directly and let them know of my endorsements, but rioting and all that would soon follow, so I have decided to do them in this way. Now, since I am more of a democrat than I am a republican and in the primaries you must make a choice, my endorsements are for the democrats. But, I would like to send a message to my republican friends about the 7th district seat for Congres

Hey Peeps, I just discovered Brett Dennen about a month ago. His song is on my profile. I'm just so in love with the lyrics he sing and I wanted to post a song up. PLEASE SUPPORT HIM AND BUY THE ALBUM. I have not gone a day since discovering him without listening to the album. There is so much more by Brett Dennen When I heard the news,My heart fell on the floorI was on a plane on my way to BaltimoreIn these trouble times it's hard enough as it isMy soul has a known a better life than thisI wonder how so many can be in so much pain,While others don't seem to feel a thing Then I curse my whiteness, And I get so damn depressed,In a world with suffering,Why should I be so blessed?I heard about a women who lives in Colorado,She built a monoment of sorts behind the garage doorWhere everyday she prays for all whom are bornAnd all whose souls have passed onSometimes my trouble gets so thickI can't see how Im gonna get through itBut then I'd rather be stuck up in a tre

Discovering and रेदिस्कोवेरिंग । Current mood: pretty Category: Life Hello my people and my fans . lol. I'm justr gitty today with so many things to talk about. I just want to quickly share. Alejandro: The love of my past life has finally come to me for help with his addiction to booze. This is a major milestone!!! He currently lives in Boston and it is rather hard to help someone with a problem such as this in another state, but that sure as hell will not stop me from trying. I was so surprized when he called me that I basically just started to weep when I heard his voice. This , I feel, was a sign from God because in my disciplship classes we are learning and focusing on prayer and bring into it scriptures from the bible. We are to pick out a scripture at random and study and focus on it and ask God to enlighten us to it's meaning. Well, Thursday night, I randomly picked out Ephesians 5:1. To the end of the chapter and it starts to speak about not being drunk and s

I don’t think you trust मी Current mood: eccentric । Category: Blogging Sometimes, I’m just to hyper not to write something down. Well, this is the point I’m at now. I don’t know what to write about. I will jot down a few things that have really been bugging the hell out of me this last week,. Well, at the forefront of it all, my older brother, Will, lost his longtime girlfriend. He’s not taking it too well, and i don’t know how to react. My brother and I have a very weird relationship. I try hard to be there for him, but he’s not a person I really look up to. When we were younger, I admired him so much. But in later years, he got mixed in the world of drugs. I’ve never really publicly told anyone this, and it’s been an embarrassment to the family. Will could be so great, I swear. He’s smart, but of course being related to me, why wouldn’t he be. He’s very savy and he’s very humorous. Not a day goes by he doesn’t tell a joke that makes me smile. But, the drugs. The drug