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Feeling Sad Hearing Jet- Look what we've Done
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Ooooo, look what you've done. You've made a fool of everyone. Oh well, it seems like such fun until you loose what you have have won.

JUST DEPRESSION: Kevin wants me to quit my job. What can I say? Um, doesn't help that I started PMS'ing yesterday. I can think straight. I haven't anyone to turn to right now. My friends are away. Somehow I'm to wake up tomorrow and watch my best friend get married while I am so alone. While I'm so sad. While, I'm nothing but mush. And all day tomorrow I will have to keep that stupid smile on my face which draws me seconds closer to suicide.

I'm sick. I'm tired. I barly have energy to get out of bed. I'm thinking selffishly. I've not lost myself, I've just made sure I can never be found for this depression is deeper, stronger, and more endurring than any of it's predesesors.

To my lord I turn, to no avail, to my friends I turn to no avail. To my family I turn, to no avail. I turn to myself, and I'm but an empty shell of a man. When there's nothing to turn to in life, it's just time to turn in.

Written by thomasdimera

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