I'm totally depressed. My real life friend, Mia, thru me out of her house because her boyfriend and I got into an arguement. Mia and I have been friends for over 5 years, and she got pregnant last year by some convict and now he thinks he's in control. Obviously he is. She goes, "I think you should leave Tom. " I was like, okay. So I got home and for no reason I started crying. I hate being on the outside looking in. That hurt me so much.
Let's back track to my trip to North Carolina. After nearly loosing my entire self I set out to discover and do something different. I was so tired and so alone. While down in North Carolina I redownload one of those gay chat apps because I was bored . Needless to say horny as well, but that's just my entire being. Btw, when they tell you that your sex drive does down as you get older, they're a damn lie. I've never felt as sexually driven as I am now. Ever. Back ti the point, I was feeling all kind of things while trying to figure out what exactly I need to help myself. One experiment was to just stop beating up in myself and not put sexuality on such a high pedestal. I started with thinking that sex was special and reserved for when you meet that special someone and then you open up and then bam. Never been one of the casual sex scene. But my mind at the time was I am never going to find that someone so no use in being sexually frustrated waiting for somethin