Life's TRUE Journey

5:36:05 AM EST Feeling Quiet Hearing Lenny Kravitz Nights are lonely. Hello. Ok, so, yeah, I don't have much to say, but I'll speak. I know it seems as if all my entries recently have been negative. Sorry. I don't think in the 3 years I've been doing this journal have I had four negative post in a row. It sucks. Andrew: Andrew and I are having issues again. Andrew doesn't turn to me like he used to. I know something is going on with him, but he won't let me know what. So, that's upset me recently. Well, I can't talk much about him. I'll start crying again and I'm so sick of crying. I was pathetic last night. I was watching American Beauty and As Good as it Gets last night alone and just balling. I dunno. Would have been nice to have someone here with me. My friends are just not here at all. None of them. Sucks. I called Shawna and she was kinda a help, but she spoke to me all of 7 minutes and then had to tend to her fian

5:36:05 AM EST Feeling Quiet Hearing Lenny Kravitz Nights are lonely. Hello. Ok, so, yeah, I don't have much to say, but I'll speak. I know it seems as if all my entries recently have been negative. Sorry. I don't think in the 3 years I've been doing this journal have I had four negative post in a row. It sucks. Andrew: Andrew and I are having issues again. Andrew doesn't turn to me like he used to. I know something is going on with him, but he won't let me know what. So, that's upset me recently. Well, I can't talk much about him. I'll start crying again and I'm so sick of crying. I was pathetic last night. I was watching American Beauty and As Good as it Gets last night alone and just balling. I dunno. Would have been nice to have someone here with me. My friends are just not here at all. None of them. Sucks. I called Shawna and she was kinda a help, but she spoke to me all of 7 minutes and then had to tend to her fian

I get No Respect As a kid we would have these little things about who you like and who you would want to meet. One of the top people I've wanted to meet is Rodney Dangerfield. I seen him on one of those late night talk shows when I was young, and I enjoyed his presence and though what he talked about I didn't understand ( I was young and his comedy has more of an adult theme as you may know). I've followed his career eversince. My thoughts are with his family, his loved ones, and the ones that "respected" him. I wanted to post some of his liners to pay tribute to his gift, and please, have a final laugh for Rodney. Rodney Dangerfield 1921-2004 RIP. Get the respect in heaven. September 19I'm trying a new diet now. The diet is Viagra and prune juice. I tell ya, I don't know if I'm coming or going. September 20People say fish is good for a diet. But fish should never be cooked in butter. Fish should be cooked in its natural oils -

Sucks to be Me Hey. I'm major depressed right now. Just, everything and stuff. I had such a horrible day and one one hand I don't even want to talk about it, but I have to because it's my life and I made a promise that I would share and try to reach out to people. but who am I kidding. No one I guess. Well, lets see, where do I begin? i have no friends. None. Well, none who are willing to be my friend when I need it. Dan, you say. No, he's not here. I find out that he's off catering to his ex girlfriend. The one who has cheated on him, dumped him, devalued him. And I try to talk to him about tonight on his phone, and for the first time since we've known each other, he snaps at me and says to mind my own business. But, yeah, I have no business. Shawna. I tried to talk to her, but she goes off and says that I call too much. Well, not exactly, but she made an off beat comment " You call me every 15 minutes anyways." So, whatever. I