40 Dirty Little SecretsBe honest no matter what.[ONE] Who were your last 3 texts from?All of them from my ex Joshua[TWO] Where was your default taken ?In a room[THREE] What's your middle name?Um, I'm not telling, but I have two and they start with C and J[FOUR] Your current relationship status?Kissing a certain boy, but not totally steady because it's the kiss kiss phase. Not even dating.[FIVE] Does your crush like you back?Not as much as I would like[SIX] What is your current mood?Stiff but excited that I'm loosing weight[SEVEN] Are you shy?It used to be 90% shy, but it's down to about 65%[EIGHT] What color shirt are you wearing?Black[NINE] If you were to go on a reality TV show, which one would you go on?WIPEOUT, TOTALLY! ( I love amanda Jo and this confirms it)TEN] Are you imagining anyone naked right now?Well, Amanda Jo and Chris . mmmmm.[ELEVEN] Did you ever sneak into an R rated movie?No.[TWELVE] Ever had a near death experience?Yes, a couple. I think I really should be dead right now.[THIRTEEN] Something you do a lot?Take pictures and video[FOURTEEN] Angry at anyone?Somewhat, but Jesus Metropolitan Community Church is helping me through all the anger bullcrap[FIFTEEN] Do you want to see somebody right now?Hell yesSIXTEEN] What piercing's do you have?Honey, none. But damn I want one of my nips done so bad. If only I weren't so scared.[SEVENTEEN] When was the last time you cried?Yesterday in public because I finished reading The Diary of Anne Frank and I couldn't help it.[EIGHTEEN] Who would you do anything for?Anyone at church and my family.[NINETEEN] Are you doing anything stupid in life right now?Yes. But it's a great time to just be stupid.[TWENTY] What is the one thing you notice about the opposite sex first?Their boyfriends.[TWENTY-TWO] What's your biggest fear?Missing the love of my life because of stupid superficial things.[TWENTY-THREE] Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?Yes. I'm just a big friggen kid right now.[TWENTY-FOUR] Who's pimp?Ummmm, Bill Clinton?[TWENTY-FIVE] Do you speak any other languages?Yes, quite a few, but only strong ones are Spanish and English.[TWENTY-SIX] Whats your favorite smell?The scent of a man, just out of the shower and working out just slightly with the hint of Curve still on his skin. mmmmmmmmm.[TWENTY-SEVEN] Describe your life?A series of ups and downs but not much sex. A life that examples could be made of, both good and bad.[TWENTY-EIGHT] Last time you were mad?Ummmm, hard to say.[TWENTY-NINE] Why are you still single?Because I've not much to offer but fun and personality.[THIRTY] Have you ever kissed in the rain?Always wanted to[THIRTY-ONE] Do you like the rain?Extremely[THIRTY-TWO] What are you thinking about right now?Kissing in the rain.[THIRTY-THREE] What should you be doing right now?Preparing for my job interview[THIRTY-FOUR] What's your favorite memory?Any and all family Gatherings[THIRTY-FIVE] What are you listening to?Some John Mayer because he makes me effing horny and he dumped Jenn to be with me[THIRTY-SIX] Where would you like to live?Not in this country.[THIRTY-SEVEN] Who was the last person you yelled at?Honey, I don't yell.[THIRTY-EIGHT] Do you act differently around the person you like?Yes, weirdly, I'm much more open and just excitable and like just hyper hyper hyper[THIRTY-NINE] What's your natural hair color?Red[FORTY] Who is the last person that made you smile?Joshua
Feeling Sad Hearing Jet- Look what we've Done Short Ooooo, look what you've done. You've made a fool of everyone. Oh well, it seems like such fun until you loose what you have have won. JUST DEPRESSION: Kevin wants me to quit my job. What can I say? Um, doesn't help that I started PMS'ing yesterday. I can think straight. I haven't anyone to turn to right now. My friends are away. Somehow I'm to wake up tomorrow and watch my best friend get married while I am so alone. While I'm so sad. While, I'm nothing but mush. And all day tomorrow I will have to keep that stupid smile on my face which draws me seconds closer to suicide. I'm sick. I'm tired. I barly have energy to get out of bed. I'm thinking selffishly. I've not lost myself, I've just made sure I can never be found for this depression is deeper, stronger, and more endurring than any of it's predesesors. To my lord I turn, to no avail, to my friends I tur...