Life's TRUE Journey

40 Dirty Little SecretsBe honest no matter what.[ONE] Who were your last 3 texts from?All of them from my ex Joshua[TWO] Where was your default taken ?In a room[THREE] What's your middle name?Um, I'm not telling, but I have two and they start with C and J[FOUR] Your current relationship status?Kissing a certain boy, but not totally steady because it's the kiss kiss phase. Not even dating.[FIVE] Does your crush like you back?Not as much as I would like[SIX] What is your current mood?Stiff but excited that I'm loosing weight[SEVEN] Are you shy?It used to be 90% shy, but it's down to about 65%[EIGHT] What color shirt are you wearing?Black[NINE] If you were to go on a reality TV show, which one would you go on?WIPEOUT, TOTALLY! ( I love amanda Jo and this confirms it)TEN] Are you imagining anyone naked right now?Well, Amanda Jo and Chris . mmmmm.[ELEVEN] Did you ever sneak into an R rated movie?No.[TWELVE] Ever had a near death experience?Yes, a couple. I think I really...

Ok, I promise no creepy sexual stuff this time. LOL. Well, maybe just a little. So, I've been watching the Olympics because you know I'm a deep lover of other cultures. Yes, i get turned on by some of the athletes, but that's not the point. I just love other countries and the culture richness of the whole Olympic thing. My favorite events are tennis,the women's gymnastics and any of the games involving a bow and arrow or gun. So, that's a departure from "me" . I don;'t like hunting and I really don't like sports at all. But, I don't know why it's so different with the Olympics that compel me to watch. I also like watching male gymnastics for a very nonsportish reason. lol. Forgive me. Which brings me to a very funny joke. Ok, not really a joke, but today I was watching the running/sprinting and there is a guy that came in first by the name Tyson Gay. So, they were talking about how he edged out a teammate earlier on by the ...

This is an old post you can read instead of that sexually full one. Wednesday, October 23, 2002 Lee lee l la la la. So, okay, everyone around me wants to kill themselves. Andrew is all depressed and wants to die, and Cory mentioned that he's tired of it all and wants to die, and I said it's time for me to die. So, it's like, I don't know, the moon or something. Starting to question if I make everyone totally depressed around me. Well, I can't be too depressing. This guy keeps saying he loves me because he reed my journal and he keeps giving me his phone number and wanting to go get something to eat. I'm like, ew! It's not him, seriously, it's me. I'm just not the type of person for all that jazz. I would rather chase after a guy that is in love with his girlfriend, yet tells me they broke up everyday! Ugh to you Cory. Ugh. I bought Cory and card and a gift the other day and he got all sentimental with me saying lots of sweet stuff to me. I just wish...

Hey my people. As promised, here's another blog, though it's late. Sorry. I will not make it up though. Let me start this blog by saying the following; Listen I love all my friends and I know they love me, but I know some people don't want to hear about certain things. You may want to skip this blog if you have a problem with gay stuff (sexually) or have a problem with any type of talk about sex. My church friends, you should skip this blog. My friends who don't want to think of me as a human sexual being, skip this. My relatives, please skip this. I am not going to get like super graphic or anything like that, but I'm going to honestly talk about a couple things in recent history for me. I posted a previous post from "back in the day" for you all to read if you are not going to read this one. Ok, so, you want to continue on. Fine. lol. I don't really have much to say. I've just been God awful horny lately. Sucks for me because I...

as promised, here is a little bloggy for you bitches! LOL. So, revelation time. I've been kinda of sad recently at the server downturns in my life recently. I mean, I try very hard to keep up the spirit and I've done a good job at that. I've managed to be patient and see where in the hell God is taking me and I've had lot of learning experiences. So, I did something last night that Kept me up until about 7 this morning. I went on a voyage through a big section of my life; HIGH SCHOOL. I have a certain box in my room filled with every single letter wrote to me and a few that I wrote made copies of or did not send. Also in it is a lot of just stuff from high school, including videos that I made back then. So, I opened it and went back to rediscover Thomas Williams DiMera. It was really eye opening. Back then, i was any typical school student, but meagerly different. I was the least popular kid in middle school then in High school, there were few that didn'...

Well, okay, so much has happened in such a little time that I am going to try to clear up a lot of stuff and hopefully get enough of my own update in this damn thing। Okay, to answer questions on the last post that I posted, that was a guy that was killed while riding a motorcycle. It was when we were getting onto the high way to go to Georgia. I saw the accident and pulled over quickly to try to help anyway that I could. it was horrible. It was just a very "in your face" thing and realization as I was going on the trip. I was driving and I had the life of my mother, sister, and niece in my hands. I had to make sure that they were okay getting there, and I did. It was a very tragic thing to see just when I am entering the highway to drive all of those miles, but I think it made me more cautious while driving down there. Peace be with Stephen Dowlings family. I wish I could have done more to try to save him. Okay, what other questions have I been asked a lot of. W...

An Important Shift Current mood: drained Category: Life My bitter sweet song is now going to begin. Let's get the major stuff out of the way. This is sorta major. (Dramatic Pause) I may be moving to Georgia my friends. The last few months are so I've had to think long and hard about the a lot of things in my life. My resources here, in Indy , have run very very dry. Then, a trip to Georgia Was brought up and a light bulb went off. It may be best if I move back to Georgia for a while to sort myself and my money out. I could use a nice five year break from the hassle of life up here in Indy . The nagging thing in the back of my head though is church. There is no Jesus Metropolitan Community Church down in my little town in Georgia, nor is there any gay people or people I can relate to. Yes, it's a time to focus on reassigning my life to a better position, but I think it may be a little too much. We are heading out Monday and while there, I will be deciding if ...

Be a Simple Kind of मन Current mood: busy Category: Life I'm just wanting to blog a very quick blog. So, don't look for much depth in this one my friends. My soul is kinda sad right now. I'm trying to get inspired and all that, but I'm just not in the right kind of mind right now. I'm not able to see that light in the sky. I'm not wanting to post just a general "I'm sad but I can't tell you why" blog. I have some clarity. Well, 25% anyways. The rest I'm still working through. A question I'm asking myself is am I a homophobe. Yeah, that's way out of left field, I know. But help me work through this. I'm a very active person in the community when it comes to protecting our rights and our image. I have many Lesbian friends and all that. But, well, I really really really really really really have a problem with getting along with my gay male counterparts out there. It's a struggle to even expose myself in this m...

My Endorsements! It's my favorite time of year again!!!!!! ELECTION SEASON! Usually by now, I would already have decided who I was voting for and endorsing, but this year we have the power to change so much and there are sooooo many qualified people running that I just had to do extensive research on each canidate. Now, these endorsements are only for the Primary Elections coming up on May 6th. Now, being that I am NOT a republican and not a democrat, my endorsment are based soley on the extensive research and moral soul searching I've done over the last several months. Now, I was going to call channel 6 directly and let them know of my endorsements, but rioting and all that would soon follow, so I have decided to do them in this way. Now, since I am more of a democrat than I am a republican and in the primaries you must make a choice, my endorsements are for the democrats. But, I would like to send a message to my republican friends about the 7th district seat for Congres...

Hey Peeps, I just discovered Brett Dennen about a month ago. His song is on my profile. I'm just so in love with the lyrics he sing and I wanted to post a song up. PLEASE SUPPORT HIM AND BUY THE ALBUM. I have not gone a day since discovering him without listening to the album. There is so much more by Brett Dennen When I heard the news,My heart fell on the floorI was on a plane on my way to BaltimoreIn these trouble times it's hard enough as it isMy soul has a known a better life than thisI wonder how so many can be in so much pain,While others don't seem to feel a thing Then I curse my whiteness, And I get so damn depressed,In a world with suffering,Why should I be so blessed?I heard about a women who lives in Colorado,She built a monoment of sorts behind the garage doorWhere everyday she prays for all whom are bornAnd all whose souls have passed onSometimes my trouble gets so thickI can't see how Im gonna get through itBut then I'd rather be stuck up in a tre...

Discovering and रेदिस्कोवेरिंग । Current mood: pretty Category: Life Hello my people and my fans . lol. I'm justr gitty today with so many things to talk about. I just want to quickly share. Alejandro: The love of my past life has finally come to me for help with his addiction to booze. This is a major milestone!!! He currently lives in Boston and it is rather hard to help someone with a problem such as this in another state, but that sure as hell will not stop me from trying. I was so surprized when he called me that I basically just started to weep when I heard his voice. This , I feel, was a sign from God because in my disciplship classes we are learning and focusing on prayer and bring into it scriptures from the bible. We are to pick out a scripture at random and study and focus on it and ask God to enlighten us to it's meaning. Well, Thursday night, I randomly picked out Ephesians 5:1. To the end of the chapter and it starts to speak about not being drunk and s...

I don’t think you trust मी Current mood: eccentric । Category: Blogging Sometimes, I’m just to hyper not to write something down. Well, this is the point I’m at now. I don’t know what to write about. I will jot down a few things that have really been bugging the hell out of me this last week,. Well, at the forefront of it all, my older brother, Will, lost his longtime girlfriend. He’s not taking it too well, and i don’t know how to react. My brother and I have a very weird relationship. I try hard to be there for him, but he’s not a person I really look up to. When we were younger, I admired him so much. But in later years, he got mixed in the world of drugs. I’ve never really publicly told anyone this, and it’s been an embarrassment to the family. Will could be so great, I swear. He’s smart, but of course being related to me, why wouldn’t he be. He’s very savy and he’s very humorous. Not a day goes by he doesn’t tell a joke that makes me smile. But, the drugs. The drug...

How to make an Ass out of थोमa Current mood: blessed Category: Life Drumroll please. Ok, introducing the best speechwriter, friend, lover, tennis player, website creator, and son in the whole world. Say hello to Mr. Tommy D D-licious. (Applause and riots starts) Ok, I'm dorky today which is a very stark contrast to what happened yesterday. So, I just wanted to update that as soon as I could and let you all know what the crap happened. And update on some other crap. So, I'm in a crap mood sorta and I don't care so I'm going to just blog now because I have nothing better to do in the world. Ok, yesterday I went to my church classes as I do every Thursday. Well, it was my day to share with the class my "Spiritual Journey" which is basically an outline your life as it is and the events that have shapped the way you feel about your connection with god. Well, you all know, I am a writer. I don't do the whole public speaking about myself unless it's...

There are too many ऑप्शन्स Current mood: blah Category: Romance and Relationships Hi, I'm tommy D. and I'm a manaholic. WTF!?!?!?!? Ok, so I am post a very quick blog about basically, men. Why do I do this. because I'm working stuff out in my head and I need an outlet. Why are men so ........... whatever the hell they are? You all know what I'm talking about. Worry not, what is for the str8 men, transferrs right over to the Gay and bi ones as well. So, you will be able to relate. Men are sooooooooooooo friggen fustrating and yet at the same time, you can look at one without seeing a little child. that sounds perverted, but it's not. I mean, they seem so friggen innocent when they are nothing but. And they do such childish things that send you up the wall but yet you feel sorry for them because it's like they know no other way. What stage I am in: Well, in relationships I know there are different stages. Right now, I'm in the dreeded hunting sta...

Because I feel like Blogging Current mood: weird Category: Life It's rare I wish to talk, but I do for some reason. OMG, wait, It's the big V-day. Happy V-Day everyone. I wish you a lot of kisses, hugs, and butt grabs, and ect. ect.ect. I'm feeling a bit weird today, so this is a blog that I suggest to everyone they skip. I'm going home soon and having a nice glass of wine and maybe a white russian. Yay. I don't know why, but on V-Day, I'm never sad about being single. But it's Christmas and my Birthday that I hate being single. Weird, because V-Day is set up for couples, but I find it so enjoyable. It's weird, yeah. I'm weird. I love V-Day. People kissing and making love and all that. lol. So, what's going on? I've been thinking a lot about moving out of time. That's one of the things I didn't include in my last blog that I knowingly excluuded. I don't know why, it's just that I must get the hell out of town....

Just wanted to Blog about नोथिंग Current mood: confused Category: Life Ok, well, I'm blogging about nothing because honestly, there is nothing to blog about, but everything i guess. Well, for the most part I've been just trying to handle a lot of business. yeah, if you get that I'm not going to go into great detail about it, you're right. Just a lot of business. Church: Church is going well with my discipleship classes. There are a lot of people who I find interesting there, but like always I feel dissconnected from them as I do with everyone in life. it's because I keep way too many secrets. I should just finally write my tell all autobi and let it be done with. But to tell the truth, the things I do keep secret are to no importance to anyone unless I do let them be known. Relationship: Yeah, I'm feeling whorish, and I don't know why. I have a "thing" for 7 people. Yes, today i sat down and counted them all up and I know for a fact th...

A quick bloggy of nonesense Ok, so, as you all may know, I am currently without a computer at home except for the simple desktop which doesn't have a high speed connection and I just got rid of my dail up connection for it two months ago. So, I don't want to re enroll in a dail up account. I'm still waiting to get my laptop back to working. Not having a laptop hasn't been tooo terribly bad. I've actually managed to clean my room and also I've read (and this isn't a joke) six full books over the last month. Yeah, OCD can really be a good thing sometimes. So, this is not going to be an in dept totally honest blog because I'm at a public library and people are already looking at me. lol. Of course, why wouldn't they. I'm dead sexy. Yes, today I'm very very gay. !!!! Do you have any ideal how many hot guys are here at the library! mmmm mmm mmm. I could be a total hwhore if i wanted to buty i'm not trying to be. I'm just here...

Uh Oh. 2007 Thank Yous. Current mood: rushed Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes Ok , so, its that time of year. The thing that everyone has been waiting for. Tommy's Annual Thank Yous. YAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!! (And the crowd goes wild) I can not believe I've kept up with this tradition for 7 years now. It's awesome. I'm proud of the fact that i actually have a tradition that i can keep. So, without farther ado, I will get to it. But first of course my resolutions and my disclaimer. I try to have at least five resolutions . What exactly do I need to resolve to do? Ok , 1. Pieces of You- I will put my family back together this year. We have been under so much stress that it's just ripped such a huge hole in this family. So, I will put it back together. I've already begun this, but I will step up my efforts and get the results I need. 2. Pieces of Me- I will get my spirit back from the grips of the past. I made this a resoulution last year, but was not able...

Tuesday, December 25, 2007 Rundown, Repost, and Regulars Current mood: calm Category: Friends So many things to discuse and unfortunatley, i've let things pile up. I've not been on for a while trying to build myself up again and all that. So, heres a run down. Today, as like the last 6 years, I will repost my annual thank yous from last year. The Thank yous are something i do every year (7 years now) at new yearsday, reflecting on year past, and giving thanks to the people wh impacted my life. But you knew that, right? Now, i still owe a special Julia blog, which i will do Friday along with a full update on my life. So mark that day on your calenders. I actually uploaded a video of the whole Julia thing, but its basically the events of the funeral and me trying to speak while crying like a baby, so a blog is more fitting. Then of course on New Years day, i will post the 2007 thank yous (last couple of years, i've been late,but i will do my best this year). Okay, th...