I've had the Flu for about a week, so I haven't been able to really concentrate on writting in here. But I'm back. Todays worry is about getting old. I'll tell you what brought this on. A good internet friend of mine asked me to call him. Well, I didn't call but I did do this voice thingy with MSN messenger. So, I said hello to him and he started telling me that I sound like an old person. This, of course, hurt my feelings because everything hurts my feelings. Then, later that same day, Doug called me ugly. Well, we were playing around, I said to him, "God your a stupid booze drinking small dick loser" and then he in turn said, "You're a ugly 50 cent slut" and I took it to heart. God, I'm so stupid sometimes. I went and cried. I think I need some anti-depressants. I think I'm in depression but I don't know. I still have a totally high self esteem, and I like to get out and all that. It's that I'm way more emothinal now. Anyways, blah blah. Gotta get up early tomorrow. I hate a date. Yahoooooo. Tell you about it in two days.
Hello Folks! OMG, I can't believe this weather we are having in Indianapolis! It's totally mild, a little damp with highs in the mid to upper 50's and it's the end of January!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's totally cool.
Okay, I was thinking today that I want a baby. lol. I know it's not something people just think about, but I just feel like I want to be a dad right now, but then I got to thinking about the commitment I would have to have to the child, and I quickly dismissed that Ideal. I mean, I want children, but not right now. I'm perfectly happy being Uncle Tommy right now. 3 nieces, 1 nephew, 1 greatgrand Neice and 1 great grand nephew on the way. LOL. all this before I even turn 21. My mom had me way too late. My siter is 30 and my older brother is 39.
Anyways, I'm feeling really good about myself and my life right nw. I just don't know why. I've been on this high, if you will, for about a month now. I mean, nothing has chang...