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Death do you Part

I hate this world that you live in.  the word you have made for yourself.  Why did you include me in it.  My purpose on this earth is meaningless and yet you continue to entrap me to it. 
Peeps, I'm tired.  I'm so angry right now.  Yet, at the same time I am so sad.  Tears stream down my face.  It's like the right eyeball is making waterworks for all the anger I feel and the total rage I have against society, people, myself.  But the left eyeball is making waterworks for all the sadness and dissappointment I have.  How is my life so screwed up right now?>  I've done everything right in my life.  It's not worth anything.
The other day I was reading up on this serial Killer and somehow he amazed me.  Somehow, I got this sensation that if I were to be more like him, all this pain and dissappointment would go away.  Or I could at least channel it into something else.  There are so many people out there that deserve to die.  They do not deserve to breathethe same air as I do. What's amazing about that though is it is those people who are and will be more well off than I every was or will be. 
So, my death.  My death is approuching faster than ever.  It's here to take me away.  I'm just awaiting a little sign that it wasn't just all a waste.  A sign that my work wasn't for the nothingness that my life has become. 
Don't take pity on me cruel world.  I wish not to have your pity, because I know it's fake and just an oppurtunity to pretend that you have a heart or soul.  So others can fall victom to your spell. 
My only hope for this world is that there is to be nueclear missions launched at every point of civilazation and anialiate us all with one blazing glory that of which I call Tom's Revenge.  Yes.  Simitaniously we all die, leaving no being left to corrupt this beautiful planet God made for us.  No one more to dirty the air, disgrace it's inhabitants.  No one left to lead the masses into internal and eternal destruction all in the name of Green.  No one see you anymore God.  Your image has been cursed.  Your name has been put to shame God.  They've disgraced you.  They don't deserve you.  Destroy them all and me as well for thinking I could help them see how pure your love is.  Free will has run amuck.  Set them all free to be the sum, product, difference of zero.  For they amount to no more.

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