Life's TRUE Journey

Be a Simple Kind of मन Current mood: busy Category: Life I'm just wanting to blog a very quick blog. So, don't look for much depth in this one my friends. My soul is kinda sad right now. I'm trying to get inspired and all that, but I'm just not in the right kind of mind right now. I'm not able to see that light in the sky. I'm not wanting to post just a general "I'm sad but I can't tell you why" blog. I have some clarity. Well, 25% anyways. The rest I'm still working through. A question I'm asking myself is am I a homophobe. Yeah, that's way out of left field, I know. But help me work through this. I'm a very active person in the community when it comes to protecting our rights and our image. I have many Lesbian friends and all that. But, well, I really really really really really really have a problem with getting along with my gay male counterparts out there. It's a struggle to even expose myself in this m...

My Endorsements! It's my favorite time of year again!!!!!! ELECTION SEASON! Usually by now, I would already have decided who I was voting for and endorsing, but this year we have the power to change so much and there are sooooo many qualified people running that I just had to do extensive research on each canidate. Now, these endorsements are only for the Primary Elections coming up on May 6th. Now, being that I am NOT a republican and not a democrat, my endorsment are based soley on the extensive research and moral soul searching I've done over the last several months. Now, I was going to call channel 6 directly and let them know of my endorsements, but rioting and all that would soon follow, so I have decided to do them in this way. Now, since I am more of a democrat than I am a republican and in the primaries you must make a choice, my endorsements are for the democrats. But, I would like to send a message to my republican friends about the 7th district seat for Congres...

Hey Peeps, I just discovered Brett Dennen about a month ago. His song is on my profile. I'm just so in love with the lyrics he sing and I wanted to post a song up. PLEASE SUPPORT HIM AND BUY THE ALBUM. I have not gone a day since discovering him without listening to the album. There is so much more by Brett Dennen When I heard the news,My heart fell on the floorI was on a plane on my way to BaltimoreIn these trouble times it's hard enough as it isMy soul has a known a better life than thisI wonder how so many can be in so much pain,While others don't seem to feel a thing Then I curse my whiteness, And I get so damn depressed,In a world with suffering,Why should I be so blessed?I heard about a women who lives in Colorado,She built a monoment of sorts behind the garage doorWhere everyday she prays for all whom are bornAnd all whose souls have passed onSometimes my trouble gets so thickI can't see how Im gonna get through itBut then I'd rather be stuck up in a tre...

Discovering and रेदिस्कोवेरिंग । Current mood: pretty Category: Life Hello my people and my fans . lol. I'm justr gitty today with so many things to talk about. I just want to quickly share. Alejandro: The love of my past life has finally come to me for help with his addiction to booze. This is a major milestone!!! He currently lives in Boston and it is rather hard to help someone with a problem such as this in another state, but that sure as hell will not stop me from trying. I was so surprized when he called me that I basically just started to weep when I heard his voice. This , I feel, was a sign from God because in my disciplship classes we are learning and focusing on prayer and bring into it scriptures from the bible. We are to pick out a scripture at random and study and focus on it and ask God to enlighten us to it's meaning. Well, Thursday night, I randomly picked out Ephesians 5:1. To the end of the chapter and it starts to speak about not being drunk and s...

I don’t think you trust मी Current mood: eccentric । Category: Blogging Sometimes, I’m just to hyper not to write something down. Well, this is the point I’m at now. I don’t know what to write about. I will jot down a few things that have really been bugging the hell out of me this last week,. Well, at the forefront of it all, my older brother, Will, lost his longtime girlfriend. He’s not taking it too well, and i don’t know how to react. My brother and I have a very weird relationship. I try hard to be there for him, but he’s not a person I really look up to. When we were younger, I admired him so much. But in later years, he got mixed in the world of drugs. I’ve never really publicly told anyone this, and it’s been an embarrassment to the family. Will could be so great, I swear. He’s smart, but of course being related to me, why wouldn’t he be. He’s very savy and he’s very humorous. Not a day goes by he doesn’t tell a joke that makes me smile. But, the drugs. The drug...

How to make an Ass out of थोमa Current mood: blessed Category: Life Drumroll please. Ok, introducing the best speechwriter, friend, lover, tennis player, website creator, and son in the whole world. Say hello to Mr. Tommy D D-licious. (Applause and riots starts) Ok, I'm dorky today which is a very stark contrast to what happened yesterday. So, I just wanted to update that as soon as I could and let you all know what the crap happened. And update on some other crap. So, I'm in a crap mood sorta and I don't care so I'm going to just blog now because I have nothing better to do in the world. Ok, yesterday I went to my church classes as I do every Thursday. Well, it was my day to share with the class my "Spiritual Journey" which is basically an outline your life as it is and the events that have shapped the way you feel about your connection with god. Well, you all know, I am a writer. I don't do the whole public speaking about myself unless it's...

There are too many ऑप्शन्स Current mood: blah Category: Romance and Relationships Hi, I'm tommy D. and I'm a manaholic. WTF!?!?!?!? Ok, so I am post a very quick blog about basically, men. Why do I do this. because I'm working stuff out in my head and I need an outlet. Why are men so ........... whatever the hell they are? You all know what I'm talking about. Worry not, what is for the str8 men, transferrs right over to the Gay and bi ones as well. So, you will be able to relate. Men are sooooooooooooo friggen fustrating and yet at the same time, you can look at one without seeing a little child. that sounds perverted, but it's not. I mean, they seem so friggen innocent when they are nothing but. And they do such childish things that send you up the wall but yet you feel sorry for them because it's like they know no other way. What stage I am in: Well, in relationships I know there are different stages. Right now, I'm in the dreeded hunting sta...

Because I feel like Blogging Current mood: weird Category: Life It's rare I wish to talk, but I do for some reason. OMG, wait, It's the big V-day. Happy V-Day everyone. I wish you a lot of kisses, hugs, and butt grabs, and ect. ect.ect. I'm feeling a bit weird today, so this is a blog that I suggest to everyone they skip. I'm going home soon and having a nice glass of wine and maybe a white russian. Yay. I don't know why, but on V-Day, I'm never sad about being single. But it's Christmas and my Birthday that I hate being single. Weird, because V-Day is set up for couples, but I find it so enjoyable. It's weird, yeah. I'm weird. I love V-Day. People kissing and making love and all that. lol. So, what's going on? I've been thinking a lot about moving out of time. That's one of the things I didn't include in my last blog that I knowingly excluuded. I don't know why, it's just that I must get the hell out of town....

Just wanted to Blog about नोथिंग Current mood: confused Category: Life Ok, well, I'm blogging about nothing because honestly, there is nothing to blog about, but everything i guess. Well, for the most part I've been just trying to handle a lot of business. yeah, if you get that I'm not going to go into great detail about it, you're right. Just a lot of business. Church: Church is going well with my discipleship classes. There are a lot of people who I find interesting there, but like always I feel dissconnected from them as I do with everyone in life. it's because I keep way too many secrets. I should just finally write my tell all autobi and let it be done with. But to tell the truth, the things I do keep secret are to no importance to anyone unless I do let them be known. Relationship: Yeah, I'm feeling whorish, and I don't know why. I have a "thing" for 7 people. Yes, today i sat down and counted them all up and I know for a fact th...

A quick bloggy of nonesense Ok, so, as you all may know, I am currently without a computer at home except for the simple desktop which doesn't have a high speed connection and I just got rid of my dail up connection for it two months ago. So, I don't want to re enroll in a dail up account. I'm still waiting to get my laptop back to working. Not having a laptop hasn't been tooo terribly bad. I've actually managed to clean my room and also I've read (and this isn't a joke) six full books over the last month. Yeah, OCD can really be a good thing sometimes. So, this is not going to be an in dept totally honest blog because I'm at a public library and people are already looking at me. lol. Of course, why wouldn't they. I'm dead sexy. Yes, today I'm very very gay. !!!! Do you have any ideal how many hot guys are here at the library! mmmm mmm mmm. I could be a total hwhore if i wanted to buty i'm not trying to be. I'm just here...

Uh Oh. 2007 Thank Yous. Current mood: rushed Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes Ok , so, its that time of year. The thing that everyone has been waiting for. Tommy's Annual Thank Yous. YAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!! (And the crowd goes wild) I can not believe I've kept up with this tradition for 7 years now. It's awesome. I'm proud of the fact that i actually have a tradition that i can keep. So, without farther ado, I will get to it. But first of course my resolutions and my disclaimer. I try to have at least five resolutions . What exactly do I need to resolve to do? Ok , 1. Pieces of You- I will put my family back together this year. We have been under so much stress that it's just ripped such a huge hole in this family. So, I will put it back together. I've already begun this, but I will step up my efforts and get the results I need. 2. Pieces of Me- I will get my spirit back from the grips of the past. I made this a resoulution last year, but was not able...

Tuesday, December 25, 2007 Rundown, Repost, and Regulars Current mood: calm Category: Friends So many things to discuse and unfortunatley, i've let things pile up. I've not been on for a while trying to build myself up again and all that. So, heres a run down. Today, as like the last 6 years, I will repost my annual thank yous from last year. The Thank yous are something i do every year (7 years now) at new yearsday, reflecting on year past, and giving thanks to the people wh impacted my life. But you knew that, right? Now, i still owe a special Julia blog, which i will do Friday along with a full update on my life. So mark that day on your calenders. I actually uploaded a video of the whole Julia thing, but its basically the events of the funeral and me trying to speak while crying like a baby, so a blog is more fitting. Then of course on New Years day, i will post the 2007 thank yous (last couple of years, i've been late,but i will do my best this year). Okay, th...

Tuesday, December 25, 2007 Rundown, Repost, and Regulars Current mood: calm Category: Friends So many things to discuse and unfortunatley, i've let things pile up. I've not been on for a while trying to build myself up again and all that. So, heres a run down. Today, as like the last 6 years, I will repost my annual thank yous from last year. The Thank yous are something i do every year (7 years now) at new yearsday, reflecting on year past, and giving thanks to the people wh impacted my life. But you knew that, right? Now, i still owe a special Julia blog, which i will do Friday along with a full update on my life. So mark that day on your calenders. I actually uploaded a video of the whole Julia thing, but its basically the events of the funeral and me trying to speak while crying like a baby, so a blog is more fitting. Then of course on New Years day, i will post the 2007 thank yous (last couple of years, i've been late,but i will do my best this year). Okay, th...

Bad Days Suck Current mood: rejected Category: Life Hey Folks. Just wanted to blog and see if it would help me feel better today. Maybe because it's raining or whatever, but I'm having one of those shitty days where I don't feel good about myself and people annoy me. Poor Justin Dustin was a victim of that today. He was talking about my previous journal entry, and he said i painted him out to be a bad guy. I let him no that no one even mentioned anything like that and that he was just stupid. Then my mother got on my nerves. I'm just trying to cook me something to eat and she comes around just asking all these questions and I'm like, really not in the mood to talk. I just want to get something to eat and whatever. I tried to just have a little peace and tim to myself. But then she gets emotional because i'm not uppy and happy and wanting to envoke conversation. Then, just stupid shit got to me today. On the shuttle bus to and from work no one sat next...

It's been so many months since I posted a blog, I don't think I remember how. But I promised Justin Dustin to post oe because, and I'm quoting "I want to know how you really feel about me" Mkay . So blogging shall begin now. At the forefront of my complex mind is the absoulute joy I feel right now. This is mainly over my new place of employment, Federal Express. I've been questioning myself on why I feel such emmense joy working there. One could say it's because how horrible my last job went. I care not too talk to much about it, but they made the mistake of playing with my money so I played a little back and they didn't like that too well. When i get off of work from fed ex, it's so different from when I used to get off from the old job. I have such positive energy and excitment when I leave fed ex, it's almost humous . I'm constantly asking my friends is it normal to feel so happy about working. Ok , Justin Dustin, here'...

ToO Much time to think. Current mood: confused Category: Life I think too much. I get scared sometimes. I know. I hear so much about death and then I obsess on it for a whole day. This was one of those days. I'm lucky enough to have awesome friends and I thank the lord everyday for each and every one of them. But damn, they make me think too much. People come up to me because they say I'm smart, I'm philisophical. I'm Wise beyond my years or whatever. It's great, but if you know me you know I have a lot to say. But I tell ya, sometimes I get so bogged down with these questions that make me think. Religion/God: Beoing a gay christian buddhist has it's challenges, without saying. This is the most difficult issue to try to explain about myself. For a number of years, I had faith in nothing at all. I lost my father, I was dealing with being violated as a child and as a teen. I experienced so much pain that I broke. But what made me come back "...