Life's TRUE Journey

 Hey people. What's in the Tommy Times today? So the last couple weeks my BFF Jim has been in town ( He retired and moved to Illinois in july). Was rather upset with him because it was like he was here for so long and wanted to wait until the last days of his visit to actually visit with me. If anything  I have been learn is never put off what you can do today Till an unpromised  tomorrow.  Thought he would have learned that but no.  Guess i just took it way too personal. I mean if I were in town the first thing I'd do is visit the people who I care about the most.  Well we spent time together yesterday. Though hurt by it, I figured I wont be too huffy about it. We spent a little time talking about it but moved on to just being happy with conversation.   I love that man. He has been with me for 13+ years. Listening to all the crap I have to say and through life events. We understand one another like others dont. Ewww sounds too romantical. Lol. People often try to get us romant

  Well, my friends I need to do better about blogging. Journaling my life should happen at least every other day. I'm going to make an effort to do so.  I think I've been overthinking it. I read some of my old stuff and it was just me jotting down a few things and some random stuff. It was fun reading some of those. So I'm just going to be loose again . I don't need to write 100 paragraphs everytime. Also bringing  back the In other News section. Yay.  So quick what's happening. My church is opening back up slowly. Excited! I have been suffering  since it shut down due to the Coronapocalypse ( ®️ tommydimera.com ) . Yep I just drop a Tommyism on your candy asses. ❤ I have been down lately. this isolation from the world due to Coronapocalypse  has taught me how much I'm not an introvert  no matter how much I thought I was. I cant seem to find a lover / husband in this shit of a world so I guess I relied on other people to fill that void.  Well I gotta go. But I w

 I have many questions to which I do not have answers.   What am I doing here is a big one. To be quite honest I do not want to be here. This is an entry about a boy that I love, have loved , and am cursed to forever love.  This boy has been the love of my life. More than my husband i sometimes fictionalize to be more of a connection for me than is reality. More than my ex fiance  who was able to distract me momentarily  from my love for this boy. More so than any lover I've ever had in my life.  It's always come back to him. And I sit so often thinking if him. About 4 years ago I removed him from my life as much as I could. Took him fro. My social media pages, removed his number from my phone. But my soul and heart know I can not erase him. The memories of hours long conversations  when i hate talking on the phone. But with him i did it with joy. The references and conversations that only him and I get. The closeness  . The bond of our hearts.   I've only speak openly  to