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Visits and Understanding

 Hey people. What's in the Tommy Times today?

So the last couple weeks my BFF Jim has been in town ( He retired and moved to Illinois in july).

Was rather upset with him because it was like he was here for so long and wanted to wait until the last days of his visit to actually visit with me. If anything  I have been learn is never put off what you can do today Till an unpromised  tomorrow.  Thought he would have learned that but no. 


Guess i just took it way too personal. I mean if I were in town the first thing I'd do is visit the people who I care about the most. 


Well we spent time together yesterday. Though hurt by it, I figured I wont be too huffy about it. We spent a little time talking about it but moved on to just being happy with conversation.  


I love that man. He has been with me for 13+ years. Listening to all the crap I have to say and through life events. We understand one another like others dont.


Ewww sounds too romantical. Lol. People often try to get us romantically  involved. I love him and he me but it's never crossed over into that romantical stuff. We are just two gay guys who arent interested  in one another. Besides he is triple my age. 😜😜


Well after over a decade of not going to the dentist,  I have an appointment  for monday. My anxiety is flairing  so much. I dont know how I'm going to get through it honestly. We'll  see . 


In Other  News:


Rest well Ruth  B. Ginsburg . 


2020 Sucks swamp ass


Business was rough today. Lots of "extra" people. 





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