Okay, hey people. I hate you all. Anyways, I made a new friend, Amanda Y. That makes like 50 friends of mine named Amanda. Anyways, the first time I introduced her to Doug, the one I mentioned earlier, it was love at first sight. Or, lust. Anyways, they made plans for later that night. By plans, teens usually mean we will do it in your mom's car. Which is totally sick. But hey, the nexty day that's exactly what Amanda told me what happened. Then she goes on to say things like, "Little man, inch worm, 3 minutes and out" I was like, very amused by this. I learned so much about my two new friends. I haven't seen doug around. I hope it didn't kill him. I really don't approve of all this sex, but I love hearing about it. OMG, what the hell am I saying. Let me go.
It was an impulse thing. For weeks before my grand gesture of driving to North Carolina I was having pretty much a mental break down. A very grim dentist appointment, loneliness , attachment to things that could never be mine, weight gain, the pressure of business, taking care of an elderly paRant. At one point I just stood in the middle of a room not know where to go literally and figuratively . All of a sudden an opportunity popped up for me to go and I did. Anyone who knows me know I'm not an impulsive person but I just had to do this. To clear my head, to refocus myself. I can get into the details on the trip at a later time. I want with this entry to focus on a single aspect. The thoughts that came to me while driving through the great mountains of this United States and the feelings . I looked out onto the greatness of this land and the beauty it possess and I thought of some things. Deep things. ...