Blah bitches blah!!!!
So, I drove by his house a coupl of times. You know, Cory! Ugh. Sucs. I want him n jail, yet I want to know what's going on with him. It's just that no one understood me like he did. Or maybe he just was good at making me feel as if he did.
So, okay, the other day Rosie gets online and she totally attacked me. I was asking about the wedding of her and Dan and I was going to let her know what address to send it to, and she was like, "Um, I don't really now you" I was so brokenhearted. She's been like my bestest girl friend ( Notice that girl friend is not one word. ) for three years now and I've shared things with her I wouldn't and have never shared with anyone else! Hell the fuck o! It was a sucker punch. I totally hate when my "friends" start getting serious with a guy and it's like, to hell with the fag named Tommy. So, whatever. I think along with giving up with the ideal of being happy and in love with someoe, I will also give up the notion of ever having a true friend you an be super close to. God, it's like I'm giving up on life, but it's all these people who are maing this so. Cory, Andrew, Rosie, Shawna, Kelly. Have I been living in a state of diluision . Have I actually been so out of my mind to believe that these people actually cared anything about me. Cole keeps saying that I need to get a reality check, but if the reality is that I have no true friends, no love in my heart for anything, and I'm loosing every battle for my life I really would rather be dillusional for the rest of my pathetic life. It sucks major chinesse balls.
Oh God, now I'm reminded of what Jay said about my blog. " It's always depressing and you tak everything too seriously" I don't get it. How can I not take this shit seriously. All my friends are jumping ship, I'm loosing my love and passion for things because my heart keeps being broken by people I put way too much faith and effort into. It sucks major ass and there is no way I'm going to get thru this. I'm weak, I'm tired, and most painful, I'm alone!
So, I drove by his house a coupl of times. You know, Cory! Ugh. Sucs. I want him n jail, yet I want to know what's going on with him. It's just that no one understood me like he did. Or maybe he just was good at making me feel as if he did.
So, okay, the other day Rosie gets online and she totally attacked me. I was asking about the wedding of her and Dan and I was going to let her know what address to send it to, and she was like, "Um, I don't really now you" I was so brokenhearted. She's been like my bestest girl friend ( Notice that girl friend is not one word. ) for three years now and I've shared things with her I wouldn't and have never shared with anyone else! Hell the fuck o! It was a sucker punch. I totally hate when my "friends" start getting serious with a guy and it's like, to hell with the fag named Tommy. So, whatever. I think along with giving up with the ideal of being happy and in love with someoe, I will also give up the notion of ever having a true friend you an be super close to. God, it's like I'm giving up on life, but it's all these people who are maing this so. Cory, Andrew, Rosie, Shawna, Kelly. Have I been living in a state of diluision . Have I actually been so out of my mind to believe that these people actually cared anything about me. Cole keeps saying that I need to get a reality check, but if the reality is that I have no true friends, no love in my heart for anything, and I'm loosing every battle for my life I really would rather be dillusional for the rest of my pathetic life. It sucks major chinesse balls.
Oh God, now I'm reminded of what Jay said about my blog. " It's always depressing and you tak everything too seriously" I don't get it. How can I not take this shit seriously. All my friends are jumping ship, I'm loosing my love and passion for things because my heart keeps being broken by people I put way too much faith and effort into. It sucks major ass and there is no way I'm going to get thru this. I'm weak, I'm tired, and most painful, I'm alone!