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OMG, people, do youknow how annoying my family can be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 My brother Chris, and Will and my cousins from Wisconsin are down for a visit. It's nice to see my brothers and all, but OMG, the rest need to pack there crap and ship out!!!!!! Geez. They are the most stuck up judgemental persons I have ever meet in my entire life. UGHHHHHHHHHHHH! Anyways!
I have found out that I am very attracted to Asian people. I'm going thru MPMS right now, so my thoughts aren't flowing easily right now.
Rosie made me cry yesterday, but I don't feel lik getting into that right now. I'm going thru another bout of depression and it totally sucks. An old friend of mine, Bryan, is stopping in town from Up state Indiana and he wants to do Brunch so I'll be doing that tomorrow. We most likely will go see not another teen movie as well as do brunch. Then, after that, I'll be going home to deal with my annoying cousins. Chrs, Will, "L" and I will be going shopping later this week to get my mother something nice. We are thinking about getting a family of all her kids together. She would love that. Will lost a lot of weight since the last time I seen him and Chris looks just the same.
Anyways, this online guy, Johnny, is a new friend of mine. Yeah, like I need another friend. But he's great. He's a bi guy and I've already seen his $#!@#$. lol. He sent me a picture of it. I was like, "Whoa. 3rd base already" But, there is so much more to him than that. He's a very nice person and I'm going to love getting to know him. He lives in California. I want to go there some day. But, I want to go to New Jersey to be with Rosie as well. But, she tells me that Dan has made plans to come visit her! Yeah, but I should understand! I know I don't amount to crap with her or anyone that I have ever loved. God, I'm so down. I gotta go.

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