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Hearing Air Supply
Birth Of a King
Well, it's my birthday. I don't think it's starting off well. Every birthday since forever, Chris has called me and would be the first to wish me a happy birthday,but Chris hasn't called. Well, shit.

Jhoeny was the first to wish me a happy birthday which made me ok, but not great because it's upsetting that Chris still hasn't called an hour after. I called his cell and it's not on and he doesn't have a landphone. So, yeah, whatever

I'm having a total PMS day. It's ok though. I will look n the positive side of things.

I wish Andrew would remember my birthday, but theres no hope of that. I don't think I informed you of what's happening with him. Well, one night I tried to talk with him and he gets all irate and says he doesn't want to talk to me right now. I know this doesn't seem like a big deal, or something to get my panties in a knot about, but this is continuious with him. So, I decided that I would just give up, and I have. I've not im'ed him in about a month. Once he im'ed me to ask why I haven;t talked to him. To which I told him I was upset about him continuiously pushing me away. And he offered no apology. So, it's stupid. I consider him a friend, but I don't like him much anymore. I'm tired of being ignored and belittle by people at work, people in politics, people I don't know, but to be ignored and belittled by someone you love and who claims he loves you is just too much. I'm not gonna do it. It pains me much more than I'm able to express here that drew and I will not be. But, when the time is up, it's up. And, my friend Jhoeny should realize that no guy is worth chasing around for all your life just to end up with nothing. Esspecially Jhoeny. Any Guy would be so lucky to have her, why would she waste her time on some jerk who isn't sure of himself enough to know the precious gift he has right in front of him. And I know I sound conceeded, but I'm a gift for Andrew, and Jhoeny's a gift for Hector.

O well. My friend Gina keeps IM'ing me, so I better go speak with her. I will update tomorrow and tell you if my birthday got better.
Love you all. God Bless.
Written by thomasdimera

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