Life's TRUE Journey

5:36:05 AM EST Feeling Quiet Hearing Lenny Kravitz Nights are lonely. Hello. Ok, so, yeah, I don't have much to say, but I'll speak. I know it seems as if all my entries recently have been negative. Sorry. I don't think in the 3 years I've been doing this journal have I had four negative post in a row. It sucks. Andrew: Andrew and I are having issues again. Andrew doesn't turn to me like he used to. I know something is going on with him, but he won't let me know what. So, that's upset me recently. Well, I can't talk much about him. I'll start crying again and I'm so sick of crying. I was pathetic last night. I was watching American Beauty and As Good as it Gets last night alone and just balling. I dunno. Would have been nice to have someone here with me. My friends are just not here at all. None of them. Sucks. I called Shawna and she was kinda a help, but she spoke to me all of 7 minutes and then had to tend to her fian...

5:36:05 AM EST Feeling Quiet Hearing Lenny Kravitz Nights are lonely. Hello. Ok, so, yeah, I don't have much to say, but I'll speak. I know it seems as if all my entries recently have been negative. Sorry. I don't think in the 3 years I've been doing this journal have I had four negative post in a row. It sucks. Andrew: Andrew and I are having issues again. Andrew doesn't turn to me like he used to. I know something is going on with him, but he won't let me know what. So, that's upset me recently. Well, I can't talk much about him. I'll start crying again and I'm so sick of crying. I was pathetic last night. I was watching American Beauty and As Good as it Gets last night alone and just balling. I dunno. Would have been nice to have someone here with me. My friends are just not here at all. None of them. Sucks. I called Shawna and she was kinda a help, but she spoke to me all of 7 minutes and then had to tend to her fian...

I get No Respect As a kid we would have these little things about who you like and who you would want to meet. One of the top people I've wanted to meet is Rodney Dangerfield. I seen him on one of those late night talk shows when I was young, and I enjoyed his presence and though what he talked about I didn't understand ( I was young and his comedy has more of an adult theme as you may know). I've followed his career eversince. My thoughts are with his family, his loved ones, and the ones that "respected" him. I wanted to post some of his liners to pay tribute to his gift, and please, have a final laugh for Rodney. Rodney Dangerfield 1921-2004 RIP. Get the respect in heaven. September 19I'm trying a new diet now. The diet is Viagra and prune juice. I tell ya, I don't know if I'm coming or going. September 20People say fish is good for a diet. But fish should never be cooked in butter. Fish should be cooked in its natural oils - ...

Sucks to be Me Hey. I'm major depressed right now. Just, everything and stuff. I had such a horrible day and one one hand I don't even want to talk about it, but I have to because it's my life and I made a promise that I would share and try to reach out to people. but who am I kidding. No one I guess. Well, lets see, where do I begin? i have no friends. None. Well, none who are willing to be my friend when I need it. Dan, you say. No, he's not here. I find out that he's off catering to his ex girlfriend. The one who has cheated on him, dumped him, devalued him. And I try to talk to him about tonight on his phone, and for the first time since we've known each other, he snaps at me and says to mind my own business. But, yeah, I have no business. Shawna. I tried to talk to her, but she goes off and says that I call too much. Well, not exactly, but she made an off beat comment " You call me every 15 minutes anyways." So, whatever. I ...

Feeling Angry Hearing Just Finished watching US Open Horny and Pissed! Well, a quick entry here. Pissed off. My girlfriend, Jennifer Capriati just lost to some russian blonde hoochie in the semi final match. UGH!!!! Such an exhausting match. Well, Tommy has been such a whore recently.. WHAT?!?!?! WHO SAID THAT. I have not been such a whore. I've just been a little more flirty than usuall. LOL. I guess it's the weight lost ( Yeah, 10 more pounds Yahoo) Trouble is, I don't speak spanish! Ugh. There's this sooooooo totally nice guy and he doesn't speak much english. I mean, I feel him and I belong together, but like always,something stands in the way. I was thinking of telling one of his family members who speak english to tell him I wish to give him a blowjob, but I don't think that would go over too well. LOL. But the look he gives me, I know he wants me. (crying) Why must there obsticles to get some. Well, Shawna and I went loo...

Feeling Loopy Hearing The Simpson's Soundtrack....DON'T ASK. Mentel psycho fu%* Hey peeps. Andrew is soooooo beautiful. That's him with his kitty. Ok, well, it's the begining of the month. Yay. Peeps, I know some may think I'm gullabul, or stupid, but the past few months, I had my tarot reading and made a note of them for the month comming up. And for those months, I mean, the cards have been eirly right on. So, like every month, I'm gonna post what the cards say will happen in this blog and you tell me if I'm just stupid. Then, I will update like usual that month and see if it matches. Ok, here's what they will say will happen in September. My general enviroment for Septermber will be one of judgement and legal matters ( I can tell you now that is true, because I have to take the lady to court about my car accident. ) It says also my biggest obsticle will be that law matter. They say I will also have to deal with bigotry and deciet. ...

5:32:28 AM EST Feeling Quiet Hearing Blink 182 Enema Of the state Album Kerr a Lot? Kerr a little? Kerr at all? Hello. Ok, well, first off, let me thank God that Jhoeny is okay. Though, it did do some damage to her physically and emotionally, she is ok. She such a strong person and that's why I love her so. I prayed so much when that stupid whore, Charlie, made his whorish presence known. I'm just glad Jhoeny and her family and friends escaped with a lot of things and a story to tell their kids and grands. A local radio station here in Indianapolis had this thing where they filled a semi up with bottled water that was given to them from the listeners and the DJ, Dave Smiley ( Total hottie and cool guy) is going down there to give them the water personally. I bought 10 cases of water to put on the truck. I was hoping they would go to Jhoeny's town, but nooooooooo. Whatever. :-) So, ok, with other stuff. Kerra is on the outs with me. She reads my journal an...

6:21:20 AM EST Feeling Quiet Hearing The News Finishing Last post Dan cut himself being a dumb jock. Had to go to the hospital. only 30 stiches. He'll be ok though. So, Andrew got online, and, yeah, I was pissed off at him. Yadda yadda. Now, him and I are fighting because he's having a ruff time with something, but he won't tell me what's going on. All he said is " I'm moving to Miami" . Um, ok So, now, at the current time, I'm worried about Jhoeny because she lives in flordia where that fag, Charilie, hit and I haven't heard from her. I hope she's ok. Now I am gonna start crying since she isn't letting me know she's ok. I'm just such a lonely person. I can't stand not knowing how my good friends are for one sec. I'm so sad Julia Child passed away. I do such a great imatation of her. It sucks. God Bless her. I'm sorry I'm not updating my journal as I should. I've just been, I dunno, i...

7:09:40 AM EST Feeling Mischievous Hearing Justin Timberlake   Politics are Pouring Lalala.  Ok, hi.  So, some stuff has been happening.  I'm not gonna whine or whimper about it all.  Or maybe I should.  LOL.  i dunno.  Well, my last living blood grandmother had a stroke a couple of weeks ago.  So, we went down there  (Georgia) for a weekend and it was so emotionally draining for me.  Don't worry, she's doing very well.  Still has a problem with speech, but it's not servere.  So, like, we came back up to  Indianapolis, and the next weekend, my mom was like, "Lets go".  I told her that I couldn't, so she jumps down my throat and says that I'm a non caring bastard, but I couldn't fight back.  i had too much going thru my head.  If that wasn't enough, I found out this week that my only other grandmother (  Who is actually Josh's grandmother, but like I previously said, his family lov...

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Feeling Sad Hearing hoobastank   Death do you Part I hate this world that you live in.  the word you have made for yourself.  Why did you include me in it.  My purpose on this earth is meaningless and yet you continue to entrap me to it.  Peeps, I'm tired.  I'm so angry right now.  Yet, at the same time I am so sad.  Tears stream down my face.  It's like the right eyeball is making waterworks for all the anger I feel and the total rage I have against society, people, myself.  But the left eyeball is making waterworks for all the sadness and dissappointment I have.  How is my life so screwed up right now?>  I've done everything right in my life.  It's not worth anything. The other day I was reading up on this serial Killer and somehow he amazed me.  Somehow, I got this sensation that if I were to be more like him, all this pain and dissappointment would go away.  Or I could at least channel it...

Feeling Flirtatious Hearing Tennis -Federer Vs Hewitt Tennis...The sport of Class Well, hello there. Wanna come over? I'm friggen horny. So, okay, I'm watching tennis which is now in a rain delay and having orgasms because Tennis is my favorite sport and, of course, I'm so in love with Paola Suarez. OMG, yummy! Also I'm in love with Roger Federer. OMG, how sexy is he?!?!?! Ok, I shouldn't watch tennis. lol. I mean, all tennis players are so sexy. Yeah, that's right, I play tennis. Ugh. I wanna get back into some competitions. I'm on the right track though. In June I lost 17 pounds, so I should start working on my serve a little more. Haven't been on a court in a while now. Sucks. Well, um, Antonio did call and yeah, we've been out on a few more dates. I don't think it's going anywhere unfortunatly. We have some different Ideals about things. I dunno. i don';t feel like talking about them right now. m...

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Feeling Frustrated Hearing Bjork- Pagan Poetry Dating, Defending, & Wives Wuddup Peeps in da hood. Hollar at your boy. Anyways, hi. Well, lets get right to it, shall we. Well, my first night about with Antonio was ok. We went to the Olive Garden, a place I had never been to. Just for a small dinner. Then, being the Margarita Junkie I am, I seen on the menu they had something called Italian Margaritas. So, I preceeded to order 25 of them. Hee hee hee. I got a little tipsy. He didn't have anything to drink, so that made it even more fun. So, I'm telling him my whole lif story on our first, I guess you can call it, date. So, the night ended with a big hug and I was happy. So, our second , well, date, we went to see the Stepford Wives after we has a few drinks ( Two Apple Martinis for me) at a queer bar. So, the movie may have seemed better that it actually was, but I was laughing my ass off. OMG, Bette Midler is so great. In the movie, the Ste...

Feeling Hopeful Hearing I just want to Fly _by Sugar Ray Long weeks. Rest needed. Hello Peeps. Okay, lets get to it. I've been so BUSY ever since Josh got here on the 28th of May. Just in case you don't know who Joshua is, here's a quick history. we meet when we were in highschool. I was a freshman, he a sophmore. We dated all during high school. We went our seperate ways when he cheated on me with his childhood friend, Amber, just before graduation. Then she got pregnant just from that one time, and yadda yadda. Well, bridge under the water and we keep in contact. Well, he moved to Ohio and he visits sometimes because all his family is here in Indianapolis. Well, I had the pick up duties and I picked him and Joseph ( His son) up and took them to Josh's mom's house . Like, every hour from that point, he called every 30 minutes wanting to go somewhere. And, me being nice, I took him. We went to see some great bands and all that. He s...

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Hey peeps. I'm tired and feeling really really sick, so I just want to post the E card I sent to Andrew. I wish I could somehow allow you peeps to see the whole card with the animations and mucis, but nooooooooo. Just the text. Well, later peeps. No update on my life right now. Just the card. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Hello Andrew. This may be Corny to you or stupid, but I just wanted to express a few things to you, so please take a little time out to read this. Andrew, I love you with all my heart, and I know it's an expression overused in today's society and I'm sorry if it doesn't truly express what I'm trying to convey to you. But, there's nothing more I can do. I hope you can trust me enough know to know that the words I say are true. You came to me when I was 16. I was a broken person in search for a lot of things in my life. You help me disco...

Sorry. Had to come on and say how much I think Laura Prepon from that 70s show ( She plays Donna ) looks to me so much like Gwyneth Paltrow since she dyed her hair Blonde. Am I the only one who thinks this?

Ok, this may be a long post. I'm not sure. I just have a few things to speak about. First, I'm going to just fill in some stuff. Shawna and I had a long talk yesterday about her drug usage with Justin. And, honestly peeps, Shawna has this " You're not the boss of me " personality. But, yesterday, she actually listened. We talked about a lot of stuff and she started crying and all this. peeps, I think my blonde bimbo best buddy is finally TRUELY in love. She said she was going to talk to Justin about the drug stuff and life stuff. Apparently he's been wanting to quit the partying and settle down as well. So, hell, I might be able to be a maid of Honor soon. :-) Well, I'm getting so weirded out at work. Ok, the first few weeks I noticed that there was one gay guy named Corey who I mentioned before. Now, I noticed, there are four. John, Chris, Corey, and Derrick and it's like, OMG, it's queer haven here. There are three ultra...

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