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Okay okay okay, shut up. Now it's my turn to speak. Main subject.... Cory! Ugh. It's like an obsession. Him and I were horseplaying today and he was looking into my eyes and shit an I had an orgasm. lol. Seriously. It's not like it was, you know, an outward thing. It's was all inside. My whole body felt tingly and stuff and then I got like literally really hot and felt like I need to sit down. Geezus, what is happening to me. I know he has a girlfriend for freaks sake. Her and I even have a class to together on Tuesdays. She is sweet to me, eventhough Cory says she's mean afterwards. I just don't know. I haven't told Cheryl that I'm falling in love with him yet. I guess I'll tell her tomorrow. I think she has a thing for him too, but she's soooooooo mysterious about who she likes around me because she thinks I will get upset. I mean, I''ve never gotten upset when she found another guy. She's so cosiderate sometimes, but she can be a total pain other times. Hmmm, that reminds me of Rosie. Rosie emailed me today. Wondering where I been. Well, Rosie, sweetheart, I have had you blocked for a long time now. It's not you, I swear. I just think we needed space, and I didn't want to seem un happy about you and Mr. Danny boy. (Dan H.) You two are totally cool for each other. He's like a sad puppy when you're not around. God I wish I could attend your wedding. You would look so beautiful in a dress with dan by your side. OMFG, I'm like jumping ahead in years here. :)~ You know I love ya RO HO.. You too Andrew, even though you never have time to listen to me bitch. I miss my grandmother so much. I'm looking at a picture of her right now.

OKAY, LISTEN UP EVERYONE IN THE INDIANAPOLIS AREA. I'M LOOKING FOR SOMEONE; ANYONE WILLING TO CRY AND HUG ME WHILE I CRY AND HUG YOU AND TALK ABOUT HOW BAD OR LIVES ARE. THIS IS NOTHING SEXUAL AT ALL AND I HOPE NONE OF YOU EXPECT IT TO BE. I JUST WNAT TO MEET SOMEWHERE, HUG AND CRY AND TALK ABOUT OUR HECTIC MISERIBLE LIVES. PLEASE EMAIL ME AT THOMASDIMERA@AOL.COM IF YOU'RE INTERESTED. GIRLS OR GUYS.

Sorry, I just needed to put that in. I have no friends, like I said previously, and I really just ned someone to cry to or with. All my other friends would e like "Um, this isn't shopping, this is crying" Not that theirs anything wrong with all my hundreds of shop buddy friends, it's just that I need at least one friend that I can cry in front of and give a big hug. OMG, am I pathetic? ( sigh) Well, I'm off to bed. Bye my lovers of me.

IN OTHER NEWS
I know I say this a lot, but I so need to clean my room.
I love you Shawnia
I love you more Rosie
I love you the mostest Cory.
That ^^^^^^ was si rude. I love them all equally.
Mom, you're not going to jail so stop crying!
OMG< did everyone see Will and Grace thursday. OMG, no baby, and she's out in two week. (sobbing)

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