Skip to main content
Hi.
So, I'm pissed off. Kerra is the meaniest person in the world. Ok, so, the other day we were speaking and she leaves all of a sudden. Then to come out, she was actually "baking" with Jason, so she just leaves me without saying bye. Ok, so I get over it and we play Yahoo Literiti ( Our game) and then she goes, " Oh Geez, Jason said I have to get off of here in five minutes" Ok, yeah, so, of course I'm a little upset by this because it, in all honesty, sounds like Kerra is just his bitch and I hate that. But, lucky me, Aaron came over just at that time. So, I said, ok Kerra, I'll let you go since you have to go soon anyways. And she like goes off on me. " I guess I'm not important enough to you" she says and all this other crap. So, I finally said " Listen, You're acting just like Raymond did about Aaron and I got rid of his ass. I would hate to do the same to you. Bye" Yeah yeah yeah, I know, I'm not 100% in the right. But, geezus, she gets on my nerve when she thinks it should be two sets of standard. I guess she wants me to be her bitch, and I refuse to be anyones bitch, esspecially now. I'm not having a great time health wise.

I've been so tempted to stop eating all together in recent day. And I have been so hating my self. I don't think it has anything to do with Raymond because, in all honesty, I wasn't all that into him. But, I dunno, I'm just having a rough time. Also, I'm sore everywhere for some reason, and I've been extremly clumbsy and very anti social.

Ok, well, if someone wants to diagnoise me with something, please do, because I would appreciate any help I can get.

In Other News
My room's a mess
The following people can kiss my ass right now: COle, Kerra, Mike, My sister, Raymond, Bobby, Dan, Kelly, L Jr, George W. punk ass Bush, Jennifer, the fag at Subway, and Tony.
Yeah, I so need a chill pill.
Bite me

Popular posts from this blog

Romantic Life

 Let's back track to my trip to North Carolina.  After nearly loosing my entire self I set out to discover and do something different. I was so tired and so alone. While down in North Carolina  I redownload one of those gay chat apps because I was bored . Needless to say horny as well, but that's just my entire being. Btw, when they tell you that your sex drive does down as you get older, they're a damn lie. I've never felt as sexually  driven as I am now. Ever.  Back ti the point, I was feeling all kind of things while trying to figure out what exactly I need to help myself. One experiment  was to just stop beating up in myself and not put sexuality on such a high pedestal.  I started  with thinking  that sex was special and reserved for when you meet that special someone and then you open up and then bam. Never been one of the casual sex scene. But my mind at the time was I am never going to find that someone so no use in being sexually frustrated waiting for somethin
Read more

Mountains

  It was an impulse thing. For weeks before my grand gesture of driving to North Carolina  I was having pretty much a mental break down. A very grim dentist appointment, loneliness , attachment  to things that could never be mine, weight gain, the pressure  of business,  taking care of an elderly  paRant. At one point I just stood in the middle of a room not know where to go literally  and figuratively . All of a sudden an opportunity  popped up for me to go and I did.  Anyone who knows me know I'm not an impulsive  person but I just had to do this. To clear my head, to refocus myself.  I can get into the details on the trip at a later time. I want with this entry to focus on a single aspect. The thoughts that came to me while driving through the great mountains of this United States and the feelings .  I looked out onto the greatness  of this land and the beauty  it possess and I thought of some things. Deep things. I have not done a 23 and me or an ansestory  dot com thing yet bu
Read more

Such a Lonely day & Its mine

 You know it has always been my philosophy to celebrate Valentine's Day. I celebrate it every year even though I've only been coupled on a Valentine's Day once in my life. Today was weird. As I work today there were a lot of couples and a lot of people singles that is buying different things for tomorrow. I don't know maybe it's just the whole virus and lack of any social interaction but I got kind of sad about it. Guess I'll be all right. Just a momentary lapse. Happy about Valentine's Day and the fact that it is a celebration of love. What I really want is for it to be a day of Hope for those without a partner. I'm still working hard on my goals. I'm trying to work out exactly how to get this Tommy's show together. Also working hard on financial stuff. It is a process. As you can see I'm at least updating my blog. I don't have much to say. But the point is just to get something out there. It sucks that that nasty orange cheese doodle wi
Read more