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Hey peeps.
Tonight, my dumbass friends left without me and I'm pissed about that. Oh well.

I'm missing my friend Jhoeny. She's going thru a lot of shit right now and is not able to get online and I'm missing the hell out of her. I can't speak with Kerra because she's down in Flordia. And Andrew isn't in the talking mod today . male PMS. So, I'm bored off my ass today.

OMG, I was almost in another car wreck today. Jhoeny is gonna totally laugh when she hears this. It was due to the WLOPS Jhoeny. :-). So, i was driving and making a left hand turn and I seen this........... this............ Spider that just flew in the window. I'm driving and trying to blow this thing out of the window, but it kep webbing down. So, I end up on a grassy curve and blowing andfreaking and being dumb. LOL. I finally opened my burger king cup and covered it. I let Dan release itwhen I got to his house. Am I crazy? Don't answer that.

Well, I went to a spa this morning with Shawna. I'm bi and all, but I never go to spas and stuff like that, but I did enjoy myself today. Kinda weird havingthis obviously gay guy rubbing me up and wrapping me. I wish they would have had a mexican guy doing all that. Hee hee hee. I'm such a whore. Shawna was way turned on by her massurer. I promissed not to tell Justin. Hee hee.

Well, I was a slut about a week ago. I made out with Ashley N. We were both a little tipsy and I stirred some batter, but no sex or baking. Yeah yeah, I know. I'm really rying to be a role model here, but come on. Yadda. Shit, I'm going to clean my room. I'll post more later. Did you like my care bear?

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