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Ooooo my, they have me so right. I do have "naughty" tapes of me and um, other persons I can not disclose. LOL.

kay, this is a short blog jot. I just wanted to tell what happened tonight since none of my friends are around to vent with. Ok, first, in Plainfield at a little party with Shawna. She acts stupid and let her stupid boyfriend talk her into take some kind of drug. I don't know what. But, I've never been into that turn you psycho shit , so I left pissed off at her. I don't want to be around that. Ugh. Then, like a dumbass, I want to drown my sorrows, so I stop at a McDonald's. I ask for the McChicken value meal with Orange to drink, and two apple pies. Ok, so, she tells me the total, and I'm not picky about money, but understand I'm in a bad mood. Okay, " I'm sorry, that's not the right price is it" to which the young ( censored ) lets just say lady replies " Yes, it is. " then she shows me her screen. Okay, well, the pies are two for a dollar dollar people. This ( Censored ) girl put in there 2 of the 2 pies for a dollar. Ok, peeps, what's two times two? If you said four, give yourself a kiss. SO, I point out her mistake, and she goes " well, that's just the way it rings up. It means just two pies" So, okay, I said forget it. I would have better luck with the guy that puts me order in the back. Surely he'll see it's four total pies. At this point I'm thinking my nieces might be at home, so screw it, I'll take the two extra pies. So, I go to fill up my drink, and I come back and there's my order waiting. Yay, I'm glad to get out of here. Wait, I look in my bag, there is only two pies. But I was charged for four. Ok, well, I hadn't taken my zoloft for more than an hour, so I'll blame it on that. I go up to her, with the receipt that has the prices. " Hey, if it was put in for only two, and I only got two, why am I being charge two dollars for two pies if they are two for a dollar." SO, the little ( censored) says to me, as if she were mocking the way I speak " OMG, that is totally untotaled. " So, the manager comes by and stop me from using foul language towards this (censored) and looks at the receipt and told the girl how to ADD and put in two pies not two two pies! So, she says whatever, and he makes here give me my money. Now, this next part, just remember that I haven't taken my zoloft in the past hour. Ok, so, she kinda throws my money down (which she gave me $1.26. Too much, but who am I to complain. Tom never complains of anything, right?), and the manager walks away. SO, I innocently picking up my money off the counter, I innocently tipped over my drink and it ran all on the counter and got a little on her. She jumps back and lets out a guttering shriek. I innocently say " I'm sorry" with an exaggerated frown face, went by the fountain drinks, refilled, and left out. Yay for me. So, I'm psycho. But the look on her face was sooooo worth it. Thank you girl at the West Morris McDonald's.

Ok, well, Kerra is not around. She thinks I'm upset about her going over her "ex" boyfriend's house. I don't care, honestly. I love her, but she's not my wife (yet) so she should do whatever she wants. Love ya Kerra.

O, also, Dustin thinks I'm mad at him because he.................................. he........................... he................... (frown) he is dating my ex boyfriend RIcky. But, I'm not. LOL. Honestly, Ricky and I were two weeks and out. SO, Dustin, I know you don't have a net connection, so you'll most likely read this at my house, but wherever you are tonight with Ricky, it's ok. I haven't called because I've been busy and I still love you like a big brother. It's ok. You deserve to be happy and Ricky happens to be a very sensitive person ( And a superb lover from what I've heard. )

Ok, anyone else who thinks I'm upset with them, get over it. I'm not. I love you all and wish to make love to all of you on the moon as soon as we establish civilization up there.

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