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Hi. Well, ok, start off with the big news first. I was in a car accident Tuesday which totaled my car. Yeah, so I'm soar all over. The police seen the truth, though. Eventhough the witch turned in front of me while we both had the green light, apparently she said it differently. But, I'm so glad that there were witnesses that stayed until the cops got there and told them what really happened. I hate people who lie. The first thing I did after impact was not go over and kick her ass, not get all mad and start cursing. The first thing I did was got out and checked on her and her teenaged daughter who was in the car with her. But for her to then lie about what happened. Ugh

Anyways, enough with that shit. Well, the weekend before the car accident, a lot of shit happened. On Friday, Aaron convinced me to do something way stupid . I swear I hate the way he gets me to do stuff. So, we are having a little drink after he gets off work, and he sets up my web cam and goes to www.webcamnow.com . I know that he sometimes gets on there and "molest himself" for the enjoyment of other guys and girls watching him. He always gets so much feedback and friggen marriage proposals and money for sex and all that. He doesn't do any of that, by the way or I wouldn't let him have me. Well, anyways, three margarita's later, he convices me to enjoy the intmate relations with him on the cam for these people to see. Aaron has always had a way with making me feel totally comfortable with any situation. So, it was like the webcam wasn't even there. So, yeah, I did it. You can judge what I did. I understand it's not something everyone would do, but It was ok for me. Yeah, so, I'm a porn star now? No. lol. Sorry. Aaron said that peeps asked where I was when he got on webcamnow again this friday. He said he told them I was in a car accident but I'll be back when I'm better. I'm not sure about all that, but whatever.

Ok, so saturday, Valentine's day, I'm upset. Aaron didn't call all day, didn't come over. This is how pathetic my Valentines day was. I played Uno all day with my mother. Yeah, so, yeah.

Well, Sunday, I was home still pissed about Saturday, and Shawna calls up intoxicated. So, like usuall, I'm the friend. I got to go to Plainfield and pick her up because we don't drink and drive under any circumstance. So, yeah, I'm happy she called, but damn, what an incoinvience. I get there, pick her up, and she is totally wasted which is soooooo friggen irratating and nasty to me. She'd been drinking because Justin was being an ass to her. So, we're talking, and I'm being a friend and I gave some advice to her to the affect of, hey you shouldn't get wasted over a guy, no matter how big is dick is. Yadda yadda. So, she, inher drunken state, decides to be cruel to me. So say such things as " You're just pissed off because I have someone perminately and you only have a fuckbuddy" which is the truth. So, yadda, I let it go. Then she pulls out the "Looks" card that she always pulls out with other people, but never with me. She says " God. I would think that my best friend wouldn't be hatin' on me too for the way I look. So what if guys all gravitate twords me, it's not my fault that I'm cue and you're just average" OUT SHE WENT ! I was pissed and fumed!I put her out of my car right on West washington US 40. I took off. But, of course, I turned around after a minute because it was cold and that place was dark and I know she's just not in the right state of mind.

So, that was my weekend. then my car accident. I haven't been able to go back to school yet. I'm soar as hell, even with the pain killers. yay!

Well, I think I should try to sleep again.
Ralph is running for Prez? Ok.
Gay marriage in San Fransico? OMG, it's such a conservative place. I'm way surprized. lol. Take care everyone.

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