Okay, so I get up with the flu, or course and I drag myself to school. While in my Psychology class, I start to get all hot, and my vision becomes expelled. So, I got all sick all of a suddened, and passed out and the perimedics came and took me to the hospital. So, I get tere and they are wheeling by four convicts bloody and shit, and I'm like "I'm so out of here" It was no big deal anyways because it's just the flu. So, I go to my Communications class and head to my car to discover I locked my keys in my car! Ugh. So I had to call the campus police. They helped me back in the car. SO, I get home and tell my mom what happened today and she totally bitches me out because I didn't call her when I was in the hospital. I mean, it wasn't a big deal, and I didn't need her comming down pretending like she gave a damn. Ugh. so, yeah. And Cory called today. i didn't answer.
Ok, crying again. Depression is so stupid it sucks. Yeah, today, though, for a change, it's not about Aaron. But now I'm crying because I mentioned his name. But, the initial crying is because of Andrew Andrew Andrew H H H. God is very cruel to me, I'm thinking right now. Okay, I'm really crying right now and can;t see the screen. I don't understand why God made me love, I mean geinuenly love someone I could never have and it's just I don't understand why my heart is somewhere it doesn't belong. it's fucking insane. I'm so sic of feeling like I not going to be happy because of stupid little shit that shouldn't even be a fucking factor. God is suppiosed to be love. and love is supposed to besomething not easy to come by, but somehat that is obtainable. Why is it not for me. Why and I so fucking destined to be alone for my life. I want someone to fucking share this journey and I pled and I pray everyday. I follow the rules of ...