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Hey Girl and boyfriends. lol. I turned into a fem over night. Anyways, I noticed I didn't tell the reason why Cheryl and I broke up. I know everyone was soooooooooooooooooooooo anxious to know. Well, I'm not longer a virgin first off. Finally went farther than sucky sucky, licky licky. I didn't really know if I should put that in this blog because I really have some friends out there that would be very upset with the news, but I think I told everyone I needed to, and the rest will find out if they read this. I lost it on October 24. It wasn't good at all. No offense to Cheryl. It's just not what I expected. And afterwards, I just got more irratateed with Cheryl and her ex boyfriend. So I broke it off with her. Then, we became friends again and I found out two big things from her. Number 1, befoure me, she had sex with about 10 other guys, and two, the reason why her ex boyfriend was always around was because they had a child togther, that she miscarried. It's funny the things you can find out when you're just friends, not lovers. Cheryl and I had dinner thhe other day, and I must tell you all the truth, I was really wanting to crawl back to her. She was tellling me all this stuff and really opening up. She looked sooo beautiful. But I snapped out of it. I dunno. I most likely just want to be with someone right now. No no no. I take that back. I don't. I just want more friends.

BRIT'S NEW ALBUM IS OUT. I am totally hyped about it. I love it. I want to kiss her poster all day and night. lol. And Willow, off of Buffy the tv show, is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fuckin hot. Not because she's a lesbian though. Welll, not in real life. Uh oh, I'm falling apart.

Other news
I was asked to be part of a threesome.
Rosie Finally Gave me her Address. (I'll post it later)
Amanda F. is comming back
I'm hungry.

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