Life's TRUE Journey

This is a rather bad, but great time in my life. My thoughts are conflicted, yet I feel the need to just try to type out something. Grandma Gene : My last living Grandmother is expected to pass very soon. She's now in Hospice. I receive this news Yesterday. My grandma Gene is the family member I am closest to. She's the reason why I started my journey in my church. I've always been sure to tell of her in my annual blogs and as often as anyone wants to hear about how beautiful, how graceful, and how faithful this woman is. She's the embodiment of what it is to be a Christian. She is soooo Christ like in all that she does. The love she pours out is so overwhelming. I often tell my groups at Church about her. She often reminds me how to be a "good Christian" in her words, and by the example she sets. The major conflict in my life now is how does one grieve in a Christian manner. I'm not overcome with sadness, because I know if anyone should asce...

I know I said I would post a blog, but you have no ideal the things going on in my life. I will post one soon, I promise. But for now, I just want to escape. Here's a survey thingy I took. Take care. Survery From Gabe1/2 BECAUSE I CAN DAMNIT! Body: Be hones​t,​​​ who have texte​d you today​?​​​​Dan, Alejandro, Tanisha, My sister, Ron, Amy, Kevin, and My credit card thingy.Do you think​ anyon​e has feeli​ngs for you?No, because they are all screwed up in the head. Can't realize a good thing right in front of them.Who was the first​ perso​n you talke​d to today​?​​​My mother​How late did you stay up last night​?​​​1:45​Do you regre​t your last fight​ with someo​ne?​​Yes, I regret all fights.Who was the last perso​n you cried​ in front​ of?kevinWhat will you be doing​ withi​n the next 3 hours​?​​​Going to Pride. .Loosing about 20 poundsHave you held hands​ with anyon​e in the past 24 hours​?​​​NoWhat are you liste​ning to?Jason Mraz​Whats​ on your bed?My bad, my umbrella, skit...

Hi hi hi. Hello. Okay, maybe blogging will make me feel better today. How a Saturday starts: Today has just started off so bad. I hope not to be as negative as some people in my life (mother) but it's just a suck butt day already. I had to break up a fight among two homeless people. That made me so sad. In my head, I'm making up cinerios on why they were fighting. I do not know the true reason why they were fighting though. My mother angered me today just by being such a negative person about everything. I truly hope that as I get older, I do not get cranky. I just hope to remain happy and, well, gay. My mmother has but only a few focuses in life. One major one is money money money. She lets money control her mood. That's one of the reasons I've made it a point over the last few years to do without a lot of things. There are many things I would like to have materially that I know I can afford, but I've made that choice that I will not let my ...

Not feeling Bloggy, but I must Current mood: bummed Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes Okay, i'm in no mood to post a blog. But why? I don't know. I've nothing to say really, but I will force a blog since it's been weeks. Goals Update: So, I figured I would Update on the current situations with the resolutions I made. I will do this every month to make sure I'm still holding myself accountable for them. I'll repost the goals and the current situation. 1. Of course last year I wanted to not gain any weight, and then secretly I resolved to loose 20 pounds. So, this year, up front, I want to loose 30 pounds by December 30 2009. ( Update) Well, as I stated before I took a little break. In the month of January I gained 4 pounds . it's alright, I'm back on it now. 2. I resolve to limit my potty mouth. Since I'm seen as a leader at church, Pastor Jeff pointed out that the reputation of the church can be reflected in the things I do. So, my major this is my potty...

Hello my people. Okay, this is the second time I'm typing out this blog. So, if it lacks anything, blame it on that. Now, lets get started. Valerie waz here 1-2009: I had an awesome visit from my bestest friend Valerie , her woman Roxanne , their friend Lisa, and Val's bother Mark. i had such an awesome time. We went over Lisa's mom's house and all of us including Lisa's mom, Jan, played uno . You wouldn't think that that would be an exciting night, but damn was it! he had a cocktail or two and as you know, I'm a light weight so I got really comfortable. lol. My cheeks were in pain from the laughing and great times we had. The finally game of uno seemed to last hours. Lisa's mom is so awesome and it was really great to have that wonderful break with all these awesome people. So, the next day, Roxanne, Valerie, and I went to church. it was the first time Roxanne had been to my church, so it was a little nerve wreaking for her. Not as nerve wreaking as th...

Talk about efficiency. WhiteHouse.gov , the official site of the President, was updated to reflect the changeover from President George Bush to President Barack Obama within a few minutes of Obama's inauguration. Has anyone visited the site yet, and if so, have you seen The Agenda page ? I have to say that I am impressed—it lays out Obama's civil rights agenda, which includes broad support for the LGBT community. Among Obama's positions: He supports the Employment Non-Discrimination Act and believes anti-discrimination employment laws should be expanded to include sexual orientation and gender identity; and he supports full civil unions that give same-sex couples legal rights and privileges equal to those of married couples. Additionally, Obama thinks we should repeal the Defense of Marriage Act, and he opposes a constitutional ban on same-sex marriage. He also wants to repeal the military's "don't ask, don't tell" policy; ensure adoption rights for al...

Hello people. I've decided to not try to catch up on all the blogs I've missed, for I would be catching up forever. I will just explain what is current in my life and If I need to reference back, I will. So, lets get an update on the tominator! David Archuleta - Are you Serious? : Don't ask me, but damn, I've fallin for the kid. Not like that. He looks way way way too young to like him like that, but I'm in my undies singing his song, crush! Going away away away aahh aaa aa a aaa! It's on my player on my myspace and facebook if you've not heard it. Or youtube it. lol. I look so goofy singing that song, but I'm loving it. Raciest? Again with this: So, I'm loving my paid job, honestly. I work with a great group of people. But, something came up Wednesday that I've been basically battling my whole life. Trent, a black guy who is opinionated as hell, and I were having a conversation. The topic went to race, with what happened Tuesday in ...

Wow, I'm way late. Sorry. Well, I've been busy. The next blog I post after this will be full of details of my life, my birthday, my newsyears. All the goodie goodies. lol. But I have to get straight to the thank you because this year there are too many people. I may even have to split this into two blogs. We'll see. Lets start off with my resolutions. I had to pick and choose carefully this year because I had so much success with last years that I wish not to muck it up this year. 1. Of course last year I wanted to not gain any weight, and then secretly I resolved to loose 20 pounds. So, this year, up front, I want to loose 30 pounds by December 30 2009. 2. I resolve to limit my potty mouth. Since I'm seen as a leader at church, Pastor Jeff pointed out that the reputation of the church can be reflected in the things I do. So, my major this is my potty mouth. I want to limit it a lot in 2009, and in 2010 I wish to eliminate it all together. So don't look at me funny ...

Don’t look at me in that tone of voice! Current mood: sneaky Category: Blogging I know, I know, I was supposed to post my 2008 thank yous by now. Okay, I have a LONG list this years, so please be patient। I will post Saturday. I love you all. Currently reading : Rag and Bone (Henry Rios Mysteries) By Michael Nava Release date: 2002-06-04

The repost of Last Year’s Thank Yous Current mood: refreshed Category: Friends Hey Guys. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas, and if you didn't to hell with it, there's next year and you'll make up for it. Now, I have a lot of things to discuses but I can't because like the last 8 years, I have to get to the repost of the previous years "Tommy Thank Yous" Yes, I know. Calm down people. I know you are so excited. It's my biggest tradition on my blog. I've been doing my thank you for more than eight years, actually, but I've been putting them here on a blog since 2001. It's a very thoughtful and time consuming process where basically I get down to the raw core of my soul and type it out here. Well, I just want to do I quick rundown of what happens. I repost, then on new years (and most of the time I'm a little late, so make it the 3rd maybe) I give my annual thank yous to all the people in my life that year (2008) and then...

This is a really quick blog about just stuff in general. Yay! Okay, well, I don't know where to begin. Last night I had a sorta date. Well, my friend (name withheld pending permission) asked if I would like to go out with him to a comedy club in Broadripple. Well, I did and I got the feeling that he meant to ask if I would like to go along with him as he basically picked up half of the club. I guess at this point I am so "desperate" that I read into a friend wanting to hang out as him and I dating. lol. Lord when ever will this desperation end? Oh well, after sitting there at the bar feelings totally humiliated, I skipped out of there. I guess I better call him or something. Let him know that I left, but I'm sure by now he got that I wasn't there. lol. It's been a good 12 hours. So, there are some traditions coming. My annual thank yous and my repost of last years. I can't remember if I did it last year. Uh oh, I'm getting old. lol. ...

Question 38 makes it a blog Update. Current mood: disappointed Category: Romance and Relationships 40 Secre​tsBe hones​t no matte​r whatOne: Who is your last text from?​My sisterTwo: Where​ was your defau​lt pictu​re taken​?​In a roomThree​:​What is your middl​e name?​I don't give out that info. C.J.are the initialsFour:​ Whats​ your curre​nt favor​ite color​?​PurpleFive:​ Does someb​ody love you?NoSix: What is your curre​nt mood?​Deep in thoughtSeven​:​ When is your birth​day?​January 11thEight​:​ What color​ shirt​ are you weari​ng?​BlueNine:​ If you were going​ on a reali​ty TV show,​ which​ one would​ it be?The Amazing RaceTen: Are you imagi​ning anyon​e naked​ right​ now?Yes, alwaysEleve​n:​ Who is on your mind right​ now?My "lover". I'm thinking about ending this off again on again secret relationship for good.Twelv​e:​ Ever had a near death​ exper​ience​?​YesThirt​een:​ Somet​hing you do a lot?SING ALTHOUGH NOT THAT GREAT AT IT LOL(Same here Jhoeny)Fourt​een:​ ...

Change. It’s a start not an end. Current mood: exotic Category: Life Hello my people! For those of you who are expect a Grande ol blog, I'am sorry I'am in no mood to produce such a thing. I am wanting to be very insightful as to the absence of communication from me, though I feel that my words may come as lackluster in the whole scheme of things because I've so much to say. First allow me to do this. (Stands up, does the happy dance) ! How excited I am about the turnout of this election. Only did the person who I wanted to be elect was elected; Also the turn out was huge and more people than I can remember or recall in the years I've been voting actually took part in this election. How awesome that!?!?!?! As you all may recall, I was torn up when Hilary Clinton did not get the nomination, but I'm so happy that this republican reign of terror is soon to be put behind us, even just for a while. Congratulation To Mr. Obama! As you may know, I've been names...

A Blog to काम Current mood: कांफिडेंट Category: Life hello. As you know, I've been political since I came out of my mom's V V with a donkey birthmark. I've not any shame in that fact, nor do I have any reservations exclaiming my political view in a room full of white conservative republicans that this Bush was too weak. You know I have a speech ready for you all, but not just yet. I need another week or so to gather myself. So, I'm going to repost a Blog from July 28th 2004. Please read through it if you don't recall it (but of course you remember ever post I've ever made by heart) . I will be back with a week to post my big blog. I love you all and God bless. (((((((((((((((((REPOST BLOG JULY 28TH 2004)))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Wednesday, July 28, 2004 7:09:40 AM EST Feeling Mischievous Hearing Justin Timberlake Politics are Pouring Lalala. Ok, hi. So, some stuff has been happening. I'm not gonna whine or whimper about it all. Or mayb...

Don't worry, you're not alone. I've been put under a lot of pressure recently on five fronts. Church, Family, Job, Self, and Friends. I know you are saying "What the fuck! I'm your friend and I need you" Well, I know you are, but I have some friends with very urgent problems up front and center. Your problems may be more right now, but it's (and I'm sorry to sound cruel) is a first come first serve basis. I'm trying hard to balance all of this and I'm sorry I'm not handling it as well as in the past. I've taken on a lot more responsibilities at church, there are so many stressful situation within my family right now, I'm getting more hours at both my jobs (which is a blessing and a curse at the same time), and I'm dealing with all this when I have a few medical issues with myself that I'm also trying to handle. So, let me tell you how much I love each and every one of my friends, real life and myspace/facebook only. ...

Hello my beautiful wonderful and stupid friends. This blog, I think, will go one for a bit, so only my truly devoted readers may read this, but whatever. I have much to say, and much to update on. Pieces and pieces all around and I don't mind not being able to make a neat blog, as you would. But I can guarantee it will be filled with my innermost thoughts. Subject 1: Matthew Shepard So, can anyone tell me when he was attacked. Well, I can. October 7th 1998 and he passed away on October 12th 1998. I recall being a young gay teen at the time and hearing of this. It was an important moment in my life when I had to make the choice to stay in the closet and be safe from this type of thing or to come out and be who I am. What a hard choice it was to be in the situation of having to even think about that. Over the years, there have been lots of conclusion as to why the losers who killed Matthew killed him. I don't care what it was. He was our brother. He was a person. Ne...