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OMG, I'm old. Happy birthday to me. Yuk, I'm 19 and I feel so old now. I feel like I've fallen and I can't get up. Okay, now, down to business.
One rant that I have today is about TV. Ugh, okay, I'm bi, as you all know. Yay yay. But two people almost NEVER represented on tv is a Bi guy, or a homophobic person. It annoys the hell out of me. I mean, someone tell me one show that has a bi guy in it that's not x-rated. It totally suck. And then, no one shows homophobia. It's like, on Six Feet Under, they had one guy that called the black guy a fag, but it wasn't really homophobia because the guy didn't mean he hates gays. And then, when the white guy came out to his brother, to other folks at the bowling ally, or to his sister, they were all like YAY FOR GAY. I mean, everywhere I go I face homophobia. But not in tv. It's a poor representation on the part of television. Not that homophobia should be glorified, but hey., it still exsist. People who adimmitly hate gay people, and literal wish to round us up and kill us. Not the lame, "Oh, I hate fags, but you changed my perception. I want to have a lot of gay friends now" bull crap seen on tv. (Sigh)
Anyways, heee hee hee. George W. Bsh choked and fanted, TOm Green and Drew Berrymore broke up, yay yay yay.
Rosie and I had another fight. I forgot what it was all about, but I'm pretty sure it will be our last one. I know this may sound totally stupid, but I matured a lot in the last week. I mean, I have come to a realization about my life. I'm getting old. Oy vey. Talk more later

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