Life's TRUE Journey

Perfect Lyrics and vocals. On profile. Current mood: sad Category: Music I Will Follow You Into the Dark Lyrics byDeath Cab For Cutie Love of mine some day you will die But I'll be close behind I'll follow you into the dark No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white Just our hands clasped so tight Waiting for the hint of a spark If heaven and hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black And I held my tongue as she told me "Son fear is the heart of love" So I never went back If heaven and hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark You and me have seen everything to see From Bangkok to Calgary And the sole

Annual Repost and Update Current mood: crappy Category: Blogging Hello peeps. Merry Christmas to all. My Christmas was lovely. My family gathered, including my brother Will who was not strung out of begging this year, which just made it even more of a blessing. We ate and we reminisced about my dear Grandmother magnolia. I was so happy with this year. So, just to quickly update on some issues in my life. Yes, my ex boyfriend Kevin was in town. Yay. Well, not really. He brought along MARCO. Yeah, so needless to say, I've seen Kevin only twice his entire trip. We really wasn't connecting on any level at all. He seems like a totally different person to me. Oh well. I think it's because I've been distracted with other things in my life. Kenny. What is it with guys with the K in their stupid names. Well, imagine this people. You bring the guy over to meet your mom. You enjoy each others company whole heartedly. Of course, we all ready established that there is no chance that

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A Blog about nothing Current mood: content Category: Life Hey. This is just a blog about nothing. I just wanted to clear up a few things. Recently, I've been taking notice about what people have been saying about me. Ad if you're one of those people who says " Well it doesn't matter what other people think about you" Well, you're effen wrong because reputation is need and others perception of you won't make or break you, but it can be insightful at time. Here are a few actual quote that I would like to either deny, defend, or affirm. "Tommy is a slut/ho/whore" - Wrong. I've not had many "lovers" at all. I'm flirty yes, but I never take the next steps. In high school, I was very um, slutty, some could say, but I've not been for years now. Next. " Tommy is mean" - Professionally, I can be somewhat hard on my employees. Hell, ok, to be honest, down right devious. I've gained nicknames. (chef ramsey, Boss Bitch, Sl

Princess Gina Has passed Current mood: sad Category: Pets and Animals I dearest friend, princess Gina, has passed away. She had been sick for a while now. After my kitty I grew up with, Booger, passed away it was weird that a week later Princess Gina showed up at my doorstep, literally. She was so skinny and sickly and she took a spot in my heart right away. As was booger the trouble maker in the family, Princess Gina was very very gentle and quiet. As if she appreciated what I was providing to her. The picture which has been my default picture since I opened my myspace is of her a few days after she arrived at my door step. I've lost another companion, folks. I'm not going to respond as I did when booger passed away as to how a cat ins't just a cat because, well, if you don't undersant, I'm afraid you never will. Offically, 2006 has been the suck ass est year ever.

Self Esteem -- the other white meat Current mood: nostalgic Category: Life Issues with my self perception have been around since I was a kid. And I try to overcompensate for it when I'm hving my good life days, but when it comes crashing down, so does my self esteem. Quite recently, I entered into a situation that I'm not very proud of. It's an extention on my act of trapping a friend. Different guy now, and a different trap. Meet Kenny. A very smart guy with opinions out the ass. Not literally of course. He's a republican but yet he's centerlized. He sings, he thinks, and yes he's a heart stealer. I noticed I was falling for him within a week. And within that week, things progressed raher quickly for me. He calls it rebound. I call it knowing a good thing when I see it. He has always, from the beginning, told me that he would end up hurting me. And, yes, he did. But it wasn't his fault. It wasn't hi fault at all. Kenny is straight. And

To Trap a friend Current mood: guilty Category: Romance and Relationships I now speak of my errors. My errors in thought, heart, and in judgement. I had a friend. A very dear friend in fact. And I, which is typical of me, fell for my friend. Yeash. Stupid. Esspecially since said friend has, um, a life partner. But here I am stupid lonely me trying so hard to balance my feelings and my morals. What on earth was I thinking? Lusting and loving someone who belongs to another. Another that I also consider a friend of mine. What was I thinking? It ate at me night after night. It only got better when an enemy from High school got in contact with me an reminded me of a situation. It was high school. I was planning my death. No suicide or anything. But, I was planning to not be around much longer. And I had a friend by te name of Andrew. Him and I were closer than any two "friends" should be. He would tell me stories about his life, and I would share the most in

The Bitch is back! Current mood: cranky Category: Life "Tommy D. Oh yes. Him. Well, he was it in the 90s, then the 2000s rolled around and he got soft. He got sick and all that then the men. Yeah, the men. They made him even more soft. He totally fizzled out in 2006. Shame really. He had something. Wait, what is this..... OMG. No, it's it's...... It's HIM! (Dail tone)" ( Elton john's "the bitch is back" plays in the background) Lyrics by Bernie TaupinAvailable on the album Caribou -->LYRICS--> -->The Bitch Is Back--> I was justified when I was fiveRaising cane, I spit in your eyeTimes are changing, now the poor get fatBut the fever's gonna catch you when the bitch gets backEat meat on Friday that's alrightEven like steak on a Saturday nightI can bitch the best at your social do'sI get high in the evening sniffing pots of glueI'm a bitch, I'm a bitchOh the bitch is backStone cold sober as a matter of factI

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Ok, I've been drinking so I'm not drunk but i;m rather tipsy. Bare with me. Bad day. Such a bad day. Work was the worst ever. My family is in the mix of hating or abusing me. My fiends are just down riht pissing me off and my exes are making me suicidal. But i do have some good news. I saved a bunch on my car insurance by switcing to esurance.com. Honestly I did. saved $312. Yep. My body was in so much physical pain like all over from the stress today. I don't know. So, I came home an I've had about 5 drinks because i have never been in such pain ever. I'm rlazing now so it's all good. Well trying to. i wish i would have went somewhere and got a comedy dvd, but can't go ot now. been drinking. S, tomorrow I have off from work . anyone wanna go out and do something. Lets go ! Goodnight. Gotta go pee

Burgess, Dewey C. July 21, 2006 Dewey C. Burgess 80, of Indianapolis, died July 19, 2006. Dewey was a member of the Teamsters Local #716 and retired from Central Rubber and Supply Company as a truck driver. Dewey's true passion was for auto racing. Dewey and his wife Thelma, were a constant at The Speedrome for over 50 years serving as the pit register and pit gate operator. Dewey and Thelma were inducted into the Speedrome Hall of Fame and to this day are the only husband and wife to do so. Dewey was preceded in death by his wife Thelma. He is survived by his daughters LaVerne (Jim) Henderson, Evelyn (Don) Ent, Beverly Spears, brother Ben Burgess, 4 grandchildren, 7 great grandchildren and several nieces and nephews. Funeral services will be held Saturday at 12 noon at Flanner & Buchanan Funeral Center- Decatur, with calling Friday 3-8 p.m. at the funeral center. Burial will follow the services in Floral Park Cemetery. Memorial contributions may be made in Dewey's memory t

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Well, allow me to finish up. i thought it would be saturday but I'll go ahead and finish up to my earlier post. Mommy Dearest: My mother's health has not been the best in recent months. Her Doctor is a stupid piece of shit and I keep urging her to change, but mothers never listen to their sons. So, she's had this very bad cough for a while now and she's been to that clown a lot. Sometimes he would not even be there, and then, when he is there, he gives the impression that the stuff my mom has been going thru is exagerated. I finally went in with her on one of her visit to this quack and I took the role as the concerned parent. I asked him 2000 questions and demanded that he listen to my mother. it's not asthma. She's had this feeling like there's something in her chest area. So, anyways, they final run some real test and the next thing I know, they think she may have some form of luekemia because some test showed imornality with her Lempht Nodes.

As I promised, an update. I have exactly 51 minutes to complete this, so if I do have to go really fast, I hope you, my fans (lol), will understand. Also, if you would please ask your forgiviness if I am not exactly in a certain order with this blog for I've lots to get to. Reviewing Life: So, if you've not had the chance, i would suggest you go to my blogger blog and read some of the archives. lol. Esspecially the 2001's. I realize, now, how immature I was and how much I've changed in just five years. It's awesome. I'm so glad I started writing a journal of life because it really does give you insight on yourself because usually it's just raw emotion pouring out. I enjoy it. http://prepboy83.blogspot.com Pride 2006: I again, attended pride with my bestest lesbian friend, Valerie. And, it was an event. As you guys know, last year pride sucked rally hard for me, so I thought this year would be a turn around. Well, I know I enjoyed myself a lot mo

It's OK Something to remember. Updating Tomorrow!

Mood: Sad Music: Lonely day by System of a Down Just Lyrics. (I'll post an update soon. Before friday for sure. ) Lonely Day by System Of A DownSuch a lonely day, And it's mine. The most loneliest day of my life. Such a lonely day should be banned. It's a day that I can't stand. The most loneliest day of my life. The most loneliest day of my life. Such a lonely day shouldn't exist. It's a day that I'll never miss. Such a lonely day, and it's mine. The most loneliest day of my life. And if you go, I wanna go with you. And if you die, I wanna die with you. Take your hand and walk away. The most loneliest day of my life. The most loneliest day of my life. The most loneliest day of my life. Such a lonely day, and it's mine. It's a day that I'm glad I survived.

Subject: Forgive me father, For I have sinned Mood: Angry Music: Lonely Day by System of a Down I swear, i need to check myself into a clinic to get some much needed rest. This is a vent post but it's a crazy post, and an ana post and a, I dunno. It's going to be all over the map, ali with my emotional state. Forgive me father, for I've committed a deadly sin. A sin I've repeated A LOT recently. Envy. It's wrong of me and I do realize it when I commit it. But, it keeps rearing it's ugly head in a couple different ways. Confusing ways. I will elabo on a couple. Take for instance, the shocker of a lifetime. I've been speaking with this lady of about 30 years. I've grown pretty attached to her. I usually stop by her place of business, a gas station not to far from my home, and we usually spend about 30 minutes a night speaking to one another when I get off work. Recently, a guy has been talking with her as well. She had been speaking of

Mood: Chillin' Music: Lean Wit it. Franchise Boyz Hello, and welcome to another update on my, well, um, life. I went bowling with Jessie yesterday. it was an outing to discus (and put to rest) all the things that happened with her and I and Sam. So, I said I was sorry to her because I was such a bitch. It was stupid. I blamed her for not being able to be with same, when all along it was really not what I needed. I was angry with her, when I really should have been angry with myself for breaking my own goals set for myself. She did nothing wrong. I really applaud her for even allowing me the opportunity to explain and appoligise for my stupidity. Besides, as I reflect, I know that Sam is not what I wanted anyways. i didn't even know the boy. So, it was great. Jessi is on a bowling league, and I've not bowled since I was about 14. So, I was so embarrassed getting a 25 the first game and 33 the next. Grrr. I should have had the bumpers, but noooooooo. Jessi

Feeling Sad Hearing Nothing I am not a poet, but just something Dancing man so full of grace. Song to sing, with a beautiful face. Long way from home, you made a life worked 60 hours, never took a wife Smiled when sad, smiled when glad Smiled with comfort when you made me mad Heart so big, ego so small And recently my friend, you heard the call. A good person like you is not fit for earth. Now you're with other Angels on their Turf. Move those hips, sing that song. Keep Heaven happy all day long. The memories of that I keep down here. And one day I 'll be there, just to be near. When you sing your song, and dance your dance. How I long for the day I will get that chance. To laugh and play and hold you near. See your smile and know there's nothing to fear. Down here you took things easy Did crazy things, and your jokes were pretty cheesy. You impacted my life with you just being you. And the now I cry with nothing else to do. Cry for the lost, though your memory is fresh.

Feeling Quiet Hearing Nothing Sickness and Death hello. I've not updated in a while, I know. I've been dealing with the death of a dear friend of mine, and also with sickness myself. I will be updating soon though. I'm getting my energy back and I have so much to tell. So bare with me. I love you all. Tommy D.

Feeling Hopeful Watching Desperate Housewives ¿Tomas, por qué es tu triste? Hello. So, a week later and I'm working on it. I've stopped drinking nightly. I've gone back on my diet and I've lost 1 pound. Everything big starts off small, right? I've hashed out the last of the anger that I had over loosing Sam. Jessi and I are no longer friends, but we have agreed to put this all behind us. I will not hold anymore anger for her, nor she for me. Some of the things Jessi said, I've examined closly. The whole "Drama Queen" thing came up. Am I a Drama queen? What is a drama Queen? I find my self dumbfounded by this label. I hope it doesn't mean a person with opinions and not afraid to voice them. I think of all the empty headed, single track minded peeps out there and I'm so glad I'm not them. Not able to hold a conversation. Thinking of only the next lay. That's just not me. Also, the "physical difference" the girls were referring t

Feeling Sad I'm not well I am not well. My heart has become empty. This is not a post of thank yous or empty promises. It's not a fulfillment of promises made previously by myself. This is just a post of me expressing and summing up my life to this point, and boy do I have a lot to say. There was a point recently that I thought that I found "the one" . Why matters of my emotional well being always seem to revolve around the male species, I do not know. This is the story of Sam. I surrounded myself around a few good friends. The main two are Jessi a friend that loves the ideal of love. Especially given the fact that she found her soul mate at 17. And Brandi, a mother of three who also love the ideal of love. My boyfriend, Ramiro, had decided that waiting for me was not worth the venture. So basically, he said to hell with it right before Christmas. It was to be expected. We were both starting to see qualities in each other that were very un compatible.

Feeling Silly Hearing The fuck if I know Thank you for Thank yous! Yeah yeah. So, i'm doing my fucking thank yous for 2005. What a bloodly fucking year that hit was. Fuck. Here we go. Debra my mother- Yeah, you were awesome. tood by me and stuff. Jhoeny- Fucking awesome. Great knowing you. Andrew- Still lead me on and fuck me over but i love it or whatever. Kevin- Fuck you motherfucker. Ramiro- Fuck you piece of shit Fuck this, I'm going to fucking bed.

Feeling Quiet Hearing Watching Survivor Long Time No Write. So, you're pissed off at me. Kinda like a girl would be pissed when a guy didn't call her after a wild night of mind blowing cover tossing pillow biting sex. And, I do appoligise. Wih every fiber of my being. I've not been able to write down my thoughts because I myself have been confused by said thoughts. This is the plan. Tonight I'm not updating, but I'm giving my outline of my updates. The next update, which will be Monday the 6th, I will make sure to do my annual thank yous that were supposed to be done on January 1st. Sorry. The thank yous will be for 2005. So, in the post, I will be reposting the ones from 2004. Then, on Saturday march 11th I will be updating about December and January. a lot of which will deal with Ramiro and why I've not been able to update. Then, on Thursday the 15th I will be updating as normal, with all the stuff that happened in February. and the current stuf