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Sorry it took a while. The date sucked so bad, I wished he died on the way home. :). Oh well. I'm still happy. Well, yeah, happy. I'll be happier when I get back into school. At least there, I feel as if I am around people with at least some sense.
I've had too much time to think about too many things and I feel that stupid depression might creep back up on me. But, amazingly, I've been dealing with it well. I haven't allowed myself to dip into that bag. You all would be so proud of me.
Shawna and I are at odds a bit. It's stupid actually. Hopefully some of you can relate to my situation. Shawna is a total fag hag ( See, that's why she's my bestest friend, yet I'm always competing with other queers for he attention and that's just so not right. ) But that's nt the point. She brings these guys to my house or to my work place and she trys to set me up with these guys. I tell her not to do that because the guys that she bring are these totally white and totally posh guys with nothing much more than thier looks and their six packs. She's always like " Fairy Queen, look what I brought for you" and I'm all like "ew" . She's loosing touch as to what I am and what I like. It feels like She's not listening to me anymore. We just aren't on the same wave length. It really sucks.
I'm not going to talk about Jason because he's a total ass and I hope he gets cancer.
Not going to talk about Kelly cause I have better things to do with my time.
Lets talk about Andrew Hernandez, the fag! Ugh. I swear he is the most annoyig person I know. Ever since I started talking with his "boyfriend" J, I found out he's just a total liar and such an ass. Yeah, this is the guy I was in love with . Yeah, whatever. I'm still not going to distrust Andrew because that's what friends are all about. But if what all J says is true, Andrew's been lieing to me all the years we've known each other, and that really sucks.
Another paragraph about Drewsey you say. Fine. Why is it that he says we are friends and he is in love with J and all that shit. So when I say, " Hey I'm comming to Texas and I think I want to meet Cole" he's all uset because I won't meet with him and be all lovey dovey with him. Hello, we're just friends. Andrew made it perfectly clear he has no more interest in being with me or any of that shit. So why is it so friggen wrong for me to meet a guy that we both know! geezus. I'm not his bitch, so why is he treating me as such. I'm not going to wait around hoping that Drew and Jay break up. It's that simple. I have a life and I'm going to live it damnit. Ugh. I need to go punch something. Bye!

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