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Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh to everyone! I drive around with Rob and we were talking like usual. His wife's a bitch, my life's a bitch. And I mention something about this woman we say. I was like, hey baby, and then I got angry when she didn't respond and drove away. Then I said " I get mad when I don't get what I want" and then he says, being the stupid man that he and all men are, "Well, you must get mad a lot" and I was like into rage because, gezzzz, that's such a bad thing to say at the point of my life that of which I am in right now. Am I over using the words? So, I don't know if I'm mad at Rob or not.
Rosie, on the other hand continues to be my stone. She's so good to me. She sent me this poem that I sent to her a long time ago because yesterday I mentioned that I was feeling that I had grown cold inside and feelingless, and she found the poem I sent her just to point out that I do have feelings and I felt it was totally sweet. See, that's what a real best friend is all about.
Cheryl dumped Jimmy and now she's going out with this guy named Ricky. She goes thru men like shirts, but please don't tell her I said that. She's totally weird acting around me now. It's like, she shut 90% of herself off from me, and I don''t know why.
Fuck me!!!! OMG, I forgot Brit's new movie is out. I've been so busy I forgot to go see it. Well, guess I'll have to get up tomorrow!
Well, I'm off to bed since I need to get up tomorrow to see the movie. Bi bi peeps.

In Other News
Booger is comming back from his week vacation with my Mom Tomorrow
Will is Gay
Silvia is Bi
I smell like Cheese Nips
Andrew H. I hope you choke on a fat cock.


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