Life's TRUE Journey

Wednesday, December 7, 2005 4:10:24 AM EST Feeling Mischievous Eating a Chicken Broccoli Hot Pocket I smell Sex and Candy I just had to update after the night I had last night and the weekend I had. Lets start with the smaller stuff. I AM MY SISTERS HUSBAND: Yeah, catchy title, eh? Well, a little back ground. My dear sister "L" is in some sort of relationship with a man double her age. Well, they aren't physical or anything, but they are friendly with one another. So, recently he's had some medical problems and "L" wanted to visit him in the hospital ( And bring him a gigantic basket of fruit and all. Fixed up by her). So I come along because the basket was big and she needed help. We get up to the hospital room, and there he is WITH HIS WIFE! So, I'm sitting back and enjoying the psychology of it all. the wife sense something night right. My sister trying not to say the wrong thing. The guy trying to be happy without being too happy. ...

Monday, November 28, 2005 5:16:52 AM EST Feeling Flirtatious Hearing Etta James - At last I lost my ass, can I have some of yours At last my love has come along. My lonely days are over.at last the skies above are blue. My heart was wrapped up in clover, the night that I looked at you. I found a dream that I could speak to a dream that I can call my home. I found the thrill to press my cheek to, of real love I've never know. You smile, then the spell is casted. And here we are in heaven. For you are mine at last. Hey. Well, lets see. I'm in such a horny mood right now. I don't know why. Oo, wait, yes I do. I'm surrounded by hot guys. lol. Allow me to explain. i don't mean that literally right now I have guys surrounding me. But, well RAMIRO- THE NEW KEVIN: So, my friend Ramiro and I have been hanging more and more. Saturday night, though, oooo I hate him. lol. Well, not literally. he must have read my blog about what drinking does to me, becau...

Yo yo yo dawgs. What be the word and yeah, as if. Totally, and so like, uh huh so watcha doin back yonder. Yaw ain't messin round no foolishiness you hear now? So may I make a rather urgent suggestion darling. Cayete putos. Ok, I must be weird or something. Just wanted to give a uick update because I'm bored and I need something to get me to sleep. What bitches: So my friend / gay virginity taker Aaron and I were talking yesterday. Guess what? ELTON JOHN IS IN FREAKING TOWN (yes he's staying over at my house tomorrow night) and guess what people. Aaron got tickets to his concert and is going to suprize his fiancee Mike with them tonight!!! I'm pissed. Ugh. And they are friggen good seats. their not floor, but they are one row up! I wish I were with Aaron right now just to have those tickets. But hey, I still have Ramiro. The Potiential: So my friend Ramiro and I have been getting comfy with one another. Well, not too comfy. Not as comfy as I would li...

Feeling Hopeful Hearing No Doubt - Don't Speak One STI for me, Two STIs for You As Promised, an Update. Eventhough there's a storm outside and I may die by using this Laptop, but it's ok. As long as the blog gets updated, right? Oh, Hi Cory: So, it's of course been a while since I've seen Cory or even heard from him. And knock knock, who's there!!!!!!!! Cory! I'm thinking " Oh lord, he must have heard that Kevin and I are no more and he thinks he can get back with me" but I graciously invite him in and get him a dew. So we talk and remenes about a few minutes then he tells me the reason for the visit. He tells me that he has to notify his ex'es that he has a STI (Sexually Transmitted Infection. Formally known as STD- Sexually Transmitted Disease) and he may have passed it to me because he's not sure when he got it or who he got it from. THANKS FOR THE FRIGGEN VISIT CORE! The devil inside me started to laugh saying if anyone ...

I will update when I get home tonight which will be around 2am, so it's more like Tuesday morning. Oppsy!

THIS IS A POST FROM THE PAST. MAKE SURE YOU READ THE UPDATE POST. THIS IS JUST A REPOST FROM THE PAST. I DID UPDATE!!!!!!!! LOOK AT THE PREVIOUS POST! THE ONLY QUESTION I HAVE ABOUT THIS REPOST IS, WHERE IS RICKY? >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Monday, April 28, 2003 Oh Hi. Ok, so, my cat died. He was 70 in kitty years. It's kinda sad. Who am I kidding, it was a lot of sad. It's so weird after living with someone for 10 years of your life, the next day they are just gone. Of course, I can hear you dumbasses out there saying "Oh it's just a cat" but it's not. HE was my cat, and his name was Booger damnit. Ok, well, i've also been pissed off at another situation. Well, I have/had a friend, Kelly, who I've been friends with for a while now. Now, I knew before hand she had a problem with racism. Well, had a problem with the words. So, ok, i guess i learned to ignore the n word she sometimes uses because she, i thought, di...

Feeling Loopy Hearing Incubus - Nice to know ya Trying to keep it positive Now, if you don't have time to read, I suggest you stop now because I'm expecting this to be a pretty lengthy post. Also add to that, I will be posting a famous blog entry from the past just to reflect and remember. LOL. So, yeah, I'm making no excuse for my absence. You all know I've had major issues on my plate recently and this is really the first oppurtunity I've had to update in a couple of months. SO, without farther a mountain dew, This is act 3 of The life of Tommy D. Mommy's Mojo: So, my mother had a very difficult adjustment to not being able to hear. Now, this is where I know our lord is there and hear our prayers. I mean, we had Gobs and tons of people praying for our situation. So, one day I was playing with this stupid bird toy and my mother comes rushing up to me and said she could hear that bird. Since that day, her hearing has improved, though very little at ...

Earth is Sick The earth is sick, people. The earth is very sick and is in need of heeling. And, it's my belief that the power of Love can heel the most sick of things. That's why I'm calling everyone to pull together and give love. Just love, before we are all doomed. I would like to send a late, but still heartfilled prayer to all of those involved with the Katrina disaster. I could never imagine that one day I have a home, a family, a stability, and in the next I'm searching the rumbles of my home looking for one member of my family. The deeply soul saden photo's that I view on the internet, on the TV, and in the newspapers is enough to crush a person, and to be that person living it, it's just so much dispair. But, as with the September 11th tragedy that most of us still live with to this day, we are reminded of the good natured and loving people who immediate thought wasn;t " Aww those poor people", but was " What can I do to help tho...

Feeling Sad Hearing 98 Degrees- I do (Cherish You) Long awaited Update Hello. I'm sorry for not updating. I've been so busy with personal life, work, and all that. So, you'd think I'd have a lot to update here, but no. So, let me update the little that I do have. Kevin's Influence : So, we were "off" . And, I was so lonely. So, yeah, you can guess what happened. Him and I patched up some of our differences. So, we were friends for a good month. No sex. You know, just friends. Then, it was time again. I was horny, he's always horny. Add one and one, and you get love making. And, it was great. So, that's been going on for the last 3 weeks now. Now, for the reason of my sadness. Kevin and his family have been contemplating a move, and a decision has been made. They will be moving to California for a month with family, and then they will be moving to Hawaii for good. They expect to be out of Indy September 8th. I don't know i...

Bi/Slightly Gay You scored -10 (-52 being completely gay, 0 being bisexual, and 52 being completely straight) For the most part, you are bisexual. You have a slight preference for the same gender, but either gender would suit you. If you are sexually inexperienced, it is possible that this will change after you do some experimenting.

Feeling Quiet Hearing Extreme- More than Words Pride and Final Hi. It's exhausted Tommy D. Updating again. Yay! Celebrities I hate : Might as well start off on a soft note. I hate Katie Holmes, the annoying little crap chute! Ewww. And I hate Tom Cruise for dipping that low. Angelina Golie! Ewww, how disgusting. Ugh! Her only saving grace is the love she exhibits for her son, Mattox. That's just absoulutly beautiful. Ok, I don't hate her. But, she angers me. And Brad Pitt, never liked him, and I just hate him even more. George W Bush, that flying fuck! Ugh! Hilery Duff. Ew! Ugh, why can't she move away somewhere. Russia or somewhere! I'm sure she would make an excellent russian whore! The Celebrities That I love : Paris Hilton. Lovez you so much. If only you weren't blonde, but that;s ok. If anyone, you make it hotttt! Ellen! Ellen Ellen ellen! Aye! Man, the name even gives me a certain sort of thrill! And your totally fabu mom, ...

ANDREW'S CONVO AndyDrew" [11:08 P.M.]: LMAO "Tommy D." [11:09 P.M.]: Sick of all you mexicans "AndyDrew" [11:09 P.M.]: omg "AndyDrew" [11:09 P.M.]: what? "Tommy D." [11:09 P.M.]: Well, I am. sorry "Tommy D." [11:09 P.M.]: I'm not raciest and I don't hate mexicans "AndyDrew" [11:10 P.M.]: ok "Tommy D." [11:10 P.M.]: So before you even start on that "AndyDrew" [11:10 P.M.]: i wasnt even going there "AndyDrew" [11:10 P.M.]: geeze "Tommy D." [11:10 P.M.]: Yeah, whatever "Tommy D." [11:10 P.M.]: You've depressed me "AndyDrew" [11:10 P.M.]: Why Tommy? "Tommy D." [11:10 P.M.]: Just because "AndyDrew" [11:10 P.M.]: no tell me "AndyDrew" [11:10 P.M.]: whats wrong? "Tommy D." [11:11 P.M.]: Porque? Tu no gusto me "Tommy D." [11:11 P.M.]: Wait, is that right> "AndyDrew" [11:11...

Feeling Sad Hearing Jet- Look what we've Done Short Ooooo, look what you've done. You've made a fool of everyone. Oh well, it seems like such fun until you loose what you have have won. JUST DEPRESSION: Kevin wants me to quit my job. What can I say? Um, doesn't help that I started PMS'ing yesterday. I can think straight. I haven't anyone to turn to right now. My friends are away. Somehow I'm to wake up tomorrow and watch my best friend get married while I am so alone. While I'm so sad. While, I'm nothing but mush. And all day tomorrow I will have to keep that stupid smile on my face which draws me seconds closer to suicide. I'm sick. I'm tired. I barly have energy to get out of bed. I'm thinking selffishly. I've not lost myself, I've just made sure I can never be found for this depression is deeper, stronger, and more endurring than any of it's predesesors. To my lord I turn, to no avail, to my friends I tur...

Feeling Angry Mother of friggen God! So, now you know why I do not post on friggen blogger! I typed like 15 more paragraphs to the previous post, and then I pressed the font function, and it was all erased. ( evil look ) So, now that AOL is back up and running, I will post here and copy there like I always do so I can make sure it will get post. ( angry look ) LIKE CHILDREN DO: So, what I was trying to say, stuff has happened with Kevin. Monday, I did finally get in contact with him and all he could do is ask what happened Saturday. I kept alluding the situation, until he finally got so upset that he hung up on me. So, Tuesday he didn't call, and I didn't call him. I wake up Wednesday morning and he's laying next to me. My niece had let him in Tuesday night and he crawled into bed with me unbeknownst to me. So, when I woke up, I was happy for all of 2 minutes. Then he woke up and the first thing out of his mouth was about Saturday. I got pissed and got ready f...

Your mom and I would make an excellent couple. You think she would strap on and do me hard wh enever I want her to? Yay. Hey. For all of those people who are looking at my AOL journal, I know it seems as if I did not post Sunday, but I did. Well, I posted at my blogger journal because my AOL won't load. They are having some difficulties or something and I can't wait until they fix. I will be going to bed after posting on the blogger blog, and I will just have to copy to the AOL journal tomorrow. Hopefully they'll have things fixed. MISSING YOU: I've been having such a rough time recently, and I swear that not having Jhoeny to talk to has been a major part of the reason. My dominican lover ( Jhoeny that is. Not her mom who is my Dominican Dominatrix) has been off and we haven't been able to speak. :( I can't even write her a letter because she's no longer at her old address that I have and she hasn't written me yet with her new address. I was crying Frid...

Feeling Angry Hearing Marcy's Playground- Sex and Candy On Again, Off Again Yeah, whatever. So, we need to talk. Did you forget something?: So, it's friday morning and Kevin wakes up with me in his arm (awww, how romantic) and he tells me the plan for the day. I worked friday from 8am-5pm and he was going in at his job at 6pm until around 2am. So, he comes up with the ideal that maybe I should come down to the club with him right after I get off work. I had an outfit at his apartment, so he would pick me up from work and we go, um, do things at his apartment, then head to the club and I would hang around and I would help them close down and shit and then Kevin and I would leave and do more things. lol. Well, to cut it short, Kevin didn't show up at my job. So, I waited until 6, and still no Kevin. So, yeah, it was storming and shit and I was worried that maybe something happened to my man. Esspecially since he wasn't answering his cell. So, I finally just go home and I...

Feeling Flirtatious Hearing Maroon 5 - Sunday Morning Picture This Yes, this Suday update thing works for me so well. Like a week end review. I'm so great. Well, lets get to it! Hats Off to The Sis: So, happy birthday to my dear sister "L"! The big 33. Holy crap, talking about old. I'm glad I'm still 16 and have my whole life ahead of me. (Giving the evil-eye to any doubters of the last statement) Foto? ¿que Foto?: So, a month or so ago, well.. Damn, I don't wanna tell you people. Well, I'm contracted to. So, Kevin and I are both adults and he has a penis. Well, Kevin and I enjoyed adult sexual activities. Yes. OMG, yes. The best. You can hear more about that below. But, anyways, one night we were both drinking ( Blame the Booze) and we took a few photos of our, um, activities and the results of that activities. (Use your damn imagination). So, I'm at work and my boss lady whips out her camera phone (How much do I hate those thi...

Feeling Hopeful Hearing Switchfoot- Dare you to Move Reflections. Welcome to the planet. Welcome to Exsistance. Everyone's here. I dare you to move. I dare you to lift yourself off from the floor. I dare you to move like today never happened,today never happened before. Welcome. You see, as promised I'm updating. I think I will just sat aside every sunday to update. Sundays are free for me. Sex Should Stop : So, Kevin has been over more often. Remember how I made this whole big deal about not having sex because he and I, um, broke up. Yeah. Well, apparently it's not a big deal anymore. It's weird, peeps. Kevin is just this fluffy big guy with such a big heart and to resist him is like so hard because, I've come to realize that I'm all he has right now. I found out from his friend, Kiana (lovez her), that I was like the first boyfriend boyfriend Kevin had ever had. Like, he had guys who would fuck around with him but not many. But they weren...

Feeling Quiet Hearing Watching the Amazing Race And yet, I still stand The hills are alive with the ound of me kicking your butt. So, hey. Yeah, I decided to take a break. This will be a very messy entry but you know you have to be weird to be reading it anyways. So, ok, I guess I'll just go at this humorously. Subject to start each paragraph. Alrighty. George Bubbyah: Still dislike you strongly. Thank you though for trying to save Terri Shraviol's life though. You would think with the way I was keeping up on this case, I would have learned her name. It sucks how people handled this though. I'm a pro lifer. Yeah, A gay liberal prolifer. And they say I'm complicated! Being a prolife, i felt that Terri should be kept alive and God would make the choice when she was to go. No man nor machine would prevent God from calling his angel. But, when they made the choice to kill Terri, that was not right. Not just to kill her, but to starve her to death for 14 f...

Feeling Anxious Hearing Nothing Just something to think about I just wanted to post something for you all to think about. I will update later this week. Promise. "In Germany, the Nazis first came for the Communists, and I didn't speakup because I wasn't a Communist. Then they came for the Jews, and I didn't speak up because I wasn't a Jew. Then they came for the trade unionists, and I didn't speak up because I wasn't a trade unionist. Then they came for the Catholics, but I didn't speak up because I was a Protestant. Then they came for me, and by that time there was no one leftto speak up for me." - Martin Niemoeller, Berlin Lutheran pastor arrested by the Gestapo and sent to Dachau concentration camp in 1938; the Allied forces freed him seven years later. Written by thomasdimera

Feeling Quiet Hearing Tim McGraw- Live like you're dieing Disturbing Behavior Hello my fine feathered friends and foes. My heart aches so much recently. I;m in a funk. Damn it! Damn it all to hell. after work last night, I got so down that I invited James, a friend , over and just drank and drank and drank. I had about three margaritas. And then James convinced me to do str8 tequila shots. Um, bad idea. LOL. It was only the second time in my life where I actually forgot pieces of the evening. I'm just glad I don't get hang overs for some reason. James had a bitch of one. He passed out on the floor somehow and I somehow made it to my bed. Yay! Now I'm a drunk. Yippee. I don't know what's going on with me peeps. I know I've been doing a lot of changes. No longer chasing rainbows and butterflies. But, I'm chasing something. Talked with Andrew about our "relationship" and we had a pretty decent talk about things. It...

Feeling Anxious Hearing Jos Stone (Sp?) Gotta right to be wrong Horns DiMera Hey peeps. Gonna try to keep this one a positive post. But, you know me. It may not end up that way, but I try. Well, on the front burner, I went to Washington. Ran into some bad weather, but we made it there and back in great condition. The energy of the crowd was so powerful. I've try to explain it to people who asked how the trip went, but Somehow I couldn't. I can't put it into words. i mean, it changed me a lot. Ugh. I'm still fustrated right now trying to explain it all. I just can describe it. it was like this energy weither it's negative or positive going to this one man and, ugh. yadda. Anyways, great trip. Been rather busy since I got back. I'm not a full time activist. the guys that I went with have my phone number and email and all that and they are sending me events, demostrations, protest and all that so I can prepare. I'm going to be making a...

Feeling Angry Watching Mad TV Jackasses, bitches, and assholes So, ok, here's an update for you. Birthday: Three words. Hor ri ble . Chris called in the morning, and I chewed him out but he wasn't in the mood to hear me so he hung up. So, whatever. Andrew never said anything about it. So, I just said fuck it. Of course Kevin didn't mention it because he wasn't horny so he had no reason to acknowledge me the whole day. So, work was no better. Yes, working on my birthday. Who gives a shit. So, the one person I was looking forward to telling me happy birthday didn'ts. He walks thru the damn door, and I'm looking to him to say hi. Or Happy birthday. No. Jackass there says " You need to stop calling up here and hanging up" WTF! No happy birthday, no Hi Tommy. I didn't even know what the hell he was talking about! He says that I called , said my name, then hung up. Like, I have the IQ of a rock or something. Ugh. So, go...

Feeling Sad Hearing Air Supply Birth Of a King Well, it's my birthday. I don't think it's starting off well. Every birthday since forever, Chris has called me and would be the first to wish me a happy birthday,but Chris hasn't called. Well, shit. Jhoeny was the first to wish me a happy birthday which made me ok, but not great because it's upsetting that Chris still hasn't called an hour after. I called his cell and it's not on and he doesn't have a landphone. So, yeah, whatever I'm having a total PMS day. It's ok though. I will look n the positive side of things. I wish Andrew would remember my birthday, but theres no hope of that. I don't think I informed you of what's happening with him. Well, one night I tried to talk with him and he gets all irate and says he doesn't want to talk to me right now. I know this doesn't seem like a big deal, or something to get my panties in a knot about, but this is conti...

Feeling Sad Hearing Hoobaskank (Ha) Reason 2004 Thanks You + Quick Update Hey. Ok, so I'm a day late. i'm sorry. Let me give a quick update. Things are not looking goof for me. Kevin is now on fuck buddy status and I hate that so much. i don't want a fuck buddy. He comes over, does his puppy eyes and starts to nibble. It's starting to feel like more of a chore. Granted, it great, but yeah. He doesn't even acknowledge me in public anymore. It's my own fault for allowing it to happen. I'm just not as strong as I used to be. It's very sad. All of my friends have been distant recently either because I've pushed them away, or that they pushed me away. That's why this years thank yous are extremly difficult. I mean, I can do it because I'm to think of the past year, 2004, and give thanks and remain positive. But, you will notice a few people missing from the list this year. I don't know, I hate doing this, but I fe...