Life's TRUE Journey

Well, i feel this great need to post a blog, but I haven't a clue what to post. How do I put into words what I feel about anything? I sit an look at the beautiful dusting of snow that falls on this cold Indianapolis afternoon. My thoughts are with so many people. To my ex who is getting ready to move He's recovering from years of abuse of controlled substances. We spent the night together two nights in a row. Just holding each other and working through those issues that I put off years to discuss. I got the closure that I needed. His life is a wreck, but he says to me that my love is what has inspired him to do better. How I did not expect to hear that. I think I've humbled myself so much that sometimes I loose track of the fact that I really do impact some people in a positive way. In the eleven years I've known my ex, that's the best and most shocking thing he has ever said to me. It was sincere, I know, because it wasn't an attempt to get in my pants or get a

See, I told you that I would be posting a blog on regularly। I know it's just one, but I think i will be able to keep up with it if I really try। Also, I am about to purchase a new laptop that will allow me to connect to the net anytime I want, so I can do this! Now, on to some stuff। Matthew are you stalking me?:Well, ever since Matthew left me to go for a shot at his ex boyfriend (which that shot missed big time।), our friendship has been distant. I was hurt for a while, then after time I was able to give forgiveness. I didn't resume the relationship or anything like that. I just let that anger and all that bad stuff go. Recently, though, I've been getting a few reports from people that Matt has been asking them questions about me and approaching them and hanging out where I work excessively. I never paid any attention to it because I'm very busy at work. But once my boss made mention of these facts, I've been more vigilant. Two days ago, I seen Matt at

Before you start yelling at me about not blogging , um, yeah, It's alright. Count to ten. Hello my people. Now for my official blog . I know I've been absent, but not really. I got a twitter and I update it a lot and I thought that would be enough, but noooooo . You people want more more more of Tommy. I'm reminded of that song, gimme more by Britney Spears. lol . Well, okay, he's an official blog of the going ons in my little life. BTW , the twitter address, just in case you don't have it. www.twitter.com/tommywd . He's A friend:Well, at the forefront of my mind is my friend Jim. Jim is such an awesome person. I have been spending a lot of time with him recently. He's been a great source of release for me. When we are together, I can not keep him from not laughing, and inside I'm trying to hold it together and not laugh my ass off myself. Well, this week, he's out of town and house sitting for these queers that he know. I jokin

Life moves on without them। Current mood: discontent Category: Life It's funny, a few months ago, things were looking so up. I had a wonderful boyfriend with whom I envisioned a future filled with happiness, and love, and yes challenges, but nothing we couldn't overcome. I had a grandmother that I could call and try to overcome my rare moments when I lacked faith. She comforted and counseled me until I could see the light again. A few months ago, I knew who I was and where I was going and I would be damn if anyone was going to stop me..... But God had other plans. Though, not mine to understand, God decided the path I was on needed to be altered. I lost my relationship. I thought it would last, but Matthew had other plans. I lost my grandmother. I knew she wouldn't last, but I started to feel that maybe.... just maybe. It was her time though. She spent her life serving the Lord and she needed to rest, and that she did. It's on Sundays such as this where I

It hit me harder than I thought it would. My sister woke me up after spending the night at my house. She says to me " Grandma went to sleep" I knew at that moment what had happened. I posted a blog in March when "the end" was thought to be sooner rather than almost four months later. I shall repost it here after stating what I need to state. The hardest part was how to tell my mother, who held her mother in such high regards. hell, anyone who knew my Grandma Gene respected, loved, and cherished her. She made bad people good. That takes something. She made good people feel even better. There are no words that can describe this incredible woman. This woman who has saved my life here on earth, and my soul. She watered and nurtured my soul. She basked it in God sunlight and always had faith that I would grow to be exactly what God needed me to be. She's up there now; Blessing all the angels and singing in that beautiful tune that she sang here on ear

This is a rather bad, but great time in my life. My thoughts are conflicted, yet I feel the need to just try to type out something. Grandma Gene : My last living Grandmother is expected to pass very soon. She's now in Hospice. I receive this news Yesterday. My grandma Gene is the family member I am closest to. She's the reason why I started my journey in my church. I've always been sure to tell of her in my annual blogs and as often as anyone wants to hear about how beautiful, how graceful, and how faithful this woman is. She's the embodiment of what it is to be a Christian. She is soooo Christ like in all that she does. The love she pours out is so overwhelming. I often tell my groups at Church about her. She often reminds me how to be a "good Christian" in her words, and by the example she sets. The major conflict in my life now is how does one grieve in a Christian manner. I'm not overcome with sadness, because I know if anyone should asce

I know I said I would post a blog, but you have no ideal the things going on in my life. I will post one soon, I promise. But for now, I just want to escape. Here's a survey thingy I took. Take care. Survery From Gabe1/2 BECAUSE I CAN DAMNIT! Body: Be hones​t,​​​ who have texte​d you today​?​​​​Dan, Alejandro, Tanisha, My sister, Ron, Amy, Kevin, and My credit card thingy.Do you think​ anyon​e has feeli​ngs for you?No, because they are all screwed up in the head. Can't realize a good thing right in front of them.Who was the first​ perso​n you talke​d to today​?​​​My mother​How late did you stay up last night​?​​​1:45​Do you regre​t your last fight​ with someo​ne?​​Yes, I regret all fights.Who was the last perso​n you cried​ in front​ of?kevinWhat will you be doing​ withi​n the next 3 hours​?​​​Going to Pride. .Loosing about 20 poundsHave you held hands​ with anyon​e in the past 24 hours​?​​​NoWhat are you liste​ning to?Jason Mraz​Whats​ on your bed?My bad, my umbrella, skit

Hi hi hi. Hello. Okay, maybe blogging will make me feel better today. How a Saturday starts: Today has just started off so bad. I hope not to be as negative as some people in my life (mother) but it's just a suck butt day already. I had to break up a fight among two homeless people. That made me so sad. In my head, I'm making up cinerios on why they were fighting. I do not know the true reason why they were fighting though. My mother angered me today just by being such a negative person about everything. I truly hope that as I get older, I do not get cranky. I just hope to remain happy and, well, gay. My mmother has but only a few focuses in life. One major one is money money money. She lets money control her mood. That's one of the reasons I've made it a point over the last few years to do without a lot of things. There are many things I would like to have materially that I know I can afford, but I've made that choice that I will not let my "

Not feeling Bloggy, but I must Current mood: bummed Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes Okay, i'm in no mood to post a blog. But why? I don't know. I've nothing to say really, but I will force a blog since it's been weeks. Goals Update: So, I figured I would Update on the current situations with the resolutions I made. I will do this every month to make sure I'm still holding myself accountable for them. I'll repost the goals and the current situation. 1. Of course last year I wanted to not gain any weight, and then secretly I resolved to loose 20 pounds. So, this year, up front, I want to loose 30 pounds by December 30 2009. ( Update) Well, as I stated before I took a little break. In the month of January I gained 4 pounds . it's alright, I'm back on it now. 2. I resolve to limit my potty mouth. Since I'm seen as a leader at church, Pastor Jeff pointed out that the reputation of the church can be reflected in the things I do. So, my major this is my potty

Hello my people. Okay, this is the second time I'm typing out this blog. So, if it lacks anything, blame it on that. Now, lets get started. Valerie waz here 1-2009: I had an awesome visit from my bestest friend Valerie , her woman Roxanne , their friend Lisa, and Val's bother Mark. i had such an awesome time. We went over Lisa's mom's house and all of us including Lisa's mom, Jan, played uno . You wouldn't think that that would be an exciting night, but damn was it! he had a cocktail or two and as you know, I'm a light weight so I got really comfortable. lol. My cheeks were in pain from the laughing and great times we had. The finally game of uno seemed to last hours. Lisa's mom is so awesome and it was really great to have that wonderful break with all these awesome people. So, the next day, Roxanne, Valerie, and I went to church. it was the first time Roxanne had been to my church, so it was a little nerve wreaking for her. Not as nerve wreaking as th

Talk about efficiency. WhiteHouse.gov , the official site of the President, was updated to reflect the changeover from President George Bush to President Barack Obama within a few minutes of Obama's inauguration. Has anyone visited the site yet, and if so, have you seen The Agenda page ? I have to say that I am impressed—it lays out Obama's civil rights agenda, which includes broad support for the LGBT community. Among Obama's positions: He supports the Employment Non-Discrimination Act and believes anti-discrimination employment laws should be expanded to include sexual orientation and gender identity; and he supports full civil unions that give same-sex couples legal rights and privileges equal to those of married couples. Additionally, Obama thinks we should repeal the Defense of Marriage Act, and he opposes a constitutional ban on same-sex marriage. He also wants to repeal the military's "don't ask, don't tell" policy; ensure adoption rights for al

Hello people. I've decided to not try to catch up on all the blogs I've missed, for I would be catching up forever. I will just explain what is current in my life and If I need to reference back, I will. So, lets get an update on the tominator! David Archuleta - Are you Serious? : Don't ask me, but damn, I've fallin for the kid. Not like that. He looks way way way too young to like him like that, but I'm in my undies singing his song, crush! Going away away away aahh aaa aa a aaa! It's on my player on my myspace and facebook if you've not heard it. Or youtube it. lol. I look so goofy singing that song, but I'm loving it. Raciest? Again with this: So, I'm loving my paid job, honestly. I work with a great group of people. But, something came up Wednesday that I've been basically battling my whole life. Trent, a black guy who is opinionated as hell, and I were having a conversation. The topic went to race, with what happened Tuesday in

Wow, I'm way late. Sorry. Well, I've been busy. The next blog I post after this will be full of details of my life, my birthday, my newsyears. All the goodie goodies. lol. But I have to get straight to the thank you because this year there are too many people. I may even have to split this into two blogs. We'll see. Lets start off with my resolutions. I had to pick and choose carefully this year because I had so much success with last years that I wish not to muck it up this year. 1. Of course last year I wanted to not gain any weight, and then secretly I resolved to loose 20 pounds. So, this year, up front, I want to loose 30 pounds by December 30 2009. 2. I resolve to limit my potty mouth. Since I'm seen as a leader at church, Pastor Jeff pointed out that the reputation of the church can be reflected in the things I do. So, my major this is my potty mouth. I want to limit it a lot in 2009, and in 2010 I wish to eliminate it all together. So don't look at me funny

Don’t look at me in that tone of voice! Current mood: sneaky Category: Blogging I know, I know, I was supposed to post my 2008 thank yous by now. Okay, I have a LONG list this years, so please be patient। I will post Saturday. I love you all. Currently reading : Rag and Bone (Henry Rios Mysteries) By Michael Nava Release date: 2002-06-04