I think I gave way too many people this web address. Now that I think about it, I really don't want you all to know my thoughts and my life. But, oh well.Here is something I have thought about in the last 20 minutes. I was thinking how much better it would be if I were dead. No, I mean, somewhere between high school (My senior year just ended June 2nd) and now, I have lost myself. The future looks bad for me. I worked hard for popularity in high school. To tell you the truth, I was a major dork in Middle school, But high School I made a plan to change that and be very popular and respected and that's what I did. But it took a lot of effort and now that it's over, I feel so lost and depressed. YOu loose contact with 50% of your friends who made you who you are. You have to Be just another number in society without being known. Everyday I walked thru the halls in High school, people would say, "Yeah, that's Tommy D. We all know his story" NOw, There aren't even hellos from the people in the world today. Everytime I walked down the hall in high school, there was, "Tommy!!!!" "Hey Tommy Boy" "What's up tommy". Now, there are nods at my job and nods from my neighboors. An empty gester that takes no effort, thought, or control. And I miss it a lot. Really, I miss a lot of things.
Wednesday, December 7, 2005 4:10:24 AM EST Feeling Mischievous Eating a Chicken Broccoli Hot Pocket I smell Sex and Candy I just had to update after the night I had last night and the weekend I had. Lets start with the smaller stuff. I AM MY SISTERS HUSBAND: Yeah, catchy title, eh? Well, a little back ground. My dear sister "L" is in some sort of relationship with a man double her age. Well, they aren't physical or anything, but they are friendly with one another. So, recently he's had some medical problems and "L" wanted to visit him in the hospital ( And bring him a gigantic basket of fruit and all. Fixed up by her). So I come along because the basket was big and she needed help. We get up to the hospital room, and there he is WITH HIS WIFE! So, I'm sitting back and enjoying the psychology of it all. the wife sense something night right. My sister trying not to say the wrong thing. The guy trying to be happy without being too happy. ...