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Okay, so Cheri's ex boyfriend, Darryl, really wants hurt back. There were like high school sweethearts ever since middle school. Anyways, he keeps calling her and keeps comming around when Cheri and I are together, so I kinda threatened his life yesterday. Well, obviously it's working because he has left her alone since than. I don't know if he's plotting his next attack or what. Speaking of Cheri, she just walked in so I have to hurry this up.
Rosie and I stopped talking to each other about a week or two ago because I had asked her if I could call her or have her call me. You know, we've been net buds for a very long time. Almost a year now. And she was like, "I can't trust you" But I was extreamly hurt because she let Dan, her other net buddy, turned boyfriend call her and mail her things and all that good stuff. But, I finally decided that I should let it go. I can't force her to do that. So, I called Andrew H. another net buddy for the very first time and all I got to say is hi, and then Cheri walked in and I couldn't really talk to him because she doesn't know yet. OMG, that's a big thing. She's doesn't know that I'm bi and I don't know how to tell her. I didn't mean for this friendship/relationship to get this far and now that we are official boyfriend girlfriend. Crap, you see how I get myself into this crap.
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My mom thinks every letter she gets has Amthrax.
I hope Lex wins Survivor!
I'm leaving.

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