Life's TRUE Journey

Okay, now, lets talk about some stuff in my life. I have a new friend, named Stryker. Yes, that's his actual name. He is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo yummy too, but he's soooooooooooooooooooooooo ghetto so it's like, ew. How do I meet these people. Well, in actuallity I meet him because Stephanie used to fool around with him. Stephnie is Cheryl's best friend. And, Of course Cheryl was my um, yeah. Speaking of Cheryl, I'm totally fed up with her. She's stealing my men. Well, they never get a chance to be mine because she has a killer body and everyone takes notice. Ugh! Anyways, I'm eating Golden Grahams (mmmmmmmmmmmmm) and I'm a monkey so I better go. Love you all. In Other News My mommy is sick. :*( Me so Horny. I wish People would stop trying to pay me to sleep with them. i swear I would give oral to anyone for free. OMG, what a slut!

Apparently I took a little quiz thing that Rosie alude me to. And, that is my resultrs. (Evil look)

now it's your turn to take the "which pop sensation are you" quiz.

Look at me I'm Tommy D. Floucing with virginity. Won't go to bed till I'm legally wed. I can't! I'm tommy d. Watchit, hey, I'm Dorris Day, I was not brought up that way. I don't drink, I don't swear, I don't wrap my hair. I get ill from one cigarette. Keep your filthy paws off my silky draws. Would you pull that crap with Anette. As For you Troy Donahugh, I know what you want to do. You got your crush with an objective lust. I'm just plain Tommy D. Elvis, Elvis, let me be. Keep that pelvis far from me. Just keep your cool, now you're starting to drool. Hey, bongour, I'm tommy D.! Anyway, howdy to all my peeps that are still interested in my pathetic life. So, still no boyfriend. Still a virgin in that aspect. Still no girlfriend. Totally sucks. I kinda gave up on both of those anyways. I am so bored with it. I am really right now focused on improving myself right now. I haven't been happy with myself . I...

So yeah. Uh huh uh huh. It's been a while I know. I've been busy. So, sorry. Don't start yapping at me because I didn't update this thing. So, what's new with me. Thursday, I was at Circle Center mall and this older lady about 60 was on the escolator in front of me started to fall back and I caught her. It's so great. I feeled like superman all day. Sorry, I have to run. I will type more later.

Okay, it's time for me to take a vacation somewhere. Okay, so, my week was bad and worse and all that good stuff. For one, Rosie hasn't been on all week and we haven't talked about Buffy and it's annoying, and I need her. So psh to that. The FBI is investagating certain members of my family, and they are totally harrassing everyone. It's a complicated situation, and I care not to get into it here, but it's stupid. So, they show up one day and start asking me and my mom and my sister about some people we never heard of. And, I thought of course, it was one of those candid camera like things because I thought it had to be some sort of twisted joke. But I quickly learned they were serious. And then, they left and we never heard from them again. This all happened on Wed. So, after this comming wed., I will be a little more relaxed. It pisses me off how certain lower class members of my family can bring us all down. Ugh! Anyways!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...

Hey Folkies. OMG, where the hell is Rosie. It's like, she's never around. I think she's cheating on me with her boyfriend, and that's so wrong. Anyways, big friggen ugh goes to Buffy the Vampire Slayer for not marrying Xander and Onya. It's like I was all excited and happy, and the end result is that Onya is going to turn back into a bad demon. So fustrating. Anyways, you know what I hate. Poor people. Okay, hear me out. It's so annoying that everytime I have someone over to my house, my CDs and other shit end up missing. It annoys me so much. I mean, if they wanted it, they should ask me a I most likely would just give them the damn thing and buy a new one for myself, but it's like everytime someone comes over, stuff comes up missing. This time, it was three CDs and I know Sara Scott got them. She's such a pathetic whore. Ugh. I'm so horny tonight, but feeling so sick. I've been having these weird cramps for the past three da...

Yeah, so, Cheryl and I have been fighting all day. She totally pissed me off with her little PMS'ing attitude. She pissed me off so bad, to where I screamed at her and I told her I was bi and she was like, ugh. And I was like ugh. So ugh! Anyways, Rob and I had an hour long discussion about sex and stuff, and It's been a totally fucked up day. Oh well, at least I got to come home and watch Buffy the Vampire slayer. The best show on earth. I wonder if Rosie is watching it. God, I miss Rosie Pie. I went shopping today and went to Bath and Body works and I smelled this seant, and I don't know why, but this seant made me think of her. It's like total obsession with me, but I love her in a non obsessive way. But her feelings twords me is questionable. OMG, Onya and Xander's wedding. Talk more later. Shawna just came over. Gorra go.

So, I'm totally pissed because I did a blogger and got to the end of it (It was a long one too) and the damn thing fucked up at the last moment and nothing was published. So I'm screaming at the top of my lungs "Geezus Crap holy as if fuck shit damnit!" So, right now I don't want to really type anything. Okay, so this will be short. Andrew and I talked twice since the big "break up". The first time he spent the time saying sorry, and how happy we both will be, then the second time, I told him I found someone named Ricky, which is actually just a friend of mine that is half hispanic and half europian, like Andrew. I told Andrew that Ricky and I are thinking of loosing our gay virginity together and Andrew got really pissed, so he left. And I was like, sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So mean, I know, but that bastard hurt me. And no, I'm not really dating Ricky. He's one of those guys that look so damn good, but lacks in, um, personal...

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh to everyone! I drive around with Rob and we were talking like usual. His wife's a bitch, my life's a bitch. And I mention something about this woman we say. I was like, hey baby, and then I got angry when she didn't respond and drove away. Then I said " I get mad when I don't get what I want" and then he says, being the stupid man that he and all men are, "Well, you must get mad a lot" and I was like into rage because, gezzzz, that's such a bad thing to say at the point of my life that of which I am in right now. Am I over using the words? So, I don't know if I'm mad at Rob or not. Rosie, on the other hand continues to be my stone. She's so good to me. She sent me this poem that I sent to her a long time ago because yesterday I mentioned that I was feeling that I had grown cold inside and feelingless, and she found the poem I sent her just to point out that I do have feelings and I felt it was total...

Hello Folks. Well, there is no more Andrew and I. And, to make matters worse, I stopped eating. 've been drinking a lot of stuff and I didn't even realize that I haven't been eating until Cheryl pointed it out to me. I got on the scale and I looked in shock when I realize I lost 10 more pounds in less than 5 days. I've been going and going without eating and somehow I didn't realize it. I have yet to cry about Andrew and I. I don't know why. I usually cry like a total baby. Esspecial since he dumped me, and not the other way around. Things are so different right now. I'm totally clinging to Rob and Rosie. Rob and I drive around all hours of the day and night and just talk about anything and everything other than our relationships. His wife is a bitch and my fiancee is a quitter. Not much more to say after that. Then I turn to Rosie who's like totally mature and grown up and she tallks and talks about Dan and stuff and it's not that I ...

OMG, okay. Years ago I had this friend named Bruce and he was the like first guy I really had, you know, feelings for. I mean, we never did anything and we both knew where each other stood. I was Bi and he was totally straight. But he was like next in line for Best Friend title behind Andrew J and I totally loved him. But, then about 3 years ago, he moved away. We had been getting really close near the time when he left to the point where I thought he might, you know, give in. But he left, so oh well. Well, I seen him today. He's back in town WITH A BABY ON THE WAY! He's girlfriend who he was with before he left, yeah the one that he broke up with, is pregnant. I was like, ugh! But I guess I'm happy for him. I mean, seeing him stirred up all these emotions and I wasn't ready for that. Anyways! Today I found out when my friend Shawnia is leaving. In June, she'll be going to California to persue her modeling carrerr that I helped her start. She want...

Hello Folks! OMG, I can't believe this weather we are having in Indianapolis! It's totally mild, a little damp with highs in the mid to upper 50's and it's the end of January!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's totally cool. Okay, I was thinking today that I want a baby. lol. I know it's not something people just think about, but I just feel like I want to be a dad right now, but then I got to thinking about the commitment I would have to have to the child, and I quickly dismissed that Ideal. I mean, I want children, but not right now. I'm perfectly happy being Uncle Tommy right now. 3 nieces, 1 nephew, 1 greatgrand Neice and 1 great grand nephew on the way. LOL. all this before I even turn 21. My mom had me way too late. My siter is 30 and my older brother is 39. Anyways, I'm feeling really good about myself and my life right nw. I just don't know why. I've been on this high, if you will, for about a month now. I mean, nothing has chang...

OMG, the Gays of my life are really pissing me off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In Alphabetical Order, Andrew is up first!!!! I wait for him to get online all the time. Just wait wait wait, because I love him or some bull like that, but he never shows up. I call call call, no answer. It's like, ugh. I mean, he is my boyfriend and we plan on moving in together, I think. Hmmm, are we still doing that? Anyways, it's like I make all this effort in this relationship, and he's making none! Ugh. Next, Johnny! Geezus, it's like he always turns on his away message when I get online and when we do talk, he just all of a sudden stops talking and puts on his away message. It's like, ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And Jordan! He gets upset because I tell one little joke that was meant to be totally innocent! Then, he gets mad, eventhough he doesn't act like it, and says that he has to go to bed. It's like, Ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then Justin, he comes by my house yeste...

Ugh Ugh Ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay, two things I totally hate. One is I totally hate when I give a person a nick name, then some one else hears me call that person that nick name , and then they start calling that person the nick name I gave them. UGH!!!!! There's something else I was pissed about, but now I can't remember! Geezus. O well, whatever.

Well, I found out that Rosie is on punishment yet again and won't be able to get online for a while. Only for one hour one Wenesdays, not that I know how to spell that. That's totally bumming me out. Andrew H. and I have been talking and I'm going to call him later. He's like the best guy ever!!!!!!! Geezus, I can't stand not touch him right now. I totally love him for some reason. Well, some other things happening right now, though my life is kinda boring right now, I lost 7 more punds. Yay for me. lol. I haven't seen Cheryl for a week or so now. I think I am avoiding her because things are getting to look like I'm being used to keep her happy with her loser boyfriend, and I want more than that for myself. (Sigh) Anyways, I cleaned my room up today to perfection. It's totally cool. I'm totally waiting for Brit's first brand new movie!!!! I will be the first to see it. OMG, I love her so much (Not in that way). Well, I...

Hey peeps Anywas, to the most important thing in the world; Me. I have a stalker. No, seriously. This girl name Ashley is telling people I sleep with her, and she's forever calling my number. I have like 20 emails from her in email box. She's totally psycho, and I don't know what to do with her. Ugh, popularity is not easy. Anywas, I don't care what anyone say, I like Micheal Jackson's music. People look at me totally weird for saying that, but I do. Sorry. Well, I'm totally tired. Rosie, where the hell are you? Do you not love me anymore. lol. We just haven't been getting on at the same time unless you have me on ignore. :( In other News It don't matter if you're black or white. Billy Jean is not my lover. Janet Jackson is so hot. I'm dead tired.

Okay, I'm back peeps. Anyways, I just wanted to tell Jordan how stupid and sorry I am. I mean, I said some really pissy things, acting like, what my friends call, a preppy little bitch. Jodan, dude, you are such a good person. I mean, even now, you are saying sorry to me because I was such a fucker to you. I mean, Jordan, it wasn't you. It was all me. I was the dick. I don't deserve to be your friend. You should not have to say sorry for anything because you did nothing wrong. You are like, very high on my nice list. You're totally cool (Not to mention cute) and I just wish you wouldn't appoligise to me for nothing. I'm the sorry SOB here. I mean it when I say, I don't deserve you. I mean, even after all I did, you still try to communicate with me in a nice way. You are absoulutly superb. Ugh, why are people so nice. Anyways, to more. Sorry peeps, there are a lot of things I have to say today. On my birthday, and the day after that, Ch...

OMG, I'm old. Happy birthday to me. Yuk, I'm 19 and I feel so old now. I feel like I've fallen and I can't get up. Okay, now, down to business. One rant that I have today is about TV. Ugh, okay, I'm bi, as you all know. Yay yay. But two people almost NEVER represented on tv is a Bi guy, or a homophobic person. It annoys the hell out of me. I mean, someone tell me one show that has a bi guy in it that's not x-rated. It totally suck. And then, no one shows homophobia. It's like, on Six Feet Under, they had one guy that called the black guy a fag, but it wasn't really homophobia because the guy didn't mean he hates gays. And then, when the white guy came out to his brother, to other folks at the bowling ally, or to his sister, they were all like YAY FOR GAY. I mean, everywhere I go I face homophobia. But not in tv. It's a poor representation on the part of television. Not that homophobia should be glorified, but hey., it still ex...