Life's TRUE Journey

Merry Christmas all you little retards that take interest in my pathetic life. You know I love you all. Well, things went kinda well. Cory was outted in front of his friends and family, and Ashley dumped his ass like planned. Then, he totally gets pissed at me threatening to kill me and all that. I was unphased. I was having such a great day Saturday. I know it is not nice to get pleasure from someone elses downfall, but when you hurt me you should expect to have it comming. The only thing that did not go as I planned is that he didn't commit suicide like I wanted. Damnit! I almost backed down from this plan of totally screwing his life Saturday because I was listening to some old messages that he left on my voicemail and it kinda made me think and miss that. But then when I seen him later in the day with that Cocky Plainfield attitude, I said "Fuck it. That skinney bitch is going down" He was almost to the point of tears when Ashley dumped him in front of Ch

Blah blah to all that stuff. I'm feeling better. Seriously, I am. I just now need to loose all the weight I've put on in these two weeks, which is a lot of weight. Screw Cory. Well, it's good news. Ashley, the girl he totally dissed me in front of. Well, she and I have become friends and she says she wants to break up with him. She thinks that he's a self rightious son of a bitch. No offense to Cory's mom. She's very nice. But, Ashley is too nice to break up, so I told her I would help her. We were riding in my car and she was telling me her life story and I realize that this girl and I have a lot in common. It was way cool. So, I am getting over the Cory thing. I know I was acting totally stupid with the suicide shit. I'll be alright. Okay, so, a astrained friend of mine, Cole, and I started talking again and he's like "pretending" as if he wants me. Kinda weird. But, he is like totally obsessed with getting my pic and

Tonight I came the closest I've ever came to suicide. First I'll tell you all the stuff that's been going on since last time. Okay, cory. Cory is the boy with whom I fell in love with, and then my ex girlfriend Cheryl and he started dating. So, I was like always thinking of ways to break them up, which I did. It was simple actually. I just got her other ex boyfriend, Jimmy, into the picture which in fact made Cory really jeolous. So, after only going out for two days, they split and everything was going well. I would go over Cory's house and we were getting along so well. We shared so much more about each other and it's like we were really connecting. So it progressed and progressed and then Wednesday, he goes " I love you" totally out of the blue. So,, being that this was never expect, I laughed it off. But then I didn't hear any laughter back *we were on the phone(. I just hung up after that. So, yesterday Thursday I go over his hous