You people suck. I'm sorry I can't be some loser that speaks slang or some slut who gives it up for a nickle. I went to the mall while I was in Vermont with a few friends of mine, and people come up and start mocking us because we were in a Gap store. They go, "Hey, are you people like totally clueless? " That was so stupid. I mean, so what if I would rather buy expensive clothes and would rather act better than. Maybe cause I feel as if I am better than. Then, it's naturally asumed that since I'm preppy and I'm a guy that I'm gay. Ughh,. Why can't people just get a life of their own and stop being so involved with me.
Ok, crying again. Depression is so stupid it sucks. Yeah, today, though, for a change, it's not about Aaron. But now I'm crying because I mentioned his name. But, the initial crying is because of Andrew Andrew Andrew H H H. God is very cruel to me, I'm thinking right now. Okay, I'm really crying right now and can;t see the screen. I don't understand why God made me love, I mean geinuenly love someone I could never have and it's just I don't understand why my heart is somewhere it doesn't belong. it's fucking insane. I'm so sic of feeling like I not going to be happy because of stupid little shit that shouldn't even be a fucking factor. God is suppiosed to be love. and love is supposed to besomething not easy to come by, but somehat that is obtainable. Why is it not for me. Why and I so fucking destined to be alone for my life. I want someone to fucking share this journey and I pled and I pray everyday. I follow the rules of ...