Life's TRUE Journey

Hello Folks! OMG, I can't believe this weather we are having in Indianapolis! It's totally mild, a little damp with highs in the mid to upper 50's and it's the end of January!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's totally cool. Okay, I was thinking today that I want a baby. lol. I know it's not something people just think about, but I just feel like I want to be a dad right now, but then I got to thinking about the commitment I would have to have to the child, and I quickly dismissed that Ideal. I mean, I want children, but not right now. I'm perfectly happy being Uncle Tommy right now. 3 nieces, 1 nephew, 1 greatgrand Neice and 1 great grand nephew on the way. LOL. all this before I even turn 21. My mom had me way too late. My siter is 30 and my older brother is 39. Anyways, I'm feeling really good about myself and my life right nw. I just don't know why. I've been on this high, if you will, for about a month now. I mean, nothing has chang...

OMG, the Gays of my life are really pissing me off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In Alphabetical Order, Andrew is up first!!!! I wait for him to get online all the time. Just wait wait wait, because I love him or some bull like that, but he never shows up. I call call call, no answer. It's like, ugh. I mean, he is my boyfriend and we plan on moving in together, I think. Hmmm, are we still doing that? Anyways, it's like I make all this effort in this relationship, and he's making none! Ugh. Next, Johnny! Geezus, it's like he always turns on his away message when I get online and when we do talk, he just all of a sudden stops talking and puts on his away message. It's like, ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And Jordan! He gets upset because I tell one little joke that was meant to be totally innocent! Then, he gets mad, eventhough he doesn't act like it, and says that he has to go to bed. It's like, Ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then Justin, he comes by my house yeste...

Ugh Ugh Ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay, two things I totally hate. One is I totally hate when I give a person a nick name, then some one else hears me call that person that nick name , and then they start calling that person the nick name I gave them. UGH!!!!! There's something else I was pissed about, but now I can't remember! Geezus. O well, whatever.

Well, I found out that Rosie is on punishment yet again and won't be able to get online for a while. Only for one hour one Wenesdays, not that I know how to spell that. That's totally bumming me out. Andrew H. and I have been talking and I'm going to call him later. He's like the best guy ever!!!!!!! Geezus, I can't stand not touch him right now. I totally love him for some reason. Well, some other things happening right now, though my life is kinda boring right now, I lost 7 more punds. Yay for me. lol. I haven't seen Cheryl for a week or so now. I think I am avoiding her because things are getting to look like I'm being used to keep her happy with her loser boyfriend, and I want more than that for myself. (Sigh) Anyways, I cleaned my room up today to perfection. It's totally cool. I'm totally waiting for Brit's first brand new movie!!!! I will be the first to see it. OMG, I love her so much (Not in that way). Well, I...

Hey peeps Anywas, to the most important thing in the world; Me. I have a stalker. No, seriously. This girl name Ashley is telling people I sleep with her, and she's forever calling my number. I have like 20 emails from her in email box. She's totally psycho, and I don't know what to do with her. Ugh, popularity is not easy. Anywas, I don't care what anyone say, I like Micheal Jackson's music. People look at me totally weird for saying that, but I do. Sorry. Well, I'm totally tired. Rosie, where the hell are you? Do you not love me anymore. lol. We just haven't been getting on at the same time unless you have me on ignore. :( In other News It don't matter if you're black or white. Billy Jean is not my lover. Janet Jackson is so hot. I'm dead tired.

Okay, I'm back peeps. Anyways, I just wanted to tell Jordan how stupid and sorry I am. I mean, I said some really pissy things, acting like, what my friends call, a preppy little bitch. Jodan, dude, you are such a good person. I mean, even now, you are saying sorry to me because I was such a fucker to you. I mean, Jordan, it wasn't you. It was all me. I was the dick. I don't deserve to be your friend. You should not have to say sorry for anything because you did nothing wrong. You are like, very high on my nice list. You're totally cool (Not to mention cute) and I just wish you wouldn't appoligise to me for nothing. I'm the sorry SOB here. I mean it when I say, I don't deserve you. I mean, even after all I did, you still try to communicate with me in a nice way. You are absoulutly superb. Ugh, why are people so nice. Anyways, to more. Sorry peeps, there are a lot of things I have to say today. On my birthday, and the day after that, Ch...

OMG, I'm old. Happy birthday to me. Yuk, I'm 19 and I feel so old now. I feel like I've fallen and I can't get up. Okay, now, down to business. One rant that I have today is about TV. Ugh, okay, I'm bi, as you all know. Yay yay. But two people almost NEVER represented on tv is a Bi guy, or a homophobic person. It annoys the hell out of me. I mean, someone tell me one show that has a bi guy in it that's not x-rated. It totally suck. And then, no one shows homophobia. It's like, on Six Feet Under, they had one guy that called the black guy a fag, but it wasn't really homophobia because the guy didn't mean he hates gays. And then, when the white guy came out to his brother, to other folks at the bowling ally, or to his sister, they were all like YAY FOR GAY. I mean, everywhere I go I face homophobia. But not in tv. It's a poor representation on the part of television. Not that homophobia should be glorified, but hey., it still ex...

Okay, this is one of my PMS , can't get my thoughts straight blogs. So, yeah, bare with me. Fist, I would like to say that Ryan Phillipee and Heather Lockleire are the sexiest people alive. Anyways, I'm like majorly depressed right now for some reason. Okay, about a few weeks ago, I got hot and heavy with a guy named Justin, and it was like not the right time. So, I told him to stop, and he continued to (way graphic) finger me. I didn't want to fight him off or anything like that, but I didn't want this to happen. I said stop once and I didn't think he would listen if I said it again. So, he finally stopped when he got the clue that I wouldn't do that. So, I told some people what happened, and a friend of mine, Ashley, confronted him and apparently kicked him in his nuts or something, and it was the wrong thing to do because I didn't really tell her the whole story. I mean, it's not Justin's fault. It was mine. And Justin didn...

Dah dah dah dah dah dah dah, you say it's your birthday, dah dah dah dah dah, well happy birthday to ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today , my fellow Americians, is a day to rejoyce. To praise everything you have,. Because, if it weren't for this day, the world just would not be so great. 16 years ago on this day, the earth became more calm and more beautiful. Because, on thei day, my fellow Americians, Ms. Rosie Meyers of West Orange, New Jersey came out of her mothers, um.... womb. So, let this day be happy, Let us celibrate the day of Rosie, because no one else in the world deserves more happiness and love than my Rosie Pie. Love you Rosie. Other News I would tell you about my life, but this day is so special to me that I wish not bring it down. Damnit, they should make this day a holiday.

And to you Jodi Bowman, you rap listenings demented slutty bitch. It's not like I want to hear how you fuck yourself with your finger. Hello, I am surprized you would even want to touch yourself you stupid whore. My advice to Jarvis, run while he can because you are a no good, psycho bitch that needs to be put away from society perminatly. The world would be a better place if you were dead! In Other News I love you Rosie. Muah

I want to screw so bad. 2002 made me the horniest person ever. lmao.