Hey Kiddies. Okay, about me. Friday, the 14th, I smoked my very first Marijuania thingy with Rob. I thought that I might as well try it before I die. hpm. I don't see how it's worst than smoking a cigar. So, why is it illegal? Um, whatever. Then, Rob decided to act stupid and Jack himself off for me . lol. You people need not have details. He's like totally gone crazy though. And, last night, Stryker and I had an arguement about some homeless guy. He was like, "YOu don't know what it's like" And I was like "If I were homeless, and had to beg people for money for food, I would not do it with a cigerret in my mouth." Hell, $3 can buy some lunchoen meat, I'm sure. It's stupid how like I always get this shit put on me just because I don't give away my money or stuff. It's totally stupid. Anyways, that's all for right now. Love you all.
Let's back track to my trip to North Carolina. After nearly loosing my entire self I set out to discover and do something different. I was so tired and so alone. While down in North Carolina I redownload one of those gay chat apps because I was bored . Needless to say horny as well, but that's just my entire being. Btw, when they tell you that your sex drive does down as you get older, they're a damn lie. I've never felt as sexually driven as I am now. Ever. Back ti the point, I was feeling all kind of things while trying to figure out what exactly I need to help myself. One experiment was to just stop beating up in myself and not put sexuality on such a high pedestal. I started with thinking that sex was special and reserved for when you meet that special someone and then you open up and then bam. Never been one of the casual sex scene. But my mind at the time was I am never going to find that someone so no use in being sexually frustrated waiting for somethin