Life's TRUE Journey

Mood: Sad Music: Lonely day by System of a Down Just Lyrics. (I'll post an update soon. Before friday for sure. ) Lonely Day by System Of A DownSuch a lonely day, And it's mine. The most loneliest day of my life. Such a lonely day should be banned. It's a day that I can't stand. The most loneliest day of my life. The most loneliest day of my life. Such a lonely day shouldn't exist. It's a day that I'll never miss. Such a lonely day, and it's mine. The most loneliest day of my life. And if you go, I wanna go with you. And if you die, I wanna die with you. Take your hand and walk away. The most loneliest day of my life. The most loneliest day of my life. The most loneliest day of my life. Such a lonely day, and it's mine. It's a day that I'm glad I survived.

Subject: Forgive me father, For I have sinned Mood: Angry Music: Lonely Day by System of a Down I swear, i need to check myself into a clinic to get some much needed rest. This is a vent post but it's a crazy post, and an ana post and a, I dunno. It's going to be all over the map, ali with my emotional state. Forgive me father, for I've committed a deadly sin. A sin I've repeated A LOT recently. Envy. It's wrong of me and I do realize it when I commit it. But, it keeps rearing it's ugly head in a couple different ways. Confusing ways. I will elabo on a couple. Take for instance, the shocker of a lifetime. I've been speaking with this lady of about 30 years. I've grown pretty attached to her. I usually stop by her place of business, a gas station not to far from my home, and we usually spend about 30 minutes a night speaking to one another when I get off work. Recently, a guy has been talking with her as well. She had been speaking of ...

Mood: Chillin' Music: Lean Wit it. Franchise Boyz Hello, and welcome to another update on my, well, um, life. I went bowling with Jessie yesterday. it was an outing to discus (and put to rest) all the things that happened with her and I and Sam. So, I said I was sorry to her because I was such a bitch. It was stupid. I blamed her for not being able to be with same, when all along it was really not what I needed. I was angry with her, when I really should have been angry with myself for breaking my own goals set for myself. She did nothing wrong. I really applaud her for even allowing me the opportunity to explain and appoligise for my stupidity. Besides, as I reflect, I know that Sam is not what I wanted anyways. i didn't even know the boy. So, it was great. Jessi is on a bowling league, and I've not bowled since I was about 14. So, I was so embarrassed getting a 25 the first game and 33 the next. Grrr. I should have had the bumpers, but noooooooo. Jessi ...

Feeling Sad Hearing Nothing I am not a poet, but just something Dancing man so full of grace. Song to sing, with a beautiful face. Long way from home, you made a life worked 60 hours, never took a wife Smiled when sad, smiled when glad Smiled with comfort when you made me mad Heart so big, ego so small And recently my friend, you heard the call. A good person like you is not fit for earth. Now you're with other Angels on their Turf. Move those hips, sing that song. Keep Heaven happy all day long. The memories of that I keep down here. And one day I 'll be there, just to be near. When you sing your song, and dance your dance. How I long for the day I will get that chance. To laugh and play and hold you near. See your smile and know there's nothing to fear. Down here you took things easy Did crazy things, and your jokes were pretty cheesy. You impacted my life with you just being you. And the now I cry with nothing else to do. Cry for the lost, though your memory is fresh. ...

Feeling Quiet Hearing Nothing Sickness and Death hello. I've not updated in a while, I know. I've been dealing with the death of a dear friend of mine, and also with sickness myself. I will be updating soon though. I'm getting my energy back and I have so much to tell. So bare with me. I love you all. Tommy D.

Feeling Hopeful Watching Desperate Housewives ¿Tomas, por qué es tu triste? Hello. So, a week later and I'm working on it. I've stopped drinking nightly. I've gone back on my diet and I've lost 1 pound. Everything big starts off small, right? I've hashed out the last of the anger that I had over loosing Sam. Jessi and I are no longer friends, but we have agreed to put this all behind us. I will not hold anymore anger for her, nor she for me. Some of the things Jessi said, I've examined closly. The whole "Drama Queen" thing came up. Am I a Drama queen? What is a drama Queen? I find my self dumbfounded by this label. I hope it doesn't mean a person with opinions and not afraid to voice them. I think of all the empty headed, single track minded peeps out there and I'm so glad I'm not them. Not able to hold a conversation. Thinking of only the next lay. That's just not me. Also, the "physical difference" the girls were referring t...

Feeling Sad I'm not well I am not well. My heart has become empty. This is not a post of thank yous or empty promises. It's not a fulfillment of promises made previously by myself. This is just a post of me expressing and summing up my life to this point, and boy do I have a lot to say. There was a point recently that I thought that I found "the one" . Why matters of my emotional well being always seem to revolve around the male species, I do not know. This is the story of Sam. I surrounded myself around a few good friends. The main two are Jessi a friend that loves the ideal of love. Especially given the fact that she found her soul mate at 17. And Brandi, a mother of three who also love the ideal of love. My boyfriend, Ramiro, had decided that waiting for me was not worth the venture. So basically, he said to hell with it right before Christmas. It was to be expected. We were both starting to see qualities in each other that were very un compatible. ...

Feeling Silly Hearing The fuck if I know Thank you for Thank yous! Yeah yeah. So, i'm doing my fucking thank yous for 2005. What a bloodly fucking year that hit was. Fuck. Here we go. Debra my mother- Yeah, you were awesome. tood by me and stuff. Jhoeny- Fucking awesome. Great knowing you. Andrew- Still lead me on and fuck me over but i love it or whatever. Kevin- Fuck you motherfucker. Ramiro- Fuck you piece of shit Fuck this, I'm going to fucking bed.

Feeling Quiet Hearing Watching Survivor Long Time No Write. So, you're pissed off at me. Kinda like a girl would be pissed when a guy didn't call her after a wild night of mind blowing cover tossing pillow biting sex. And, I do appoligise. Wih every fiber of my being. I've not been able to write down my thoughts because I myself have been confused by said thoughts. This is the plan. Tonight I'm not updating, but I'm giving my outline of my updates. The next update, which will be Monday the 6th, I will make sure to do my annual thank yous that were supposed to be done on January 1st. Sorry. The thank yous will be for 2005. So, in the post, I will be reposting the ones from 2004. Then, on Saturday march 11th I will be updating about December and January. a lot of which will deal with Ramiro and why I've not been able to update. Then, on Thursday the 15th I will be updating as normal, with all the stuff that happened in February. and the current stuf...

Wednesday, December 7, 2005 4:10:24 AM EST Feeling Mischievous Eating a Chicken Broccoli Hot Pocket I smell Sex and Candy I just had to update after the night I had last night and the weekend I had. Lets start with the smaller stuff. I AM MY SISTERS HUSBAND: Yeah, catchy title, eh? Well, a little back ground. My dear sister "L" is in some sort of relationship with a man double her age. Well, they aren't physical or anything, but they are friendly with one another. So, recently he's had some medical problems and "L" wanted to visit him in the hospital ( And bring him a gigantic basket of fruit and all. Fixed up by her). So I come along because the basket was big and she needed help. We get up to the hospital room, and there he is WITH HIS WIFE! So, I'm sitting back and enjoying the psychology of it all. the wife sense something night right. My sister trying not to say the wrong thing. The guy trying to be happy without being too happy. ...

Monday, November 28, 2005 5:16:52 AM EST Feeling Flirtatious Hearing Etta James - At last I lost my ass, can I have some of yours At last my love has come along. My lonely days are over.at last the skies above are blue. My heart was wrapped up in clover, the night that I looked at you. I found a dream that I could speak to a dream that I can call my home. I found the thrill to press my cheek to, of real love I've never know. You smile, then the spell is casted. And here we are in heaven. For you are mine at last. Hey. Well, lets see. I'm in such a horny mood right now. I don't know why. Oo, wait, yes I do. I'm surrounded by hot guys. lol. Allow me to explain. i don't mean that literally right now I have guys surrounding me. But, well RAMIRO- THE NEW KEVIN: So, my friend Ramiro and I have been hanging more and more. Saturday night, though, oooo I hate him. lol. Well, not literally. he must have read my blog about what drinking does to me, becau...

Yo yo yo dawgs. What be the word and yeah, as if. Totally, and so like, uh huh so watcha doin back yonder. Yaw ain't messin round no foolishiness you hear now? So may I make a rather urgent suggestion darling. Cayete putos. Ok, I must be weird or something. Just wanted to give a uick update because I'm bored and I need something to get me to sleep. What bitches: So my friend / gay virginity taker Aaron and I were talking yesterday. Guess what? ELTON JOHN IS IN FREAKING TOWN (yes he's staying over at my house tomorrow night) and guess what people. Aaron got tickets to his concert and is going to suprize his fiancee Mike with them tonight!!! I'm pissed. Ugh. And they are friggen good seats. their not floor, but they are one row up! I wish I were with Aaron right now just to have those tickets. But hey, I still have Ramiro. The Potiential: So my friend Ramiro and I have been getting comfy with one another. Well, not too comfy. Not as comfy as I would li...

Feeling Hopeful Hearing No Doubt - Don't Speak One STI for me, Two STIs for You As Promised, an Update. Eventhough there's a storm outside and I may die by using this Laptop, but it's ok. As long as the blog gets updated, right? Oh, Hi Cory: So, it's of course been a while since I've seen Cory or even heard from him. And knock knock, who's there!!!!!!!! Cory! I'm thinking " Oh lord, he must have heard that Kevin and I are no more and he thinks he can get back with me" but I graciously invite him in and get him a dew. So we talk and remenes about a few minutes then he tells me the reason for the visit. He tells me that he has to notify his ex'es that he has a STI (Sexually Transmitted Infection. Formally known as STD- Sexually Transmitted Disease) and he may have passed it to me because he's not sure when he got it or who he got it from. THANKS FOR THE FRIGGEN VISIT CORE! The devil inside me started to laugh saying if anyone ...

I will update when I get home tonight which will be around 2am, so it's more like Tuesday morning. Oppsy!

THIS IS A POST FROM THE PAST. MAKE SURE YOU READ THE UPDATE POST. THIS IS JUST A REPOST FROM THE PAST. I DID UPDATE!!!!!!!! LOOK AT THE PREVIOUS POST! THE ONLY QUESTION I HAVE ABOUT THIS REPOST IS, WHERE IS RICKY? >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Monday, April 28, 2003 Oh Hi. Ok, so, my cat died. He was 70 in kitty years. It's kinda sad. Who am I kidding, it was a lot of sad. It's so weird after living with someone for 10 years of your life, the next day they are just gone. Of course, I can hear you dumbasses out there saying "Oh it's just a cat" but it's not. HE was my cat, and his name was Booger damnit. Ok, well, i've also been pissed off at another situation. Well, I have/had a friend, Kelly, who I've been friends with for a while now. Now, I knew before hand she had a problem with racism. Well, had a problem with the words. So, ok, i guess i learned to ignore the n word she sometimes uses because she, i thought, di...

Feeling Loopy Hearing Incubus - Nice to know ya Trying to keep it positive Now, if you don't have time to read, I suggest you stop now because I'm expecting this to be a pretty lengthy post. Also add to that, I will be posting a famous blog entry from the past just to reflect and remember. LOL. So, yeah, I'm making no excuse for my absence. You all know I've had major issues on my plate recently and this is really the first oppurtunity I've had to update in a couple of months. SO, without farther a mountain dew, This is act 3 of The life of Tommy D. Mommy's Mojo: So, my mother had a very difficult adjustment to not being able to hear. Now, this is where I know our lord is there and hear our prayers. I mean, we had Gobs and tons of people praying for our situation. So, one day I was playing with this stupid bird toy and my mother comes rushing up to me and said she could hear that bird. Since that day, her hearing has improved, though very little at ...

Earth is Sick The earth is sick, people. The earth is very sick and is in need of heeling. And, it's my belief that the power of Love can heel the most sick of things. That's why I'm calling everyone to pull together and give love. Just love, before we are all doomed. I would like to send a late, but still heartfilled prayer to all of those involved with the Katrina disaster. I could never imagine that one day I have a home, a family, a stability, and in the next I'm searching the rumbles of my home looking for one member of my family. The deeply soul saden photo's that I view on the internet, on the TV, and in the newspapers is enough to crush a person, and to be that person living it, it's just so much dispair. But, as with the September 11th tragedy that most of us still live with to this day, we are reminded of the good natured and loving people who immediate thought wasn;t " Aww those poor people", but was " What can I do to help tho...

Feeling Sad Hearing 98 Degrees- I do (Cherish You) Long awaited Update Hello. I'm sorry for not updating. I've been so busy with personal life, work, and all that. So, you'd think I'd have a lot to update here, but no. So, let me update the little that I do have. Kevin's Influence : So, we were "off" . And, I was so lonely. So, yeah, you can guess what happened. Him and I patched up some of our differences. So, we were friends for a good month. No sex. You know, just friends. Then, it was time again. I was horny, he's always horny. Add one and one, and you get love making. And, it was great. So, that's been going on for the last 3 weeks now. Now, for the reason of my sadness. Kevin and his family have been contemplating a move, and a decision has been made. They will be moving to California for a month with family, and then they will be moving to Hawaii for good. They expect to be out of Indy September 8th. I don't know i...

Bi/Slightly Gay You scored -10 (-52 being completely gay, 0 being bisexual, and 52 being completely straight) For the most part, you are bisexual. You have a slight preference for the same gender, but either gender would suit you. If you are sexually inexperienced, it is possible that this will change after you do some experimenting.

Feeling Quiet Hearing Extreme- More than Words Pride and Final Hi. It's exhausted Tommy D. Updating again. Yay! Celebrities I hate : Might as well start off on a soft note. I hate Katie Holmes, the annoying little crap chute! Ewww. And I hate Tom Cruise for dipping that low. Angelina Golie! Ewww, how disgusting. Ugh! Her only saving grace is the love she exhibits for her son, Mattox. That's just absoulutly beautiful. Ok, I don't hate her. But, she angers me. And Brad Pitt, never liked him, and I just hate him even more. George W Bush, that flying fuck! Ugh! Hilery Duff. Ew! Ugh, why can't she move away somewhere. Russia or somewhere! I'm sure she would make an excellent russian whore! The Celebrities That I love : Paris Hilton. Lovez you so much. If only you weren't blonde, but that;s ok. If anyone, you make it hotttt! Ellen! Ellen Ellen ellen! Aye! Man, the name even gives me a certain sort of thrill! And your totally fabu mom, ...