Life's TRUE Journey

Weather Roach! NO THIS IS NOT ME. LMAO

Ok, I've been drinking so I'm not drunk but i;m rather tipsy. Bare with me. Bad day. Such a bad day. Work was the worst ever. My family is in the mix of hating or abusing me. My fiends are just down riht pissing me off and my exes are making me suicidal. But i do have some good news. I saved a bunch on my car insurance by switcing to esurance.com. Honestly I did. saved $312. Yep. My body was in so much physical pain like all over from the stress today. I don't know. So, I came home an I've had about 5 drinks because i have never been in such pain ever. I'm rlazing now so it's all good. Well trying to. i wish i would have went somewhere and got a comedy dvd, but can't go ot now. been drinking. S, tomorrow I have off from work . anyone wanna go out and do something. Lets go ! Goodnight. Gotta go pee

Burgess, Dewey C. July 21, 2006 Dewey C. Burgess 80, of Indianapolis, died July 19, 2006. Dewey was a member of the Teamsters Local #716 and retired from Central Rubber and Supply Company as a truck driver. Dewey's true passion was for auto racing. Dewey and his wife Thelma, were a constant at The Speedrome for over 50 years serving as the pit register and pit gate operator. Dewey and Thelma were inducted into the Speedrome Hall of Fame and to this day are the only husband and wife to do so. Dewey was preceded in death by his wife Thelma. He is survived by his daughters LaVerne (Jim) Henderson, Evelyn (Don) Ent, Beverly Spears, brother Ben Burgess, 4 grandchildren, 7 great grandchildren and several nieces and nephews. Funeral services will be held Saturday at 12 noon at Flanner & Buchanan Funeral Center- Decatur, with calling Friday 3-8 p.m. at the funeral center. Burial will follow the services in Floral Park Cemetery. Memorial contributions may be made in Dewey's memory t...

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Well, allow me to finish up. i thought it would be saturday but I'll go ahead and finish up to my earlier post. Mommy Dearest: My mother's health has not been the best in recent months. Her Doctor is a stupid piece of shit and I keep urging her to change, but mothers never listen to their sons. So, she's had this very bad cough for a while now and she's been to that clown a lot. Sometimes he would not even be there, and then, when he is there, he gives the impression that the stuff my mom has been going thru is exagerated. I finally went in with her on one of her visit to this quack and I took the role as the concerned parent. I asked him 2000 questions and demanded that he listen to my mother. it's not asthma. She's had this feeling like there's something in her chest area. So, anyways, they final run some real test and the next thing I know, they think she may have some form of luekemia because some test showed imornality with her Lempht Nodes. ...

As I promised, an update. I have exactly 51 minutes to complete this, so if I do have to go really fast, I hope you, my fans (lol), will understand. Also, if you would please ask your forgiviness if I am not exactly in a certain order with this blog for I've lots to get to. Reviewing Life: So, if you've not had the chance, i would suggest you go to my blogger blog and read some of the archives. lol. Esspecially the 2001's. I realize, now, how immature I was and how much I've changed in just five years. It's awesome. I'm so glad I started writing a journal of life because it really does give you insight on yourself because usually it's just raw emotion pouring out. I enjoy it. http://prepboy83.blogspot.com Pride 2006: I again, attended pride with my bestest lesbian friend, Valerie. And, it was an event. As you guys know, last year pride sucked rally hard for me, so I thought this year would be a turn around. Well, I know I enjoyed myself a lot mo...

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Mood: Sad Music: Lonely day by System of a Down Just Lyrics. (I'll post an update soon. Before friday for sure. ) Lonely Day by System Of A DownSuch a lonely day, And it's mine. The most loneliest day of my life. Such a lonely day should be banned. It's a day that I can't stand. The most loneliest day of my life. The most loneliest day of my life. Such a lonely day shouldn't exist. It's a day that I'll never miss. Such a lonely day, and it's mine. The most loneliest day of my life. And if you go, I wanna go with you. And if you die, I wanna die with you. Take your hand and walk away. The most loneliest day of my life. The most loneliest day of my life. The most loneliest day of my life. Such a lonely day, and it's mine. It's a day that I'm glad I survived.

Subject: Forgive me father, For I have sinned Mood: Angry Music: Lonely Day by System of a Down I swear, i need to check myself into a clinic to get some much needed rest. This is a vent post but it's a crazy post, and an ana post and a, I dunno. It's going to be all over the map, ali with my emotional state. Forgive me father, for I've committed a deadly sin. A sin I've repeated A LOT recently. Envy. It's wrong of me and I do realize it when I commit it. But, it keeps rearing it's ugly head in a couple different ways. Confusing ways. I will elabo on a couple. Take for instance, the shocker of a lifetime. I've been speaking with this lady of about 30 years. I've grown pretty attached to her. I usually stop by her place of business, a gas station not to far from my home, and we usually spend about 30 minutes a night speaking to one another when I get off work. Recently, a guy has been talking with her as well. She had been speaking of ...

Mood: Chillin' Music: Lean Wit it. Franchise Boyz Hello, and welcome to another update on my, well, um, life. I went bowling with Jessie yesterday. it was an outing to discus (and put to rest) all the things that happened with her and I and Sam. So, I said I was sorry to her because I was such a bitch. It was stupid. I blamed her for not being able to be with same, when all along it was really not what I needed. I was angry with her, when I really should have been angry with myself for breaking my own goals set for myself. She did nothing wrong. I really applaud her for even allowing me the opportunity to explain and appoligise for my stupidity. Besides, as I reflect, I know that Sam is not what I wanted anyways. i didn't even know the boy. So, it was great. Jessi is on a bowling league, and I've not bowled since I was about 14. So, I was so embarrassed getting a 25 the first game and 33 the next. Grrr. I should have had the bumpers, but noooooooo. Jessi ...

Feeling Sad Hearing Nothing I am not a poet, but just something Dancing man so full of grace. Song to sing, with a beautiful face. Long way from home, you made a life worked 60 hours, never took a wife Smiled when sad, smiled when glad Smiled with comfort when you made me mad Heart so big, ego so small And recently my friend, you heard the call. A good person like you is not fit for earth. Now you're with other Angels on their Turf. Move those hips, sing that song. Keep Heaven happy all day long. The memories of that I keep down here. And one day I 'll be there, just to be near. When you sing your song, and dance your dance. How I long for the day I will get that chance. To laugh and play and hold you near. See your smile and know there's nothing to fear. Down here you took things easy Did crazy things, and your jokes were pretty cheesy. You impacted my life with you just being you. And the now I cry with nothing else to do. Cry for the lost, though your memory is fresh. ...

Feeling Quiet Hearing Nothing Sickness and Death hello. I've not updated in a while, I know. I've been dealing with the death of a dear friend of mine, and also with sickness myself. I will be updating soon though. I'm getting my energy back and I have so much to tell. So bare with me. I love you all. Tommy D.

Feeling Hopeful Watching Desperate Housewives ¿Tomas, por qué es tu triste? Hello. So, a week later and I'm working on it. I've stopped drinking nightly. I've gone back on my diet and I've lost 1 pound. Everything big starts off small, right? I've hashed out the last of the anger that I had over loosing Sam. Jessi and I are no longer friends, but we have agreed to put this all behind us. I will not hold anymore anger for her, nor she for me. Some of the things Jessi said, I've examined closly. The whole "Drama Queen" thing came up. Am I a Drama queen? What is a drama Queen? I find my self dumbfounded by this label. I hope it doesn't mean a person with opinions and not afraid to voice them. I think of all the empty headed, single track minded peeps out there and I'm so glad I'm not them. Not able to hold a conversation. Thinking of only the next lay. That's just not me. Also, the "physical difference" the girls were referring t...

Feeling Sad I'm not well I am not well. My heart has become empty. This is not a post of thank yous or empty promises. It's not a fulfillment of promises made previously by myself. This is just a post of me expressing and summing up my life to this point, and boy do I have a lot to say. There was a point recently that I thought that I found "the one" . Why matters of my emotional well being always seem to revolve around the male species, I do not know. This is the story of Sam. I surrounded myself around a few good friends. The main two are Jessi a friend that loves the ideal of love. Especially given the fact that she found her soul mate at 17. And Brandi, a mother of three who also love the ideal of love. My boyfriend, Ramiro, had decided that waiting for me was not worth the venture. So basically, he said to hell with it right before Christmas. It was to be expected. We were both starting to see qualities in each other that were very un compatible. ...

Feeling Silly Hearing The fuck if I know Thank you for Thank yous! Yeah yeah. So, i'm doing my fucking thank yous for 2005. What a bloodly fucking year that hit was. Fuck. Here we go. Debra my mother- Yeah, you were awesome. tood by me and stuff. Jhoeny- Fucking awesome. Great knowing you. Andrew- Still lead me on and fuck me over but i love it or whatever. Kevin- Fuck you motherfucker. Ramiro- Fuck you piece of shit Fuck this, I'm going to fucking bed.

Feeling Quiet Hearing Watching Survivor Long Time No Write. So, you're pissed off at me. Kinda like a girl would be pissed when a guy didn't call her after a wild night of mind blowing cover tossing pillow biting sex. And, I do appoligise. Wih every fiber of my being. I've not been able to write down my thoughts because I myself have been confused by said thoughts. This is the plan. Tonight I'm not updating, but I'm giving my outline of my updates. The next update, which will be Monday the 6th, I will make sure to do my annual thank yous that were supposed to be done on January 1st. Sorry. The thank yous will be for 2005. So, in the post, I will be reposting the ones from 2004. Then, on Saturday march 11th I will be updating about December and January. a lot of which will deal with Ramiro and why I've not been able to update. Then, on Thursday the 15th I will be updating as normal, with all the stuff that happened in February. and the current stuf...

Wednesday, December 7, 2005 4:10:24 AM EST Feeling Mischievous Eating a Chicken Broccoli Hot Pocket I smell Sex and Candy I just had to update after the night I had last night and the weekend I had. Lets start with the smaller stuff. I AM MY SISTERS HUSBAND: Yeah, catchy title, eh? Well, a little back ground. My dear sister "L" is in some sort of relationship with a man double her age. Well, they aren't physical or anything, but they are friendly with one another. So, recently he's had some medical problems and "L" wanted to visit him in the hospital ( And bring him a gigantic basket of fruit and all. Fixed up by her). So I come along because the basket was big and she needed help. We get up to the hospital room, and there he is WITH HIS WIFE! So, I'm sitting back and enjoying the psychology of it all. the wife sense something night right. My sister trying not to say the wrong thing. The guy trying to be happy without being too happy. ...

Monday, November 28, 2005 5:16:52 AM EST Feeling Flirtatious Hearing Etta James - At last I lost my ass, can I have some of yours At last my love has come along. My lonely days are over.at last the skies above are blue. My heart was wrapped up in clover, the night that I looked at you. I found a dream that I could speak to a dream that I can call my home. I found the thrill to press my cheek to, of real love I've never know. You smile, then the spell is casted. And here we are in heaven. For you are mine at last. Hey. Well, lets see. I'm in such a horny mood right now. I don't know why. Oo, wait, yes I do. I'm surrounded by hot guys. lol. Allow me to explain. i don't mean that literally right now I have guys surrounding me. But, well RAMIRO- THE NEW KEVIN: So, my friend Ramiro and I have been hanging more and more. Saturday night, though, oooo I hate him. lol. Well, not literally. he must have read my blog about what drinking does to me, becau...

Yo yo yo dawgs. What be the word and yeah, as if. Totally, and so like, uh huh so watcha doin back yonder. Yaw ain't messin round no foolishiness you hear now? So may I make a rather urgent suggestion darling. Cayete putos. Ok, I must be weird or something. Just wanted to give a uick update because I'm bored and I need something to get me to sleep. What bitches: So my friend / gay virginity taker Aaron and I were talking yesterday. Guess what? ELTON JOHN IS IN FREAKING TOWN (yes he's staying over at my house tomorrow night) and guess what people. Aaron got tickets to his concert and is going to suprize his fiancee Mike with them tonight!!! I'm pissed. Ugh. And they are friggen good seats. their not floor, but they are one row up! I wish I were with Aaron right now just to have those tickets. But hey, I still have Ramiro. The Potiential: So my friend Ramiro and I have been getting comfy with one another. Well, not too comfy. Not as comfy as I would li...

Feeling Hopeful Hearing No Doubt - Don't Speak One STI for me, Two STIs for You As Promised, an Update. Eventhough there's a storm outside and I may die by using this Laptop, but it's ok. As long as the blog gets updated, right? Oh, Hi Cory: So, it's of course been a while since I've seen Cory or even heard from him. And knock knock, who's there!!!!!!!! Cory! I'm thinking " Oh lord, he must have heard that Kevin and I are no more and he thinks he can get back with me" but I graciously invite him in and get him a dew. So we talk and remenes about a few minutes then he tells me the reason for the visit. He tells me that he has to notify his ex'es that he has a STI (Sexually Transmitted Infection. Formally known as STD- Sexually Transmitted Disease) and he may have passed it to me because he's not sure when he got it or who he got it from. THANKS FOR THE FRIGGEN VISIT CORE! The devil inside me started to laugh saying if anyone ...