Life's TRUE Journey

Blah blah blah. Boring day. Totally sucks. George W. Bush sucks. Ummmm, I'm going to bed. I have a Tennis match tomorrow.

Rosie and I made up today. Never thought we wouldn't. She wrote me a totally sweet email. I love her so much in a friendship kind of way. She is still VERY CHILDISH though. I'm so honest.

OMFG, you will never guess what happened. My friend, Shawnia, who is a high classed high style friend of mine just told me that she started going out with one of my enemies, Desmond that is a black ghetto drug using gang banger who I hate with a passion. So, I started to talk to her about it, and she just says "It's my choice" I mean, OMG, why. He's a total freak. Why why why!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!? So, I'm not going to talk to her much anymore. If she wants that kind of life, fine.

Well, I'm going to go Fix me a salad. Buh bye.

I ordered a lot of cd's from a music club, and they have yet to arrive. It's been 6 friggin weeks. Where the hell are my CD. I sould have just got up off my ass and went to the mall and got the CDs, but I don't want to deal with the stupid public. Ughhh

I only had three hours of sleep last night. I went to go practive my serve for Tennis. Lost 10 more pounds. I still feel kind of bad about my life right now.

I think I gave way too many people this web address. Now that I think about it, I really don't want you all to know my thoughts and my life. But, oh well.Here is something I have thought about in the last 20 minutes. I was thinking how much better it would be if I were dead. No, I mean, somewhere between high school (My senior year just ended June 2nd) and now, I have lost myself. The future looks bad for me. I worked hard for popularity in high school. To tell you the truth, I was a major dork in Middle school, But high School I made a plan to change that and be very popular and respected and that's what I did. But it took a lot of effort and now that it's over, I feel so lost and depressed. YOu loose contact with 50% of your friends who made you who you are. You have to Be just another number in society without being known. Everyday I walked thru the halls in High school, people would say, "Yeah, that's Tommy D. We all know his story" NOw, The

I guess I should explaine what the arguement was about. Same old same old. I have a lot of friends that are girls. Their boyfriends think I'm too close to them. I mean, I'm not an ugly guy, but I'm not some movie star with a great bod and looks. So what has ALL these guys worried. I mean, this has happened with about 20 of my friends. It's totally stupid.

Oh, and I just smashed my toe in the car door like a total Dix. Life sucks. Popularity isn't easy.

I'm totally depressed. My real life friend, Mia, thru me out of her house because her boyfriend and I got into an arguement. Mia and I have been friends for over 5 years, and she got pregnant last year by some convict and now he thinks he's in control. Obviously he is. She goes, "I think you should leave Tom. " I was like, okay. So I got home and for no reason I started crying. I hate being on the outside looking in. That hurt me so much.

Rosie got made at me last night because I wasn't "Nice Perfect Tom" It's totally ridiculious, She wants me to be more like Dan, her future boyfriend/husband. I try to blame it on her just being 15,. Maybe she isn't mature enough to understand that a guy doesn't want to hear about another guy 24/7. And she must realize that friends stick by one another thru good moods and bad.

PEOPLE WHO DRINK COKE SHOULD BE SHOT AND DUMPED IN A RIVER

I was worried about my mom, so I played scramble with her. She beat me twice in a row. Total bummer. After my dad died, she gets this moods. She's better now. Thanks for worrying. . She gets in a bad mood because she has very low self esteem. I mean, it's totally oppisite of me. I love everything about me. I'm perfect to me. I wish there was a way to make her like herself. I wish there was a way to make everyone like themselves. Like my friend Rosie. She's an online best friend. She is always saying how depressed she gets sometimes when she feels fat or something. OMG, hello, who wants a stick. Not that way Rosie if you are reading this. And my other online friend, Cynthia. All the time, she goes, "Oh, I'm fat and ugly. YOu wouldn't want me" As If. Ladies, get a grip. You are all beautiful, including you mom. Ughhhhhhhh

My mom is acting Depressed again. I don't see why.Hell. She always takes stuff out on me. Like everything is my fault. I'll continue this later.

You people suck. I'm sorry I can't be some loser that speaks slang or some slut who gives it up for a nickle. I went to the mall while I was in Vermont with a few friends of mine, and people come up and start mocking us because we were in a Gap store. They go, "Hey, are you people like totally clueless ? " That was so stupid. I mean, so what if I would rather buy expensive clothes and would rather act better than. Maybe cause I feel as if I am better than. Then, it's naturally asumed that since I'm preppy and I'm a guy that I'm gay. Ughh,. Why can't people just get a life of their own and stop being so involved with me.