Life's TRUE Journey

Okay, cursor, enough with the blinking. I will type now!!!! Geez. Hello everyone. Welcome to my blog, and double welcome to my Annual Thank Yous. I'll start with a quick update. I'm sleeping better now. I had a chance to hear some stories of Mike and stories of Dannon that I hadn't ever heard. It was nice to reflect and to be around people who knew them a lot longer than I had. It's so nice to hear the impact people have on other's lives in such positive way. I find such comfort in that. I'm restarting this year. I was thinking how much I hated 2010. But then, I think on it in this way. it was the last year that I was able to spend with Mike and the only year I was able to know Dannon so I can't hate or dismiss it. It holds cherished memories and I will give it at least that respect. As I move on with the New Year, I won't forget the many many lessons I learned, and the friends that will not be traveling through 2011 with me in the physica...

Well, one could say that I have failed already at so much.... yet I am not of that thinking. Hello my friends. I know this should be my annual Thank Yous being posted, but I'm gonna delay that just a couple more weeks as I gather myself again. Why would I need to gather myself? Well, life happened. I would rather right now type about that than to post the Thank yous. It's my outlet. So, a few weeks ago, I was steadfast in going about my resolutions. I knew that it may be a bumpy road. The difference is that I am actually able to deal with the detours that life gives me rather than jumping out of the car on the side of the highway and crying. I will describe what happened in accordance to my resolutions. I will basically give the update on said resolutions which will explain why life just got side tracked. If you don't remember or never read my resolutions, they are at the bottom of this blog. So, we will start with #1. After reality set in after I had an ex...

Hey peeps. I just had my second night of restless tossing turning crying sleep. It gets better I know. I'm just so tore up about the death of my friends. I know it's what we all go through and that it's not going to go away overnight. I'm trying to deal though. New Years eve, I received even more bad news that my ex was in a car wreak. I just lost it. I called and he says everything is fine. Just the car is pretty much done for. After hanging up the phone with him, I wanted to head right over to my pain pill but I knew the headache that developed was not a physical thing. So, I said, I"I have to get the hell out of this house" . Luckily, I have an amazing support team (Dan and Jordan) who got me and my mother and we went to Indiana Live Casino for their new years eve celebration. I know I know, trading in my pain killer addiction for my gambling addiction. lol. Luckily, I don't really have a gambling addiction. I don't even gamble much. It was just nic...

As I take this time of reflection as many people do during this time of year, I think of how to do my annual Thank Yous. Because I set the rules that never will my thank yous have any hint of negativity, how am I to do it in a year filled with the most negativity I've experienced. I will be able to do my thank yous this year, because in the rough, it's easy to see diamonds. At least for me it is. Last year, I wasn't even able to do my thank yous due to the way the beginning of this year started. So, I've pledged to do them. I loosely made some resolutions that I did not keep at all. 2010 was one of the worst years on record for me. It was just horrible. It started horrible, got better during the middle, then ended horrible. So, after New Years, I will be posting my Thank Yous. I hope that those people who are tagged will read them because I don't say thank you enough to them. But, for now, I'm going to repost my thank yous from 2008. I think it's good not on...

When in heat.... blog. Current mood: animated Well, hello all my friends, fans, and stalkers. Welcome to another all new post of the greatest blog ever invented by a queer. (Eat me Perez!) LOL. Yes, I said it. Well, I don't think I'm as interesting as he is, but I think I can connect better. Anyways, I just wanted to give you all a little update on the happenings in Queerdom, Indiana. Specifically, the reigning leader of the Gays; Me. So, with all the troubling things that have happened in Indianapolis recently (Not only with me and the job loss, thelove lifedeath, and the pain of just getting by, but also with the officers killing people off, and the mayor and government of Indiana just sucking so bad with providing for it's citizens) I have been in contact with my ex who proposed something. He has a nice property down in Jacksonville, Florida and he will be out of town for few weeks, then in town for a few weeks so he really needs someone to house sit and help out with t...

Sorry, I didn't have a chance to proof read this blog, so forgive me if it's out of order or filled with mistakes. Well, it's been a while. I'm bringing my blog out of retirement. Yet. So, there's just a few things I would like to say. The Price of Pride: I can not conclude the previous blog as I wanted to (Wrapped up in a pretty neat bow, sealed with a kissy wissy). I've pretty much went thru so much that I don't even know how I wanted to concluded. So, I will speak as a present person. Some people have said to me " Tommy, don't you think that it would just be much easier on you if you weren't so "prideful" wherever you go? This is true I think in many respects, but so not true in others. After my grand escape from the confines of high school, where I had many lovers (none of which were gay or even bi. I don't know how they rationalized that, but I wasn't one to complain because my main goal in High school was pleasure. My ph...

I gotta feeling....... That tonight's gonna be a good night!!!!!! So, hello everyone. Thanks for taking the time to listen to what I have to say. I know, I'm the most interesting person around. lol. Anyways on to the update. I wish to explain what happened at the Job. Since I can not remember dates, I will just say week one, two, and three. Week one, we got an online complaint that I was....... wait for it........ on the front line ignoring customers and .................... FONDLING AND BEING FONDLES BY A FEMALE CO WORKER, Jorden. Now, you know I'm all about the females and can't keep my hands to myself when I see a pair of boobies. Well, the owner had a talk with me about ti. Basically , he didn't give it any thought. Just a random angry customer. Then, week two rolls around and I get another complaint that is almost the same as the previous one but for a different day. At this point the owner didn't even bring this one up until week three when we got a very s...

Well, hello my dear friends. Told you I would update soon. Well, I am. So, up today is my addiction to Lady Gaga. Monday, tickets to her show went on sell. I had been planning to see her for a very long time. I love her as a performer. All my planning, though, did nothing to incorporate the medical things that happened last month. Long story short, I did not have enough money in the end to get the tickets for her show in Indianapolis in July. This sadden me greatly. I'm not one to be sad about what I don't have and what I can't have. Nor, do I cry over little things as concert tickets or things like that. In fact, I've not wanted to see a concert since I was 18. So, when I determined that I would not be able to attend, yes I did get upset to the point of tears flowing from my eyes. This puzzled some. I guess I was puzzled with myself as well. How could I be so upset about not being able to see Lady Gaga? Well, I don't have an answer for that. But I do have an answer...

Well, I guess I'm going to intro into a blog. Lets start off with a song. After the song, the update. All below. (Fade to black) (Spotlight Thomas in all black) Don't be scared I've done this before Show me your teeth Don't want no money (want your money) That shit's is ugly Just want your sex (want your sex) Take a bit of my bad man l meat (bad Man meat) Take a bite of me Show me your teeth Let me see your mean Got no direction (no direction) I need direction Just got my vamp (got my vamp) Take a bite of my bad man meat (bad man meat) Take a bit of me boy Show me your teeth The truth is sexy Tell me something that'll save me I need a man who makes me alright (man who makes me alright) Just tell me when it's alright Tell me something that'll change me I'm gonna love you with my hands tied Show me your teeth Just tell me when Show me your teeth Open your mouth boy Show me your teeth Show me whatcha got Show me your teeth teeth teeth teeth Got no salva...

Well, i feel this great need to post a blog, but I haven't a clue what to post. How do I put into words what I feel about anything? I sit an look at the beautiful dusting of snow that falls on this cold Indianapolis afternoon. My thoughts are with so many people. To my ex who is getting ready to move He's recovering from years of abuse of controlled substances. We spent the night together two nights in a row. Just holding each other and working through those issues that I put off years to discuss. I got the closure that I needed. His life is a wreck, but he says to me that my love is what has inspired him to do better. How I did not expect to hear that. I think I've humbled myself so much that sometimes I loose track of the fact that I really do impact some people in a positive way. In the eleven years I've known my ex, that's the best and most shocking thing he has ever said to me. It was sincere, I know, because it wasn't an attempt to get in my pants or get a...

See, I told you that I would be posting a blog on regularly। I know it's just one, but I think i will be able to keep up with it if I really try। Also, I am about to purchase a new laptop that will allow me to connect to the net anytime I want, so I can do this! Now, on to some stuff। Matthew are you stalking me?:Well, ever since Matthew left me to go for a shot at his ex boyfriend (which that shot missed big time।), our friendship has been distant. I was hurt for a while, then after time I was able to give forgiveness. I didn't resume the relationship or anything like that. I just let that anger and all that bad stuff go. Recently, though, I've been getting a few reports from people that Matt has been asking them questions about me and approaching them and hanging out where I work excessively. I never paid any attention to it because I'm very busy at work. But once my boss made mention of these facts, I've been more vigilant. Two days ago, I seen Matt at...