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Feeling Hopeful
Hearing Switchfoot- Dare you to Move
Reflections.
Welcome to the planet. Welcome to Exsistance. Everyone's here. I dare you to move. I dare you to lift yourself off from the floor. I dare you to move like today never happened,today never happened before.

Welcome. You see, as promised I'm updating. I think I will just sat aside every sunday to update. Sundays are free for me.

Sex Should Stop: So, Kevin has been over more often. Remember how I made this whole big deal about not having sex because he and I, um, broke up. Yeah. Well, apparently it's not a big deal anymore. It's weird, peeps. Kevin is just this fluffy big guy with such a big heart and to resist him is like so hard because, I've come to realize that I'm all he has right now. I found out from his friend, Kiana (lovez her), that I was like the first boyfriend boyfriend Kevin had ever had. Like, he had guys who would fuck around with him but not many. But they weren't serious. And she basically laid out Kevins innerworkings to me while she was trying to convince me to get back with him officially. Should I? I mean, lets do a colume A and Colume B.

A------ All the Good things.
Sex is fantastic!!!!!!
He's a fantastic singer!
He's so soft on the inside and out.
He always praises me. I never feel uncomfortable around him
He's 100% faithful to the one he's with.
Great hair.
Great hygene.
He guinuinly cares for other people and puts him self 2nd in all situations.
He's 1/2 Mexican.
The other half is Italian!

B--------- The Bad

Eating habits suck.
Has lower self esteem and thinks that anyone who's with him must be "giving charity"
He's Pro Choice.
No accent!
Lets too many people run over him.
Looks at me all the time saying I'm beautiful. (Yeah, I know it should be in the good colume, but patronizing me gets old. Honestly. Ok, sometimes. I dunno.)

Yeah so those are the columes. Hmmm. I don't know. I will ask Jhoeny what she thinks.

Jhoeny's Address is: Jhoeny and I are getting along so well. She gave me an address where I can Snail mail her. Yay. I sent her a letter and http://www.wearyellow.com some Livestrong Bands . She said she would write me back. Hmmmm, wonder how long that will take? Well, I'm going to write another letter to her. I forgot how fun it is to use a pen and paper. Anyways, her and her Boyfriend, who I loath, broke up. Yeah. She broke up with him for me. Or not. LOL. Sorry if I'm making lite of the situation. I just never felt right when it came to hi. There's just something about him I don't get spiritually. Well, anyways, my little Jhoeny is being strong and I'm so proud of her. Who knows, maybe they are meant to be together and they will find their way to one another again. I would be happy for her, honestly. I told her last night that eventhough I don't want them to e together and I don't like him, I told her not to listen to me or anyone else when it comes to her heart. If her heart tells her to be with him, fuck me, fuck everyone else that wants to pull them apart. Just be happy. I know I will still love her if she's with him or not. So if anyone else can't handle that they are together, their not worthy of having her as a friend. Period.

Kerra's Husband/ My arch Enemy: So, Kerra;s fiancee somehow discovered my journal and read what I said about Kerra last week. He got upset that Kerra made the choice to get drunk with her girlfriend at a bar instead of "show up" for me. In turn, Kerra is angry with me for getting him angry with her because she's not being truthful with him. (What?) Yeah, it's my fault. So, what can I say? I'm not going to pretend to know the limitations that they as a couple have set for one another. Nor am I going to appoligise for, as she put it, getting her in trouble. Should have kept your word to me Kerra. It hurts so much when the girl I brag about to my family, and my friends, and co workers, and people I don't even know, can't keep her word. Yeah, I'm still fuming. Sucks. I do hope that her and Davie have resolved their issue with "Bar Gate 2005", but her and I may never resolve our own issues with it.

IN OTHER NEWS:
I know I don't know you, but I want you so bad.
Cleaning my room. Yay!
Santiago.
Shawna's wedding date has been set (again) for May 7th 2005.
Maroon 5 is sooooooooo yum!
Jhoeny, Remember..... those dates.
To the bum to left their G string in my bag, GRACIAS! lol.
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