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Three months later, I squeeze in time to update. I most likely lost a lot of fans and faithful readers. It sucks, but it means that my life actually been filled with things and I have more to type. There is so much to say, and there is no way I can do this cronilogically, so I will have todo it by name. So, here we go.

Cory - Cory and I had been at odds about a lot of things. So, anyways, we started to talk and trust each other again. Yes, I'm dumb and I know it. After he beat his drug rap, I should have took a hike then. But I was so content on falling in love and changing him. That is until a month ago when he stole $1100 from me and ran. Yes, you heard me right. I was so dissappointed. More with myself than anything. I pressed charges and they're building a case now. I thought it would be a open and shut case, but it seems like it's taking forever. I haven't seen him since. I don't even know if he's still running or back home. It's so disappointing to think that this is a man.... no a boy that I thought I loved.

Cheryl - Ooooo, okay, I'm tearing up now. After some deep repais of our relationship, she decided to move away to Kentucky with Mark and her mom. Not because of me. It's just that things in her life were so weird for her. It wasn't because of me that she left. She wants to start a new life, and that she is. She's, um, pregnant! And, no, it's not mine. It's Mark's. I call her every once in a while. It's nice hearing how happy she is. For a while, I know she wasn't.

Rosie - Rosie is weird and withdrawn.

Andrew - Andrew is weird and withdrawn. Hell, I do think about him a lot though. I think he's back with Jay, the asshole who treats him life shit. Yeah, that jackass somehow got my screen name and is now harasssing me. But I don't mind. He's very charming and funny. I can see why Andrew keeps fucking me over for him. I know what you guys are thinking, I should take Jay for myself. I mean, it would be rather easy I think. Andrew never seen the power I have over certain guys,. But I'm not entertaining that thought. Well, not really. I did once love Andrew. So, whatever. I'll attend his and Jay's wedding, smile, be happy, and go back to my life.

My Gay Virginity is gone. ( Okay, everyone just fainted, Get everyone a glass of water. ) Yes, I know the exact date ( Sunday, June 22nd) and time ( 7:47 pm till 8:04 pm) I was looking at the clock. Okay, thank you Dan for saying it's going to bleed. There was no visible blood. Last time I listen to a straight guy about gay sex. Thank you to Mike who is gay who said it'll feel good after about 10 minutes. Wrong, it hurt to the very end. Last time I listen to a gay guy about gay sex! The best advice that I got was from Shawna ( Who apparently had anal sex and I didn't know until she gave me advice) That it will hurt and it will be very uncomfortable, but you'll find yourself wanting to try it again afterwards. Yay. I don't wish to disclose the guys identity at the time because he is known by many people who read this blog and I haven't asked his permission. A lot of respect going on. Geez, there is some much emotion attached to a lot of things in life right now. I swear that I will update in more detail in about a week. This is the last chance I get to win you all over. I love you all so much and I really want to share more, but I need to go for a minute. Within a week this blogger will be updated !

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