Okay, about the Virginity thing. I am a virgin, for the most part. You know, I've done a lot of oral stuff and hand stuff and stuff stuff. Hee hee hee. But, you know, I never did you know what. I have many options to do so, but I was raised in a way that it's supposed to be special. But I think I should just do it already. I mean, this is life. And, like a previously stated, I'm horny as hell. And I want the chance to experience something new. Ugh
It was an impulse thing. For weeks before my grand gesture of driving to North Carolina I was having pretty much a mental break down. A very grim dentist appointment, loneliness , attachment to things that could never be mine, weight gain, the pressure of business, taking care of an elderly paRant. At one point I just stood in the middle of a room not know where to go literally and figuratively . All of a sudden an opportunity popped up for me to go and I did. Anyone who knows me know I'm not an impulsive person but I just had to do this. To clear my head, to refocus myself. I can get into the details on the trip at a later time. I want with this entry to focus on a single aspect. The thoughts that came to me while driving through the great mountains of this United States and the feelings . I looked out onto the greatness of this land and the beauty it possess and I thought of some things. Deep things. ...