Okay, hey people. I hate you all. Anyways, I made a new friend, Amanda Y. That makes like 50 friends of mine named Amanda. Anyways, the first time I introduced her to Doug, the one I mentioned earlier, it was love at first sight. Or, lust. Anyways, they made plans for later that night. By plans, teens usually mean we will do it in your mom's car. Which is totally sick. But hey, the nexty day that's exactly what Amanda told me what happened. Then she goes on to say things like, "Little man, inch worm, 3 minutes and out" I was like, very amused by this. I learned so much about my two new friends. I haven't seen doug around. I hope it didn't kill him. I really don't approve of all this sex, but I love hearing about it. OMG, what the hell am I saying. Let me go.
Let's back track to my trip to North Carolina. After nearly loosing my entire self I set out to discover and do something different. I was so tired and so alone. While down in North Carolina I redownload one of those gay chat apps because I was bored . Needless to say horny as well, but that's just my entire being. Btw, when they tell you that your sex drive does down as you get older, they're a damn lie. I've never felt as sexually driven as I am now. Ever. Back ti the point, I was feeling all kind of things while trying to figure out what exactly I need to help myself. One experiment was to just stop beating up in myself and not put sexuality on such a high pedestal. I started with thinking that sex was special and reserved for when you meet that special someone and then you open up and then bam. Never been one of the casual sex scene. But my mind at the time was I am never going to find that someone so no use in being sexually frustrated waiting for somethin