I'm totally depressed. My real life friend, Mia, thru me out of her house because her boyfriend and I got into an arguement. Mia and I have been friends for over 5 years, and she got pregnant last year by some convict and now he thinks he's in control. Obviously he is. She goes, "I think you should leave Tom. " I was like, okay. So I got home and for no reason I started crying. I hate being on the outside looking in. That hurt me so much.
Ok, crying again. Depression is so stupid it sucks. Yeah, today, though, for a change, it's not about Aaron. But now I'm crying because I mentioned his name. But, the initial crying is because of Andrew Andrew Andrew H H H. God is very cruel to me, I'm thinking right now. Okay, I'm really crying right now and can;t see the screen. I don't understand why God made me love, I mean geinuenly love someone I could never have and it's just I don't understand why my heart is somewhere it doesn't belong. it's fucking insane. I'm so sic of feeling like I not going to be happy because of stupid little shit that shouldn't even be a fucking factor. God is suppiosed to be love. and love is supposed to besomething not easy to come by, but somehat that is obtainable. Why is it not for me. Why and I so fucking destined to be alone for my life. I want someone to fucking share this journey and I pled and I pray everyday. I follow the rules of ...