You people suck. I'm sorry I can't be some loser that speaks slang or some slut who gives it up for a nickle. I went to the mall while I was in Vermont with a few friends of mine, and people come up and start mocking us because we were in a Gap store. They go, "Hey, are you people like totally clueless? " That was so stupid. I mean, so what if I would rather buy expensive clothes and would rather act better than. Maybe cause I feel as if I am better than. Then, it's naturally asumed that since I'm preppy and I'm a guy that I'm gay. Ughh,. Why can't people just get a life of their own and stop being so involved with me.
It was an impulse thing. For weeks before my grand gesture of driving to North Carolina I was having pretty much a mental break down. A very grim dentist appointment, loneliness , attachment to things that could never be mine, weight gain, the pressure of business, taking care of an elderly paRant. At one point I just stood in the middle of a room not know where to go literally and figuratively . All of a sudden an opportunity popped up for me to go and I did. Anyone who knows me know I'm not an impulsive person but I just had to do this. To clear my head, to refocus myself. I can get into the details on the trip at a later time. I want with this entry to focus on a single aspect. The thoughts that came to me while driving through the great mountains of this United States and the feelings . I looked out onto the greatness of this land and the beauty it possess and I thought of some things. Deep things. ...