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OMG, okay. Years ago I had this friend named Bruce and he was the like first guy I really had, you know, feelings for. I mean, we never did anything and we both knew where each other stood. I was Bi and he was totally straight. But he was like next in line for Best Friend title behind Andrew J and I totally loved him. But, then about 3 years ago, he moved away. We had been getting really close near the time when he left to the point where I thought he might, you know, give in. But he left, so oh well. Well, I seen him today. He's back in town WITH A BABY ON THE WAY! He's girlfriend who he was with before he left, yeah the one that he broke up with, is pregnant. I was like, ugh! But I guess I'm happy for him. I mean, seeing him stirred up all these emotions and I wasn't ready for that. Anyways!
Today I found out when my friend Shawnia is leaving. In June, she'll be going to California to persue her modeling carrerr that I helped her start. She wants me to come with her, but I really can't. I'm going to crying so hard when she leaves. I love the way she would always jump on my and hump me like a dog with our clothes on and the ways she calls me Fairy Queen all the time. OMG, it's so sad. Geezus, all my other friends are so conservative. I need to get out more because my friends list is shortening more and more. I dumped Michael as my best friend because I come to find out he's an ass and a heavy pot user. So, I have no best friend really. Well Rosie is my best friend, but Rosie and I are on such a higher level. It's like we are soul mates, but not as in boyfriend girlfriend (Though I often wish) :P Oh well, I think I better go. I missed Britney Spears on SNL and I'm totally pissed. I tried to get home earlier but we had a full house because of the stupid superbowl tomorrow and Mardi Gras so at the club we kinda had our own Mardi Gras in Indianapolis. Nothing like old gal and guys pinching your ass all night. lol. I showed my rack and got a couple of beeds. I have to do this shit tomorrow too. I'm so exhausted. I need rest. Nighty Nighty.
In Other News
Cheryl and I skated together at a local skating rink. So cool. DOn't worry Jimmy was there.
Rosie, I miss you more I swear.
I think my boyfriend is avoiding me.
Code Red Mountain dew (Shivers) omg so good.
Sorry Brit.

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