Skip to main content
6:21:20 AM EST Feeling Quiet Hearing The News
Finishing Last post
Dan cut himself being a dumb jock. Had to go to the hospital. only 30 stiches. He'll be ok though.
So, Andrew got online, and, yeah, I was pissed off at him. Yadda yadda. Now, him and I are fighting because he's having a ruff time with something, but he won't tell me what's going on. All he said is " I'm moving to Miami" . Um, ok
So, now, at the current time, I'm worried about Jhoeny because she lives in flordia where that fag, Charilie, hit and I haven't heard from her. I hope she's ok. Now I am gonna start crying since she isn't letting me know she's ok.
I'm just such a lonely person. I can't stand not knowing how my good friends are for one sec.
I'm so sad Julia Child passed away. I do such a great imatation of her. It sucks. God Bless her.
I'm sorry I'm not updating my journal as I should. I've just been, I dunno, in some sort of slump. I did my tarot reading last month and this month, and neither were very good. And, with all the stuff happening with my grandmother's last month, I can only imagine what's coming this month. God, I really need Jhoeny to contact me. Ugh. I'm gonna go cry. I swear on my life I'll update before this comming Saturday night. Love you all. God bless. Written by thomasdimera
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
6:02:12 PM EST Feeling Frustrated Hearing Married With Children ReRun
Mean Ass Tommy
LOL. that baby has boobs.
Anyways, ok, so here's whats new.
Andrew decided to disappear on me on the 21st of July and I was worried shitless. i thought we was dead or something. So, I called and asked around. Even go Jhoeny upset about it. Had her looking out for him or his, um, "friends" online. So, the other day I get an IM from him. He's talking about how I didn't care.

UGH. I GOTTA GO. DAN IS BLEEDING. I'LL FINISH THIS POST LATER TONIGHt

Popular posts from this blog

Ok, crying again. Depression is so stupid it sucks. Yeah, today, though, for a change, it's not about Aaron. But now I'm crying because I mentioned his name. But, the initial crying is because of Andrew Andrew Andrew H H H. God is very cruel to me, I'm thinking right now. Okay, I'm really crying right now and can;t see the screen. I don't understand why God made me love, I mean geinuenly love someone I could never have and it's just I don't understand why my heart is somewhere it doesn't belong. it's fucking insane. I'm so sic of feeling like I not going to be happy because of stupid little shit that shouldn't even be a fucking factor. God is suppiosed to be love. and love is supposed to besomething not easy to come by, but somehat that is obtainable. Why is it not for me. Why and I so fucking destined to be alone for my life. I want someone to fucking share this journey and I pled and I pray everyday. I follow the rules of ...
Read more

Mountains

  It was an impulse thing. For weeks before my grand gesture of driving to North Carolina  I was having pretty much a mental break down. A very grim dentist appointment, loneliness , attachment  to things that could never be mine, weight gain, the pressure  of business,  taking care of an elderly  paRant. At one point I just stood in the middle of a room not know where to go literally  and figuratively . All of a sudden an opportunity  popped up for me to go and I did.  Anyone who knows me know I'm not an impulsive  person but I just had to do this. To clear my head, to refocus myself.  I can get into the details on the trip at a later time. I want with this entry to focus on a single aspect. The thoughts that came to me while driving through the great mountains of this United States and the feelings .  I looked out onto the greatness  of this land and the beauty  it possess and I thought of some things. Deep things. ...
Read more
Oh Hi. Ok, so, my cat died. He was 70 in kitty years. It's kinda sad. Who am I kidding, it was a lot of sad. It's so weird after living with someone for 10 years of your life, the next day they are just gone. Of course, I can hear you dumbasses out there saying "Oh it's just a cat" but it's not. HE was my cat, and his name was Booger damnit. Ok, well, i've also been pissed off at another situation. Well, I have/had a friend, Kelly, who I've been friends with for a while now. Now, I knew before hand she had a problem with racism. Well, had a problem with the words. So, ok, i guess i learned to ignore the n word she sometimes uses because she, i thought, didn't mean it in an offensive way. But the other day, i guess i finally got pissed. I walk up behind kelly talking to her friend and her friend's little girl. Kelly said " ... this nigger was dancing up on me at the club..." Her friend started signaling her to be ...
Read more