Okay, about the Virginity thing. I am a virgin, for the most part. You know, I've done a lot of oral stuff and hand stuff and stuff stuff. Hee hee hee. But, you know, I never did you know what. I have many options to do so, but I was raised in a way that it's supposed to be special. But I think I should just do it already. I mean, this is life. And, like a previously stated, I'm horny as hell. And I want the chance to experience something new. Ugh
Ok, crying again. Depression is so stupid it sucks. Yeah, today, though, for a change, it's not about Aaron. But now I'm crying because I mentioned his name. But, the initial crying is because of Andrew Andrew Andrew H H H. God is very cruel to me, I'm thinking right now. Okay, I'm really crying right now and can;t see the screen. I don't understand why God made me love, I mean geinuenly love someone I could never have and it's just I don't understand why my heart is somewhere it doesn't belong. it's fucking insane. I'm so sic of feeling like I not going to be happy because of stupid little shit that shouldn't even be a fucking factor. God is suppiosed to be love. and love is supposed to besomething not easy to come by, but somehat that is obtainable. Why is it not for me. Why and I so fucking destined to be alone for my life. I want someone to fucking share this journey and I pled and I pray everyday. I follow the rules of ...