So, it's been a few months. I know. Life has been a total bitch recently. I'm horny beyond beliefe (Yes, even we get horny), I've lost 10 pounds. I know, people might think that is a good thing, But my doctor says it's not. My mom has to have surgery because of a gull bladder situation whatever the hell that is. Dyed my hair to a lighter level of strawberry blonde. I like it. I went shopping, so that took about two weeks. I got some really neat things this time. More assessories than norms. Rosie and I aren't talking. Shawna and I aren't talking. I have one hundred guys hitting on me. I have ten thousand girls hitting on me. But, no one wants to talk before we get down and dirty. I had to go to the hospital for exhaustion. That was shopping week. I take fashion way too seriously. I've had to go to party after party after party. So many parties, to where you just want to go home so bad and get on the internet and go to sleep. Never thought I would feel that way about parties. Okay, those are just a few of my excuses. So, from now on I will be updating my blogger regularly. I love you all.
Let's back track to my trip to North Carolina. After nearly loosing my entire self I set out to discover and do something different. I was so tired and so alone. While down in North Carolina I redownload one of those gay chat apps because I was bored . Needless to say horny as well, but that's just my entire being. Btw, when they tell you that your sex drive does down as you get older, they're a damn lie. I've never felt as sexually driven as I am now. Ever. Back ti the point, I was feeling all kind of things while trying to figure out what exactly I need to help myself. One experiment was to just stop beating up in myself and not put sexuality on such a high pedestal. I started with thinking that sex was special and reserved for when you meet that special someone and then you open up and then bam. Never been one of the casual sex scene. But my mind at the time was I am never going to find that someone so no use in being sexually frustrated waiting for somethin