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Feeling Quiet
Hearing Tim McGraw- Live like you're dieing
Disturbing Behavior
Hello my fine feathered friends and foes.

My heart aches so much recently. I;m in a funk. Damn it! Damn it all to hell. after work last night, I got so down that I invited James, a friend , over and just drank and drank and drank. I had about three margaritas. And then James convinced me to do str8 tequila shots. Um, bad idea. LOL. It was only the second time in my life where I actually forgot pieces of the evening. I'm just glad I don't get hang overs for some reason. James had a bitch of one. He passed out on the floor somehow and I somehow made it to my bed. Yay! Now I'm a drunk. Yippee.

I don't know what's going on with me peeps. I know I've been doing a lot of changes. No longer chasing rainbows and butterflies. But, I'm chasing something. Talked with Andrew about our "relationship" and we had a pretty decent talk about things. It's now not a realistic possibilty of us being together, so, we set it str8 so to speak. I've removed picturs of him from my room (yeah, i was in love. give me a break) and changed a few other things that are a little too personal for here. (Imagine that, something I withhold from this "smutty" journal. lol.)

Just that changes are being made for the future I'm preparing for myself.
I find myself more angry, yet more loving at the same time. John Kerry was on meet the press today and he pissed me off. He goes on there and he wants to put abortion in the moral/faith/religion collume. Whatever. I am a pro lifer and it's about taking someone's life. I don't like abortion and I will die before anyone changes my mind oon it. Whoa, I can go on about this issue, but I will have to take a raincheck because I gotta get to sleep. But, John pissed me off by saying he's personally opposed to abortion, but he would not vote for a judge that has the same views as he does on the issue. Excuse me? Why not. Ooooo, so, basically what horse face was saying is that it doesn't matter what he thinks personally, he's just here to please certain people or a certain political affiliation. Wrong answer! If I disagreewith something, I'm going to show my disagrement with it. Esspecially when it comes to the lives of precious beautiful children. No matter what stage of development they are in. I fight to hard for kids and their welware to say that I choose to please my constituants instead of saying how I feel and perserving their lives.
OK, wow, Im tired. I'll update later this week.
Love you all and God bless.

IN OTHER NEWS
Damn, i almost had my room clean until I had to look for something
Jeff, my prayers are with you and your family
Simple Life the tv show. That's hot! I loves it
Bolo and Lori were eliminated in the amazing race. That sucks.
Thank you Bruce for the card you whore.
Update: 11 days, still horny.
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